Try not to beat yourself up too bad. Relapse is part of recovery. To be truthful last night was so rough for me...had I not already deleted the numbers to the people I get pills from I would have gotten some myself :( Don't feel too good about that but realize it will take some time before this urge passes (or lessens). You took 15 pills?? That's quite a bit so I'm glad you're ok (by ok I mean didn't overdose). I messaged you my phone number (my name is Tonya) call anytime! Especially when feeling vulnerable. Like last night. Sounds like we both could have used a friend. Hang in there sweetie! I'm here for you!
I had relapsed last night...I feeling soo bad I took 15 (7.5 mg Vic's)
Meetings really do help. I was terrified the first time I went, and still telling myself I really didn't "belong" at one. It was one of the most humbling experiences of my life. I went alone and to sit in that room and actually introduce myself and say "My name is JJ and I am an addict," was powerful, scary, humbling and life-changing. And it did not matter on iota what my background or education or socioeconomic level was in comparison to anyone else in that room. We all shared the common bond of being an addict and understanding one another. There was no judgment, only acceptance. I really cannot explain it but it was a positive, loving,,supportive environment like none I have experienced before. Go and you will not be disappointed.
hey i like your determination to get to a meeting. be sure to jump on that before you feel like you might cave. can you go tomorrow? hope you are doing ok and feeling all right, keep updating us, you go girl! :)))
Hey Girl-
Checking in on you. Crying is tots normal at this stage of the game. Soon you will be laughing for realz and it will FEEL GREAT! You're almost over the hump so time to get your buns to a meeting.
Congrats on 3 days!!! Woohoo keep it up (:
xoxoxo
Lu
like one person said to you go to meeting NA if possible im coming up on 2 years clean the people in the rooms will help you you don't have to do this alone look in your area for meetings under narcotics anonymous meetings google it we are here for you
OK m also new...and I love everyone support...but I really need to go to meeting asap and I will be your cheerleader too I'm here whenever you wanna talk if you want I can send you my number and you can text me
I'm new to this site and find everyone's comments helpful and scary at the same time. I would start a suboxone regimen then relapse and start doing pills again. I feel the same way you do, like I'll never get better and not think about them. Hope you stay on here - I could use support too! I'll be your cheerleader if you'll be mine.
Yes today is day 3!!!! But in the back of my head there still of this thought.....come on you need me I'm your master and I know you can't live without me....and sometime I believe that I made a appointment with my psychiatrist on Dec 3rd and I hope she really can help me....sometimes I think nothing can help me
It is very hard...a lot of folks relapse...in fact, in AA, they talk about it being part and parcel of the recovery process.
Can you identify what trigger made you go back and take the pill? I think its important to remove all sources of pills from our lives. I told my doctor never to prescribe them again unless I was in the hospital recovering form 2 broken legs, that kind of thing.
I'm on day 59, and it has been a long and unpleasant process. Sometimes I'm hesitant to post how this has been for me, because I don't want to discourage others.
Truthfully, I felt lousy for the first 4 days, pretty bad still on day 7, but I turned a major corner on day 16. From then until now, the issues I'm still dealing with are sleep (still not getting a whole night) anxiety (but that's been around all my life) and a troublesome tummy (again, this is an issue I had before pain pills-I have severe IBS.)
Why not post here every day? We will celebrate each new 24 hours of sobriety with you!!
hope your still doin ok. i read how you stayed clean for a week and you felt great!!!! wow that is fantastic. so you have a really good experience with being clean to look back at and remember when you aren't feeling strong. draw on that and keep it in your mind and heart. i'm going off line but pm me anytime if you need to talk and i will get back at ya. feel better and dont give up. be strong!!! :))
Yes...I'm listening to music now it relax me I hope I can make it through thank you
you can do it!!!! you can. im sorry you are feeling so down. i know this addiction and w/d's have made me cry many x. it WILL get better. try to get your mind off the pills. distract yourself ... try anything and everything!!! watch tv, movies, listen to music, do what you can to divert your attention. you are doing great. :)
Its so hard...I broke down and cried about a hour ago...telling myself I can't do this..the thought of a pill stay on my mind
We all struggle. So glad your here. Have you thought about aftercare AA or NA. Most of us have found we cannot stay clean without a program, I can't. I have 71 days clean but I go to meetings everyday but Sunday, I have a sponsor I call everyday and an working the steps with. This has made it possible for me to get on the road to recover. Addiction is a complex disease that is desperate to kill you. The effort I've made has been well worth it.
Hang in there, proud of you!!!
Okay thank you I would like that...
Good job on your efforts to stay drug free. I also struggle with sobriety ,my pill addiction has me in its grips. We can help each other . I will message you with my E-mail