i was on up to 100mg a day 5 yrs ago at one point and i insisted he lower it so i was able to get down to 60 mgs.a day.
currently each week i went down 20mg a day. ive got about 15 left so im not sure just now how to do it?
maybe try 15mgs for about 3 days then go down to 10 then 5? i do have a bottle of oxycodone that i try not to take unless im way bad pain but in my mind im tryn to tell mysekf i need to start dealn and coping with my pain and not do that. but theres so much more. my insides feel like theyre twisting all up, skin is crawling, ears ringing, hands hurrt , either hot or so cold cant feel them. im always either sweating or so cold im curled up in ball with tons of vlankets.
i do feel best in the bathtub. i find myself taking alot of long baths. seems my only relif. but its my mind thats hardest of all, im going crazy, i blow up at the drop of a hat. im usually the kindest, calmest, most patient person. i always thought i was a tuff *****. starting to wonder? oh maybe a big part of it is i was also non doxipin and i suddenly ran out of that cold turkey. i now barely sleep on top of all this.!!!!!
my kids dont get it, they dont understand. but i try to shelter them by locking myswelf in my room., they are 17yrs old twins, 26 yr old daughter and her baby . i usually always take care of everyone and do everything an now its stopped, ive got to focus on me. but its so hard. i get little smart remarks like ive gotten lazy and various little **** that eats at me and ends up making me blow up crazily. then im the phsyco *****. at this point i think thier right?
feel liikke just taking everything and getn it over wiht and wandering off so kids dont have to fdind me. i dont think i could ever do that to them but im wondering if theyr just better off.???