last resort

Alone, terrified, addicted to coke and hiding for 4 years. anyone out there? I need to know this is real.

[bmc1976]

I personally don't know anything about coke but there are a few on here that can help you. Gizzy is one member that can help you so much. He is now over 5 months clean and gives some amazing advice. I'm sure he will be on here tomorrow to help you with anything he can. This forum has helped so many people with there addiction. Everyone on here is truly amazing! Please stick around and you will see what I mean! Best of luck to you!
Brian

[bmc1976]

It's kind of slow on here this time of night. Make sure you bookmark this page and check back in tomorrow.

[Kathryn41]

Cocaine is a psychological addiction not a physical addiction.  Or, so I have been told by doctors I work with.  Based on this, I think you need to get help right away.  You have something underlying that is drawing you to the coke.  There are medications out there that can help to free you from this.  You need to find a psychiatrist (a good one who will actually listen to your plight) tell them everything and how much you are doing a day, and the anxiety that leads you to do it, and a good doctor will get you on a treatment plan which will help you eliminate your cravings for cocaine.  Be honest, firm and demand help.

[GoingToMakeIt]

Hang in there. Things are not hopeless. There are many here who have kicked this.

[confused456]

I see your mood, and please talk to us. I am not sure what you are going through. Suicide is not the answer.

[confused456]

r u ok? Please talk to us. here are some that have gone through this that I know of....Gizzy32, he is very kind and helpful and supportive, newmanagement, the same as Gizzy32, and hopeful4us, she is now going through it and she is such a sweetheart. They can help but I am sure they are asleep. Please hang in there til morning. I KNOW they can help you.

[aloneandempty85]

I'm still here.  I appreciate the reply.  I dont know what to say, but thanks for writing back.  

[devildoggy1]

This is the real deal brother... There are things that you still need to consider and it sounds like your not thinking straight. I know because ive been exactly where you are now!! please reply, I know that if you do we can work through this. My name is Dan. Please talk to me.

[confused456]

Please can you hang in there until morning? I am so sorry that I do  not have this advice you need. I am here for support all you would like.

[confused456]

Thank you Dan. I have no personal experience but I am here for any and all support. Thank you.

[122 Tactical Fighter Group]

You sound like me in the '70's - short story - I did coke, I liked coke way too much, I sold coke to pay for mine, I sold a Fed DEA a kilo and went to a non-country club prison for three years.

There are no physicacl w/d's from coke....and psychologically I dont think that its any worse than PAWS type mental things from opiates. Coke use can be stopped easily (especially if there is none in front of you) but if there is any in the house it will (literally) scream at you and wake you up and yell "Do me!" until you give in. This drug screams "Do me" more loudly than the opiates - some type of post use help is a definite if you wish to be successful....been there - - best of luck to to u - it can be done - eagle -after two or three months it will even quit yelling. Just dont listen the first times...

[aloneandempty85]

I am here. I just dont know what to say. I guess I jumped into this before I was ready.   I thought I was ready to talk or atleast type, but despite ruining my whole world, coke has been the one and only thing keeping me here.

[devildoggy1]

I was addicted for about 5 years and I know what it takes to get back in touch with yourself. You lose who you were and you push everything away without even wanting to. I made the decision to live life with the same effort I was putting into getting lifted and turned it all around but I had to hit the rock bottom of everything and end up with that choice and take control. It was the hardest thing to do but the greatest thing that I ever done and I hope that I can help you do the same...lets start by getting to know you a lil bit to break the ice sort of speak..

[what2donow]

Im glad you are still here...talk to us ok.If need be I can get Gizzy on here

[aloneandempty85]

Physically, stopping is nothing more than a pain in the ***, but emotionally it is who i am and why i live. I am watching my life fall apart. I am so sorry to burden this forum and probably upset a few people. I dont know what will happen, i wish for death often but when it comes to it. i am a coward. thanks to you an everyone for the concern. I promise i will check in later on to let you know i am still around.

[what2donow]

You are not a burden.Please let us help you.

[devildoggy1]

ok brother and ill be here as well. Its your choice in the end but we will be here for you when your ready...Dan

[confused456]

Please let what2donow get him. He can help and I am sure Dan can also.

[aloneandempty85]

Thank you. i will post tomorrow to let you know i am still around.

[confused456]

are you sure you are ok? I think she is getting gizzy for you.

[aloneandempty85]

I am so sorry i can't stay on to talk. you have my word that i will come back tomorrow.

[confused456]

OK!! Thank you for that! Please be safe!

[what2donow]

ok please do and I will have gizzy message you.He is amazing and smart.I know he can help/

Stay strong tonite

*hugs*
Jenna

[AS_Steve]

  The hardest part is staying off of it. There are no physical withdrawls to speak of but the mental part of always wanting it keeps haunting you. I myself only use when someone else is offering which is really bad so I have distanced myself from those in my life. Stay positive and remember that you are not the only one out there struggling to quit.

  Good luck.

  Steve.

[lostdreams]

You can get through this, Gizzy is the man to talk too. I'm sure He will be on to talk to you soon enough. Hang in there...........please. Everyone here is willing to support you through this.

[gizzy32]

hi there. im off to work at around 9, but i would love to be able to talk to you. i know exactly what your thinking right now and i give you my word, THERE IS HOPE. i was the biggest cokehead and i have done the impossible, 5 months clean from a 30-40 line a day habbit. it's scary and coke takes everything away from you. im assuming your new to this site and i am so happy your reaching out for support, that is important. please feel free to message me, or post a bit of your story on here. coke is a dead end road, and if it dosen't kill you, it will take everything else away, including your soul. you can put an end to this with a bit of help. i hope to hear from you, you don't have to live like this.  i would love to talk to you.

[gizzy32]

i hope you come back. we all know what that desperation feels like and coming off coke the thoughts are scary. please talk to us. i battled this drug for a long time, but you can do this, there is a wonderful life out there for you.