my story..and pharmacy arrest

I have been posting and reading at this site for a month or so now and I figured now is a good time to let everyone know who I am and why I am here.
I am addicted to oxycontin and hydrocodone (norco, lortab, vicodin).  I will also use methadone and percocet if I can't find anything else.  I have had many rock bottoms (I was arrested at Walgreens pharmacy 2 months ago and am currently facing felony charges) that have finally collectively inspired me to quit.  I want my life back SO BAD.  I hate this prison I live in where real true joy does not exist.  Currently, I am still using, but the end of the road is near and like I said, I want to stop!!!  I have tried c/t many times but I find the w/d's to be absolutely debilitating physically as well as mentally.  I suffer from severe anxiety, including panic attacks and really serious depression.  I have been on prozac for 8 years.
I am the single mother of a 2 year old boy and I desperately want for his sake to quit.  DESPERATELY!!!!  His 2nd birthday is on Tuesday and I can't think of a better gift to give him.  I don't know if I am strong enough.  I am also a full time college student and if I go c/t, I will probably fail this semester and be kicked out of school because I am already on academic probation from a cocaine problem I had 3 three years ago, which completely stopped my life from moving forward.
I am so thankful for this site and the people on it.  It is the only thing that gives me hope.
I need to get my baby his breakfast but later I will post more about the pharmacy arrest.  

[StephieBee]

hi...ive never posted here, usually in the Pain Management forum, so you probably have never seen my name... but I wanted just say dont try to quit OxyContin c/t.  

My father was on them for years after he broke his neck...he went into rehab to come off of them because they stopped working and turned on him and he started having really bad seizures...he almost died.  They put him on Methadone to help him with the severe pain he is in and to help him with the w/d's...and he is still on it to this day.  

Please be safe...some of these drugs are dangerous to come off of c/t.  Talk to a doctor.  Im sure your primary could help you find a doc.