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[Becca911]

Hi, I have been reading everyones post and feeling really bad about myself. I was just taking the one lortab but the last couple of days I have slipped to taking two pills. It's the womens "monthly problem" and I have used it to get an extra pill out of my husband the last couple of days. I really feel bad about it, I could have just taken some tylenol. So far he has only given me one today and he is gone to work and he took the pills with him. I just DON'T want to give in and be tricky and get an extra one out of him before the day is up. I really want to quit the pills and get my life back. I just hate myself for being so weak. How do I get strong?

[avisg]

bursh your self off , start agian you can do it ....Life is soooo much better clean.
avis

[allaboutmary]

You always have the right words. Great responce !

[allaboutmary]

I know it's scary. I think we were all scared. It is your decision. I can tell you though, it is a very empowering feeling to go cold turkey. You are done, no more looking for them or wondering how you can weasle a few out of the hubby or watching the clock just waiting for your next dose.  These things to me are torturous.  You decide.  We are here either way.  Dive in the water is fine.   Mary

[anotherfinemess1]

stop counting your pills and start counting your clean days!

[seriouslyscared]

no one can tell you what to do with your recovery.  If you are ready go for it, if not then don't put yourself to a time limit.  To me it sounds like you are still battling quitting.  I did that for a while myself, but then that day came when I said this is it.  No more.  I tapered what was left and that was it.  Good Luck!!!!!!!!!

[JONNYSS06]

Throw the pills away.  Just keep in mind the sickness will be over in about 4 days or less for you.  

[Becca911]

I know you guys are right, but it scares me. Shouldn't I taper down a few more days on one pills then go to 1/2 pill for a few days? I'm really scared but I am not strong either.

[road2recovery]

/i have to agree with mary, one pill is only torture.....Just do it, i know it sounds so hard, but you have too....If you can be strong enough to take just one, i think and beleive you can stop now...
i wish you the best
r2r

[allaboutmary]

Your not weak, your an addict like us and we are tricky people. I have to agree with the others. At this point you are torturing yourself with the one pill. Flush them and get it done. (my opinion)  Either way we are here for ya.   Mary

[Clamity2]

How many mgs  of course an oxy 80 would be hard to withdraw from even at one a day. I haven't read that many post today. It is hard to stop when you still have pills. Isn't it. I know I'm an addict. Just listening to my thoughts during this withdrawal. My "stinking thinking" as they say is crazy. I just keep saying to myself, you have less than 30 days so, expect some insanity. I may beable to look back on this some day and be amazed at the amazing grace change.

[banana911]

Just don't sneak that extra one again~!  (i know i know, soooo much easier said than done)  but it sounds like you are doing really well.  your strength of mind, commitment (and don't foget seriously's words on God) you can do it.  Go B-E-C-C-A.  

by the way, my back still gets in a bad knot (sitting in front of this computer isn't helping) and some over the counter stuff like a tylenol really helps.  

[MICHAEL_777]

IB is right.  Call your husband and tell him to throw out the pills and bring home some midol.  Being strong is a mind set that you have to put yourself in.  Imagine yourself with no more husband or family around, because that's what will happen if you keep using.  Love and Strength to you!

[seriouslyscared]

One day at a time.  Keep telling yourself that you do not want to use.  Meean it too.  One a day is great.  Keep it up.  You can do it.  You must ask God to help you out, and he will.  Say what you mean and mean what you say, and that will keep you from feeling crappy about giving in if that is what you choose to do.  What I mean by that is do not say I don not want to use if you know you are going to.  You set yourself up for a let down.

[IBKleen]

Are you tapering? If so, you may have given them to the wrong person to hold. If you are able to get an extra one out of him by just saying that you have cramps....then it doesn't seem like it is going to work for you. If you are down to 1 pill a day, why don't you just quit now. I know it is easy for me to say, but you are just prolonging the inevitable. From 1 pill a day, the withdrawal is not going to be bad at all.

Take care.