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[stilltrying1965]

I have never struggled with my addiction so much as i have in th last month. I hear ppl saying is this what i get for being clean for however long ,depression, guilt, down on ourselves Aftrer battling so hard to get to the point were we all are even if its a day a month a year its so hard to be truley happy again But we do not fight so hard for nothing. I am working the 12 steps. I tried the na meetings before without any bnifits, But i realised i never gave them a chance to even get to know the ppl who attended. Now i look forward to my next meeting Geez i cant beleive it. My last post failure well im happy i wrote that post for im not a failure neither is anyone else who is here fighting for the lifes we trulely deserve to be clean and happy..
Happy laughing seeing the things we were blinded to by drugs. There are no failures here may be some will  relapse but that does not mean we have failed. only what we all as addicts have in us all a relapse.Im so more up for this fight that im happy to wake up the next day clean and still here some dont get that second chance.Im taking my second chance im grabbing it with both hands and wont let go.We all deserve what we are fighting for mine is my freedom freedom from drugs. To be the man i was ment to be,Not a failure but a sucsess one that will make me my family whole again,But we must all work hard for our freedom Im working the 12 steps and the 12 steps will save me from the anti social lifestyle i used to lead.Good luck to everyone fighting for your freedom, There is light at the end of the road,even when we cant see it Thanks MH ,,,,,James

[IBKleen]

It is so good to hear you talk about the fellowship and that you look forward to your meetings. I prayed for this for you but it can not be pushed, it is something you have to come to on your own.

I didn't stick to it my first time around either. My first meeting was a long, long time ago and at first I went high and then I went because I was told I should and then I went because I was told I had to. It took me about a year and a half before I went because I wanted to. The fellowship saved my life more than once and it is a safe haven for me today.

James, can't wait to hear about your 90 in 90!!

[Radiostar55]

James,,Long time no see...6 months clean today for this old fool!

[LeaAnn807]

Stay in the fighting mode, James.  Do whatever it takes to stay clean, ok?  Your life depends on it!!!  I am glad to see you being positive!

[dbgc]

glad to hear you are thinking positive again. that is the spirit. you can and will do this, you have come so far and are alot of help to members on here. keep going to the meetings and use your second chance with all you got.