my codeine addiction !!

Hi , i've been reading this site/forum for a while now because sadley I AM A CODEINE ADDICT .. the  drug as i call it...

i've been addicted for 7 years, like many it started with nerofen plus or panadine,just 2 every now and then but b4 i new it i was taking 4-6 in 1 dose.. 3-4 times a day
At my worst i was taking 24-30 per day (luckly my bodys still very healthy) I've been trying to get clean for a year now,with the help of GP'S and family support but keep relapsing.. the thing is, i thort i could stop taking them in 3 months by tapering,that was my first attempt (FAIL)
tried again and aimed for 5 month taper off (FAIL) again... by that stage i lost hope for a few months untill i heard my 2yr old daughter say "mummy's pills" ... that was it,i dont want her to see me take them (monkey see monkey do)
my 3rd attempt was trying cold turky (absolutely do not recomend this !!!!!) my with drawalls wernt all that bad, flu symptoms and restless legs that were horrible,after 2 weeks depression set in and hit me like a ton of bricks , horrible thorts , got to the point were i thort i was fighting a losing battle so why not let it END (suicide) ... i was literally forced to take codeine and hey presto,went from wanting it all over back to semi normal within hours ! 1 month later i stupidly tried cold turkey again and bang,same thing happened ..

i'm now on a 12month program through atods , drug rehab center.. my program is - 8-30mg codeine a day for a month,then 7 the following month and so on untill i hit the 5 month mark were we slow it down even more as this is the harder part of it - when i'm on 5 per day i alternante 1-30mg for a 15mg every second day untill my body stablizis to this ... this is going to take a long time but i refuse to let CODEINE run my life for ever.

Some maybe able to do this faster,me, i couldnt and i no i gave it my best but this programe WILL and HAS to work,i'm positive!!!!

GP's can only do so much as they dont fully understand the addiction,you need professionals in this field.

i wish everyone luck with this and hope we all come out on top !!!!

FAITHFULL XXX

[jeffclowns]

wow i wish you the best in your recovery ,i just can't believe there going to make you take so long just to quit codeine ,months wow ,but still wish you the best.god bless.jeff.

[toodles1]

since i've been an addict for 7yrs they (atods) want to take it slow as i've tried the 3 month 6 month plan and still couldnt get past a certain point...  cold turkey nearly set me to an early grave...  so i figure 1 more year of tapering is better then 50 more years of this drug controlling me...

thank you for your support xxx

[believe0509]

Contests to you. I have faith in you that this time it WILL work. Keep fighting for your life!!!

[jeffclowns]

that definitely does sound like a plan then heck yeah ,,hey at least you got yourself a plan hope it works out great for you..jeff.