liscamdave and JAWS - last post i promise hehe

[Mis Take]

I would really like to talk to you guys when you have the chance.  It sounds like we have a lot in common and I would like to know how you are coping, where you are ...in active addiction/recovery????, and what issues you have come across along the way.  My husband and I are also on Suboxone and are really doing very well w/ that.  It has changed my life and I believe that it was the best and ONLY choice for us.  Wow - being on this side of things is AMAZING.  I am really loving life and I don't think I have EVER said that in my life.  Anyway - I WILL be on here later tonight, but you can also email me at mistake.***@**** anytime if you would like.  I do agree w/ Jaws and maybe posting about it would help someone else here, but whichever is fine w/ me.  Im just so glad that back when I was searching - someone posted about their sub experience.  Changed mine and my family's life.  

I look forward to talking w/ you soon, but I have to go and play OLD MAID now.  What a life, hu?  I love it - Maybe Im loosing it...lol lol

much love, tracy

[liscamdave]

I am going to send u a more recent post....I would love to talk to you too..

Lisa

[longing4life]

Hi,
Just wanted to say thanks for stayin up with me and the others last night.  Also, for the words of encouragement.  I was just trying to understand where vikes_suck was coming from with his comments...I do believe that "hurting people hurt people".  I am glad he shared a tat of his story on how he got hooked on pills, even though his method of relaying his 'opinions" really needs an over haul I just wanted to understand.  

We all are different in many ways, but the one and most important way that we are all alike is that we are "addicts".

I am glad my analogy came through the way I intended...(for a minute there I thought I was going crazy and one of the 87 people in my head had woke up for the night...lol)

I have been thinking about the comment, "suck it up" and "just do it" cause "we got ourselves into this mess".  I just can't swallow that...

My best friend lost her 8 yr old son almost 11 yrs ago in a tragic accident.  Did her actions of being a good mother or bad mother cause him to be taken at such a young time in his life?  Should she just "suck it up" and "just deal with it"....I am really trying to understand the logic of it all.
All the nights she still calls me at 2 or 3 a.m. feeling so much heartache, am I supposed to tell her "suck it up, and deal with it....he is gone?"  I just can't seem to swallow that idea of thinking.  I believe in the "Pay It Forward" attitude...Heck If I am gonna go through all this grief and suffering, I hope to be able to at least ONE DAY help someone else.  

Maybe if vikes_sucks and all of us, could just try to use his and our  experiences with our addiction and reach out to others we would all be in a better state of mind.

I believe in anger...just ask my hubby...lol.  But the anger needs to be utilized in a way for building up and not tearing down...

I am so glad to meet you.  I have read many of your posts here.  I am on day 10 c/t.  In May, I made it almost 3 weeks and gave in to the "mental" part of addiction.  W/D's seem much "easier" than it was last time...It was 10 times as bad last time than it is now.

My addiction was/is to Lortab 10's bout 4-6 a day.  I know it doesn't seem like much, but that is where I was.  I didn't realize how LONG I had been on those dad blame pills!  It has been almost 8 YEARS!!!  With me just spiking out and having more month left at the end of my pills started bout 3 yrs ago.  I guess that is when I started "abusing" my meds.  I suffer from fibromyalgia, and TMJ which is the worst pain ever.  But I am hopefully on the right road now.  My cousin is my dentist and she has made me a mouthpiece to wear at night for the grinding of my teeth and it only lasted 2 weeks!!!  She put me on flexeril and that has helped alot.  I don't take it very often tho.  Only when it is unbearable.

Sorry to ramble...BTW, My Best Friend who lost her son, she is now a prominent member of the Compassionate Friends Group which is organized for parents who have lost children.  I attend the memorials they have every year at Christmas with her and they are so awesome and very supportive of everyone there.  She still feels the pain everyday.  Im sure she always will....She has learned to "Pay It Forward"...

Until Then,
LL