opiate addiction/day 5 detoxing/new here

[stretch62]

starting my 5th day of detoxing from percocet. been addicted for the last 5 years. have quit a couple of times before, but hopefully this time will be my last. my addiction was ruling & ruining my life & i don't want to live like that anymore. just looking to get & give some support to anyone else in the same predicament..

[stretch62]

Hi! Thanks so much for reaching out & for the questions!! Some of them are questions I have already asked myself, but having you ask me makes me actually think & now answer. The 1 thing that is definitely different for me this time around is that I actually wanted to quit. The other times I quit were because I was in dire straits financially or lost my dealer, but not because I was over being an addict. This time I'm 100% quitting because I don't want to live like that anymore. I'm tired of missing out on my own life. Also I don't want my 2 daughters growing up watching this. My dad was an addict as well & the saying that children copy what you do, not what you say, is a little too familiar to me.. hopefully that cycle ends with me. I did get rid of all my contacts, blocked their numbers & all. Ironically a dealer still called me yesterday from an unknown number just to ask me what was wrong with my phone. As crappy as I still feel physically, I wasn't tempted at all. I told him to lose my number & hung up. If necessary, I'll change my number. As for support, this forum is my first step & I'm already so happy that I took it. I plan on trying meetings when I'm feeling a little better physically, but I'm still a little leery... only because social situations with a lot of people make me anxious... but I'm sure that's something I can get over eventually. This detox definitely has been the most grueling, but I only missed 1 day of work & each day is a little better. All in all, I figured that this 1 may have been the worst 1, because it was my last 1. Thank you so much for these questions because it has already given me more of a game plan in how I want my recovery to be. It was really thoughtful of you & I appreciate it. I have to get ready for work now, but I'm already looking forward to more conversations in the future!
Peace & blessings ;)

[stretch62]

Hi! Thank you so much for the encouraging words & congrats to you as well! To even join this forum & admit to strangers that I'm an addict is new & slightly uncomfortable for me, but I can already tell is another step in the right direction. It really does help to know that I'm not alone in this & especially that sobriety can be attained & maintained from people like yourself. This is just 1 of many steps that I plan to take in changing my life for the better, but 1 thing at a time... mostly because I still feel pretty crappy right now (physically). I'm still working full time & I also have 2 kids, so there's alot on my plate, but I'm actually really proud of myself thus far. Thanks again for reaching out & I look forward to more convos 1ce I get better acclimated to the forum. lol. Take care!! ;)

[VICourageous]

Good for you for getting back on that horse one more time!!.
What do you plan to do different this time so you do not Fall??
Going to go to any Meetings or any kind of Support?? I sure hope you cut your sources as well..There is alot to this Brain disease called Addiction. It take SO much work to stay clean and to learn how to deal with life on its own terms. I do pray you did make those changes since you have been down this road before. How is it going with the Detox? Hope you are one that can bounce back quick. Sorry for some of the questions but I do want to see you succeed..As time goes on it gets Better & Better but we never know unless we keep pushing forward and get Support.
Hang in and I wish you the best.
Bless

[Amandag78]

Hello there. Congratulations on 5 days clean, great job !!!
Yeah its pretty hard staying stopped off any kind of narcotics, but it can be done with careful planning, persistence, and hard work, as you already know.
Im almost 5 months clean from Subutex ( maintenance ) and over 2 years clean from heroin.
Its a bloody hard, painful road to a clean sober life.
But so rewarding.
I tried detoxing myself over 100 times with relapse after relapse and so have most others on the forum.
This is the longest ive ever been clean for.
You know yourself, you too will get there in time.
Good on you for coming to our wonderful forum and good on you for never giving up.
Great job again on 5 days !!!  : )