ok im thinking about having a beer....

[BornofOsiris]

I am thinking about having a beer for the first time i am clean....I am in a controlled area everyone here knows about my addiction plus i never used when i was drinking due to the fact that i had a phobia that if i popped pills and drink i would die....Im mostly doing this as more of a experiment to see if it triggers me...but im having second thoughts cause just incase it does give me craves i dont want to deal with it...im going to be on for the majority of the night, i need some advice and how i should handle this....i will keep everyone posted and dont worry i dont even want a pill at all PLUS if i do get a craving i have people here to talk to and to not let me use!!!!

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This WILL NOT last...This CANNOT last...

[dominosarah]

DONT DO IT........This sort of experiment will blow up in your face.  It is very common for addicts to turn to some other chemical.....Are the others with you drinking??  Guard your clean time with your life......sara

[worried878]

many here continue to drink post narcotic addiction..i do not know ur history..i do know that most r cross addicted...for instance i have always been able to drink successfully until a stressor comes along..then in an attempt now to not turn to my doc/drinking can take its place...many turn to alcohol..nicotine is one of the worse as it affects so many receptor sites...coping mechanisms need to be in check...not saying a pill popper can never drink...just saying it is sumpin to extremely cautious about..substances cross over...and u may do fine with ur drinking till the ugly demon named stress comes along..it is a very volatile decision...and the safest thing to do is to skip going there if u can

[BornofOsiris]

nobody else here is drinking...i have never been a big drinker, i maybe drink only a couple times a month since most of my friends dont drink only smoke weed (thank god none of my friends are pill poppers) i understand the risk i am taking, thats why i am counterplating it, i just want to know if its one of my triggers so i know for the future dont worry everyone im in a safe place where i cant use if i tries with my life....Im prolly not going to end up drinking that beer (i only have one anyways lol) just cause im scared...thank you everyone it really means alot for how fast you guys responded and showed care...it helps alot it really does...love you guys!!!!! =D

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This WILL NOT last...This CANNOT last...

[dominosarah]

Like i said Guard your clean time with your life........dont tempt yourself with anything.  Stay strong          sara

[worried878]

and it wont lasy  (:   addiction is 99% upstairs...we have control over we what we think and do...just every now and then we have to take the control back...keep the control within ourselves...cos ultimately we r in control of what we think and do..always...be safe

[BornofOsiris]

i totally agree with the mental part of it....we make it how we want it....I am a firm believer that if i stick the thought in my head that im not having a craving it wont bother me but if i sit there and "think" im having a craving i will...One thing i didnt loose was my sanity rest ashured....so i made my decision im just going to leave the beer alone if im having any doughts at all then its prolly not a good idea. Thank you worried i notice that you always post on my questions and have good advice thank you so much you have been a great help.

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This WILL NOT last...This CANNOT last...

[worried878]

sweeite it wont..it will not always be like this..even a frickin headache can be missed if u have had it long enuf!  LOL

the typical craving lasts less that 15 minutes..post or clean out a drawer...walk around the block/exercise is the best craving reducer////it will be gone...and u can hang on to ur clean time....caving does nuttin but make us feel like a big fat user...remeber the reasons u quit

there is a great article in the health pages that cathy sent me on interventins for cravings...print it...put it on ur frig...remeber when u feel these urges they pass...aftercare/meetings etc do wonders for this...many resist aftercare..as addicts we think we can do this alone...in reality support is our saving grace...dont forget that..u made it tonite without that beer..u did good...a beer may not kill ur recovery...but in reality we will turn to escape/be it alcohol or pills/when we feel down or stressed..u made it thru tonight....and this stuff is day by day...for real...if u look too far ahead it may overwhelm u...so stay in the day...keep posting

[worried878]

oh...and ps...it wont be like this forever...habits fade...we move forward...and we let go....best of luck to ya girl!

[arizonadiva]

Please hang in there....you've been such an inspiration for me that I hope that my words will encourage you also.  Don't allow yourself to sink to rock bottom just as I've done.  I only hope that I can bounce back, because right now I feel as if the world if coming to an end......

[worried878]

My life has been in the pits as well...can u share...sometimes it helps....i do know i have to remeber that things always get better...when u reach suck a low point it just seems as tho they have to...right???

[BornofOsiris]

LOL ok i need to clear this up haha i feel embarresed but im a guy hahah

yes i have already looked into aftercare and already been to my first NA metting.
I plan on going to another one tomorrow. Trust me, me being clean is the only goal i have for myself right now...I put off school one semester...I only work a part-time job, which i get full benefits for insurance dental etc.I give my father every ounce of my money i make, so he pretty much manages it. (THANK GOD)

To Arizona,
I have been  reading your posts for a while now and my heart truly goes out to you...you don't deserve it, nor anyone else, just remember its not your fault. Don't guilt yourself over his faults. Your a great mother and wife, just by confronting him about it. Sorry to say but the truth sometimes comes out when drug use is present. There is a group that supports people who have loved ones with an addiction. I am not sure what the name is but i am sure that if you message worried above me she would know. I will send my thoughts your way and i am also using you for inspiration, stay strong i know you can!!!

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This WILL NOT last...This CANNOT last...

[worried878]

al-anon....whether  an addict attends AA or NA is not a big deal/finding ur home/ur comfort zone is most imperiative/for me it was AA but went to at least 12 places to find a place i felt a bond with those in the group...most r cross addicted..al-anon is a  codependency group with meetings everywhere

Al-anon.ifs for the people who r affected by an addict...addiction  spreads pain...not only to the user but to all who love the user...it is one of those theings that u can not understand/addiction is/so is chronic pain/unless u have walked in that persons shoes
..or unless u have experienced it..it is not a simple disease...it is very complicated...and for the family member or loved one a group of those dealing with this issue can do wonders...understanding is crucial to support..if u have no idea what u r dealing with u can not be a support person for the afflicted person...often people wash their hands of it and move on...those who really care about the person will not.they will do all they can to help...and to help u need to understand..prayers r with u

[BornofOsiris]

So im off to bed here in a few minutes...I really like writing and posting especially if its before i lay down. Another day in the books, cant wait to wake up tomorrow. Luckily i dont have work for the next couple days =D.

Thank you everyone, the advice means the world to me...There is so many suportive people on here. This site helps a ton!!! Everyone struggling out there right now, stay up and stay positive and remember that its better on the other side.

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This WILL NOT last...This CANNOT last...