Hey gnarly sorry that I couldnt carifly that much its because my husband was in the room and I was sarced that he would read what I was writing. My mother in law has my kids, she said she would take them while I got off methadone which at first I that thought that would be great. And I know you are sopost to go down really slow but I starting missing My kids so much that I started going down 10 mg a day and then I was on 40 mg and got my take homes for the week and toke 3 doses at once and got really high, and then a few days later a bought 100 mg from someone and was sopost to save that for the three days that I was short , but because I had gotting a taste of getting high I toke that too and got high, I really feel bad because this not what I wanted to be happening right now my kids are not here and I wanted to get off of methadone but I don't think I can be away from them that long I am very depressed about this. I don't know what to do. We are in a hotel right now and we moving into a house this weekend and I was thinking about going and getting them after we get moved in and just start going down 2 or 3 mg a week so I can still take care of them.Another thing to is I am having to pay for the methadone right now untill I can get into a clinic that accepts medicaid that would help me to be able to go down slower because my husband is getting mad about having to pay 100 dollars a week. But right now I have no methadone for today or sat or sun do you think I will be o.k?
HI welcome to the forum......a lot depends on how fost your coming off it alarms me to here you say you came from 120 down to 40 and now your mad at yourself for having some twice this week ....that is way to fast of a taper and your going to feel like you got hit by a train mentally and emotionally thats way to fast of a taper im really hoping im miss understanding this please post back with a bit more clarity coming off methadone takes months to do it nothing your going to do in a week or 2 the recovery time is typically 90 days after you last dose tyis stuff is not like the pills it plays by its own rules I would love to help you just clarafy some stuff and give me a bit more info will see what we can do good luck and God bless.......Gnarly