just wanted to say....

[BeyondScrewed]

thank you. looking in from time to time was the only thing that got me through this hellish day. am i off of the damn dope? no
but i am at the tail end of 48 hours with no smoking. i think i mentioned several posts ago that i screwed up big time and went on another tear. and when i go, i go big time. BIG TIME.
i will say it again, PLEASE NEVER EVER smoke any opiate. i have never iv'ed, but i cannot imagine any w/d worse than this. and that is even with me still swallowing pills today. i am feeling so depressed, low, and horrible that i can barley bring myself to write this. cant even get up and take a shower.
but again, thank you so very very much to all of you wonderful people who are so honest, yet so compationate.

[Brightfutureahead]

It's great that you keep posting and sharing...but I've noticed you haven't addressed what the above poster mentioned ...what are your plans?

[ImDONENoMore]

Oh and I meant to mention - consider changing your screenname.  You don't have to be BEYOND screwed.  You CAN do this.

[ImDONENoMore]

beyond.. you can do this.  Your thinking needs to change a lot here.. the self-defeating mindset is going to continue to trip you up and cause you to relapse.  That's why you see aftercare recommended SO much on this forum.  What kind of aftercare have you tried?

Please - you are worth it.  Not sure if you know that, but you are.  Worthy of a happy life, a fulfilling one, a one where you contribute to your world in a positive and healthy way and enjoy your family, your friends, your favorite things to do.  Remember those days when you used to ENJOY what you were doing and felt good about yourself?

And you deserve to feel proud of what you're trying to do here.  Please, somehow you have to find a way to believe that.  Now get going.