I am addicted to opiates....any and all. I always accept responsibilty for my own actions and I guess this should be no different. But, I feel torn. When I met my fiance, I had NO CLUE about his opiate addiction. Well, he had been clean for a year or so. He said he was taking "oxy" and up to eating 40 vicodin a day. Mind you, I was floored. I took some tylenol 3 when I had wisdom teeth removed, never even finished the bottle and could not understand how anyone could snort an oxycontin, eat it...much less each 40 vics a day. I was trying to help hi maintain his sobrety. At one point, he had gotten some OC's. I was livid. Through his ways, he convinced me to take one (so i could see it was "no big deal). I did. I dont know why i did....but, i did. ONe pill lead to another pill which led to another pill. Next thing I know he ends up telling me he use to actually do Heroin. Shoot it up. That made me want to kill him because i felt that was gross. I havent done H, but am now addicted to opiates. What's messed up is, I really do have pain. My regualr dr was giving me pills.....he referred me to a clinic to get some checks done on my back.....and at that time, i really wasnt an addict i dont think. They gave me vicodin which i didnt want because they dont do anything for me but make it hard to sleep. But, i took the script. I also got injection in my neck and back and followed everything to a T. However, during this time i became addicted, i think, more and more to opiates. To be honest, I did take the vics even tho i hate them and they didnt work. At one point tho i went back to oxys on my own because truthfully it was the only pill that made me feel better all day. But, as u know, u cant do that at a PM clinic. I got tested. I failed. I got booted. Fine. Well, not fine...but fine. However, what really annoys me is this: The discharge letter from the Pm place said that they were sending this info to my family dr since he was the referring dr. This dr is a friend of my dad's. I know privacy laws, blah blah. But, we all know a dr can tell a friend something on the side and nobody would know, except my dad. Not to mention, I have gone to this dr for like 15 years and i am embarrassed. I feel like I neeeded to take the oxy because the vics didnt work and i told the dr that. But, i know it isnt about what i feel. And yes i did try talking to my dr about it. I almost feel like im addicted to the pills because the back pain i have is just oo much to bear. I know i shouldnt have taken the Oc, but again, I did. My question is this: (one of many) Does a PM dr have the right to send my discharge paperwork to my family dr. Or, is this against the Hippa Laws? I am so mad. Of course i am mad i got booted and need help and have no clue what to do now....BUT, im mad because i know the dr will tell my dad. And, i cant have that. I dont want my family knowing. Do i have any course of a lawsuit? What do i do? I want to talk to my fam dr but im embarrassed becasue i feel like he wont understand and he will look at me as a dope addict. I never dr shopped, ever. Never.