I have never struggled with my addiction so much as i have in th last month. I hear ppl saying is this what i get for being clean for however long ,depression, guilt, down on ourselves Aftrer battling so hard to get to the point were we all are even if its a day a month a year its so hard to be truley happy again But we do not fight so hard for nothing. I am working the 12 steps. I tried the na meetings before without any bnifits, But i realised i never gave them a chance to even get to know the ppl who attended. Now i look forward to my next meeting Geez i cant beleive it. My last post failure well im happy i wrote that post for im not a failure neither is anyone else who is here fighting for the lifes we trulely deserve to be clean and happy..
Happy laughing seeing the things we were blinded to by drugs. There are no failures here may be some will relapse but that does not mean we have failed. only what we all as addicts have in us all a relapse.Im so more up for this fight that im happy to wake up the next day clean and still here some dont get that second chance.Im taking my second chance im grabbing it with both hands and wont let go.We all deserve what we are fighting for mine is my freedom freedom from drugs. To be the man i was ment to be,Not a failure but a sucsess one that will make me my family whole again,But we must all work hard for our freedom Im working the 12 steps and the 12 steps will save me from the anti social lifestyle i used to lead.Good luck to everyone fighting for your freedom, There is light at the end of the road,even when we cant see it Thanks MH ,,,,,James