my story..and pharmacy arrest

[sosad5306]

I have been posting and reading at this site for a month or so now and I figured now is a good time to let everyone know who I am and why I am here.
I am addicted to oxycontin and hydrocodone (norco, lortab, vicodin).  I will also use methadone and percocet if I can't find anything else.  I have had many rock bottoms (I was arrested at Walgreens pharmacy 2 months ago and am currently facing felony charges) that have finally collectively inspired me to quit.  I want my life back SO BAD.  I hate this prison I live in where real true joy does not exist.  Currently, I am still using, but the end of the road is near and like I said, I want to stop!!!  I have tried c/t many times but I find the w/d's to be absolutely debilitating physically as well as mentally.  I suffer from severe anxiety, including panic attacks and really serious depression.  I have been on prozac for 8 years.
I am the single mother of a 2 year old boy and I desperately want for his sake to quit.  DESPERATELY!!!!  His 2nd birthday is on Tuesday and I can't think of a better gift to give him.  I don't know if I am strong enough.  I am also a full time college student and if I go c/t, I will probably fail this semester and be kicked out of school because I am already on academic probation from a cocaine problem I had 3 three years ago, which completely stopped my life from moving forward.
I am so thankful for this site and the people on it.  It is the only thing that gives me hope.
I need to get my baby his breakfast but later I will post more about the pharmacy arrest.  

[Mis Take]

I guess I should have read ahead before I asked your story.  Im so sorry things have ended up so messy.  BUT>>  you are strong enough to get and stay clean for your son and yourself.  We can do it together.  It will suck! but the end result will be amazing.  I'll let you know how Suboxone goes and maybe that will be our little helper.  I understand that there is NOWAY to w/d while at home with a child.  Everything is so annoying and it's not their fault.  Being a single mom shows me just how strong you are.  Do you have family support?  Is your son's father still in the picture?  Keep in touch, stay safe.

[sosad5306]

My best friend is also an oxy addict but he will never quit.  I know he won't he does have pain but that is totally secondary to the fact that he is addicted in terms of why he doesn't want to quit.  So at least I have someone to talk to.  I am trying to avoid telling my family at all costs even though I know they would support me.  I have already put them through enough.
My son's father and I get along fairly well.  He lives in the same city and he has my son two days a week.  I definitely couldn't tell him about all of this though because he would hold it against me for sure.
As far as suboxone goes, do you know if there are w/d's once that is stopped?  Also, is it expensive?

[Mis Take]

I really don't know as much as I should.  I was just writing to someone above (bugsy 811) and they said that they had been on and off Sub for a while but the w/d were bad.  I asked why so we will see.  I was really hoping that it would be a lot easier but of course nothing worth it is.  I sure hate that.  I'll let you know what I find out.  maybe talk to bugsy too and see,  talk to you soon.

[construction]

It would be hell if i had to detox w/my 4 kids around and admire you all for wanting to improve your lives.Suboxone worked very well for me there was no w/ds but i found myself living the same life as before,not being able to do anything w/out the sub.I abused them taking 2-8mg a day w/no taper.I believe if sub is used correctly for a very short term taper, you can get thru the w/ds and get your life back. where i live the drs  1 st visit was 200 and 40 8-mg sublinguals(melt under tounge) was 250.My advice would be to find a real dr and let him taper you so you dont need to be controlled by the sub. Hope this can help,hope and prayers Clay tx  

[beachtowel]

I too in August of 2005 was arrested in a pharmacy. After arrested found out that two other Felony five charges from two other cities loomed in the wind too.
I had three felony fives, three different cities. Where I got arrested they had my picture hanging up in the pharmacy (I didn't know it). I was using fraudulent scripts, I never even had a chance to leave the pharmacy police came in six deep for me.
This is part of the "crash and burn" that I talked about and was blasted for. One of my jobs is a paralegal internship and let me tell you Fraud scripts at pharmacies is very common on our dockets. We have 14 cases pending now and have settled numerous others.
You need a lawyer, I would also volunteer myself into an inpatient rehab before I went to court. You could go on your own or the Judge is probably going to send you anyway. If you pick it and your still using you can go to one that will send you to detox first where doctors and nurses will monitor you and give you subutex for the W/D's  so you don't have to suffer.

Any questions feel free to ask me..........