meetings

[dede2121]

i must say and i am not endorsing or pushing this on anyone but, i have gone to 3 na meetings and have come out feeling better each time.
when i went i thought to myself i cannot tell these people what a horrible person i have become. so after listening and not yet saying anything, i find these people are just like me. they have been there done that. i felt very at home tonight.
it has taken me awhile to figure out when to stop this insaneness(if that is a word) i think i have found the thing that will work for me.
now keep in mind i did have to force myself to go because i felt like crap. but i am glad i did.
so i am just suggesting that maybe some people here just starting out should try this.

[dede2121]

thanks guys,

just got back. yes and the meetings seem to work for me. although i didn't speak tonight.

throwin, no i havent got a sponsor yet. they have an all womens meeting on wednesday that i went to last week. they gave me a list of phone numbers. i will get one soon.

one thing i do know is STEP ONE... i am powerless of this addiction.

i felt so down all day today but when i come back from meetings i feel so much better.
like i said before if anyone here can't find something that works for them, try the meetings.
i myself thought, i cannot go to na. i am not like those people, but after one meeting i realized i am just like them. they come from all walks of life. doctors, dentists, lawyers and then the peons like me. lol

so anyone please give it a try. just try one meeting.

[throwindatowl]

I need to go more...I try and stay strong. As strong as I can be,  I can be oh so weak. Like my mind changes. Dr Jeckle and Mr Hyde thing. Im super shy but for some reason not there. Its really strange. I hate large crowds full of strangers. Glad to hear you went tonight. Its a really personal thing to do. Get alot more in touch with ourselves. Keep going. Keep comming back-haha.    DEDE2121 Did you get a sponser?.  Shame on me I have not done that!.! Ill feel like Im a purdon. I also dont want to let anybody down,    again......

   Punkinhead-Im def learning alot of things I wanted to know about me, and some I didnt! Its all part of it. I love to see and hear its working for others.

[quitinoxys]

Dede thats great, meetings are like addict college you learn all about yourself and addiction.  Some people have a hard time seeing thier true selfs. Keep going it only going to get better.---Rick

[Punkinhead75]

Meetings are where I learned how to live without using and be at peace with the world today.  I still go even though most days I'm in a pretty good space.  I like to give back and share with others what works for me.  When I find myself thinking that this stuff doesn't work I have to understand that the problem is me.  I need to get honest and find out what it is I need to adjust within myself to get lined up with a way that does work. I understand that today I don't need to learn things the hard way.  I can listen to the experiences of other people and apply what they have experienced in my life.  Take what we need and leave the rest.  By not drinking and drugging on a daily basis I have been shown a way to live clean sober and happy.

[dede2121]

throwin, i have been to meetings everyday this week. i do come out feeling much better than when i went in. i look forward to those meetings everyday. i, literally have no one else to talk to. i havent yet spoke up in the meetings but i will when i feel more comfortable. i am not a social butterfly so i am somewhat shy. especially about telling people i am an addict. i am sure the time will come when i will talk. who knows maybe today.
getting ready to leave here in about 45 to go to one now.

[throwindatowl]

Sweet. I dont push things on anyone either. I to attend meetings as well. Each and everythime I also come out feeling much better. There have been times I wanted to flake out. I learned more on those visits than any. It does feel good to know we are not alone in this struggle. Theres ALOT of those meetings all over the world. We are not alone. Ill be the first to admit  I thought NA wasnt for me. It was for everyone else with a drug problem. Not me Haha I was sooooo  wrong. I felt comfortable the minute I walked in. For the first time in along time I didnt have judgemental eyes looking back at me. I hate that. If your not an addict please dont tell me how not to be one!!! You know what Im saying...Keep going to the meetings cause the day will come when you get a chance to help someone there. I cant wait til I have the chance to help another addict. Im not there yet but someday. Try speaking and opening up. Youll leave feeling even better. I also went feeling like crap. I was wding no doubt. Those meetings helped with the wds!! Weird I know but it did. If you read this and are THINKING about going to one-try it once. 1 hour, bring a dollar or two for the basket-only if ya got it. Whatta got to loose?

[LeaAnn807]

: ) This makes me smile!  Just suit up and show up.  The rest will just happen!!!!!!  Glad to see you doing what you need to do to stay clean!  Way to go!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Dav125]

It a place you can feel comfortable and let go of those secrets in your head which pile up and pile up. Being able to release the pent up stuff is very important. Its like cleansing the body and mind...:)