methadone overdose

so on my way to being clean and trying to get off the loratab, my friend thought it would be a good idea to tell my whole story, you see i had a best friend one of the greatest ppl i have ever or will ever know! we use to pop the hydros together all the time he would take alot more than i would and i noticed he would take them alot more frequent maybe 4 to 5 within a couple hrs, our supply ran out and he went to this dealer hoping to find more however what the dealer had was methadone he told my friend that it was 10xs better then hydros and that the high would last alot longer he told him they were 5mg...what he failed to tell him was that they are time released and are NOTHING like hydros, my friend bought 16 within a couple hrs had taken all, he died...... i feel almost guilty for not taking them with him after all we took hydros all the time together, i had never heard of methadone and was to afraid to try it! my friend died and im still taking hydros, im selfish and stupid, and i want and need to stop!!!!!!!!!!!!!! well thats my story i wish it were a nightmare but its reality and it sux!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[wannabefree330]

We all do selfish and crazy things in the midst of our use.  Do not feel guilty!!  I can understand why you hurt, but there is a reason why you didn't die, and still havent!  One thing you need to learn from this is that YOUR own use will continue and escalate to the point that you may one day end up dead too!!  Addiction is a one way street....either to prison, or to the grave.  You now have an opportunity to quit these evil things.  It won't be an easy walk, but it can be done....AND YOU CAN DO IT!!  

Do some reading in the health pages.  Focus on the Thomas recipe and Amino acid protocol.  Once you go through the physical w/d.....PLEASE find a counselor or someone to help you deal w/the loss of your friend.  The guilty feelings can lead you right back to using if you don't deal w/those.

[avik7]

wow..im sorry this has happened. wannabefree is totally right. i had 2 friends die of drug overdose. 1 had almost every drug imaginable in her system and i found her dead on my exboyfriends bed, the 2nd died of a herione eoverdose in his house by himself and no one found him until 5 days later, the 3rd took tons of pills oxys to be exact and died. its a hard thing to understand and to deal with. you should really try to gget off these pills. ive been on lortabs since i was 14 and am now 23. the past 2 years it got uncontrolable. i would pop 5 to 6 or more of the 10mgs at a time. its some wicked ****. ive been one week clean today and is so nice to have my life back. im still working on it and it is hard at times, but it is so worth it. save ur life..think about all the people that love u. if u need anything u just let me know! u can do this

[gizzy32]

that is sad, im  very sorry about your friend. you said your selfish and stupid, but almost all active addicts are, we live to use and use to live. if you truly want to quit, then it's time to step up to the plate and do something about it. quitting is hard work, it was by far the most difficult thing i have ever done in my life, but if you want something bad enough than it is possible. make your friend proud and don't be another statistic, end this now, i know you can do this. what steps do you think you need to take to quit? would you consider N/A? this is a great support group here with lots of advice and help to do this and many here have overcome our own hell story and you can too. good luck and keep posting

[Coolio Hernendez]

Damn dude.....I dont even know what to say.

Once again i think my life ***** then i read something like that and relize it could be so much worse...

Stay strong...

[Dezdon]

I've heard methodone has a delyed reaction to it. What I mean is its not like oxy. What I heard is methodone buildt up in the system becuase its time release, and if you have taken too much, like day four, you could very well overdose from meds taken two day earlier. any truth to this?
-Dez
Ps. im so sorry to hear about your friend and what you must be going through.

[addictedme]

So you"d like to accomplish 3 things..quitting,staying quit and helping others. Well the oppurtunitys here. This is probably the best place you can be for advice and encouragement thru wds. Then how about finding out why you use and what in your life you need to change. Drugs are why people come to na but change is why they stay,,,little fyi,,people come into the program,quit using and start changing  things like road rage or how you may treat your family but for whatever reason they relapse ( I did cause I wasnt working my program to the best of my ability and when back surgery came I wasnt prepared) but all I did was change my clean date. The road rage nor any other positive change left me. And the great thing is by telling your story  you save others from the tragedy you experianced. 2 months ago my wife was dignosed with breast cancer. If I was using I could probably (physicaly) give my all ,,drs appts.,taking care of the house,etc. but mentally even her disease and hopeful recovery would come 2nd to my pill obsession. Counting,planning,financing,GUILT,,I dont want drugs to take up even 1 inch of space in my head,,do you? Theres way to many other things to fill it with,,gl

[addictedme]

PS,,,na is what worked for me but theres many ways to recovery. Find what works for you and work it,,gl