opiate withdrawal?

[veryscared1982]

I have been taking around 30 hydrocodone 10mg pills for about a year now, I use to take about 10 of them a day for a few years but in this last year my pill count has gone up dramatically.  This month I went through a prescription of 225 10mg hydrocodone in less than 5 days and had to resort to buying untill my next refill. Im so scared to quit but I know I need to. I have two kids, and am so scared of the pain. Any advice on what to do to help me get through this? I am hiding it from my husband. He knows I have an addiction but is unsupportive and gets mad at me every time I try to quit because he hates that I get sick and cant deal with the kids and cleaning and cooking or doing the running around. So I dont know what to do to help. Any advice would help.

[Yesidid]

Hope you come back to us 1982.  Let us know how you are doing, even if you are still using. Many of us have successfully tapered from high dose narcotics to avoid major down time. There are options but as you know, more of the same is not one of them. Please give us an update if you visit again. Praying for you.

[dianeadelle]

Hang in there and hang on!!!  If you can find a NA meeting to go to you could ask someone  there to help you.  If there isn't one in your area try to find a AA meeting  both have the same  goal. Helping someone else is how a 12 step program works.   Be brave and call the hotline number in your area   NA or AA or call both talk to someone and ask for help.  Your husband may not be there for one. Many times the people close to us just can't or won't face the fact there loved is in trouble.   You have taken a very brave step by writing on this site.  One day at a time might need to be one hour at a time.  You are not alone in this very real fight.  

[VICourageous]

I agree 100000000% with Vicki. This is a progressive disease and it only gets worse. We build up a tolerance to these type of meds so fast too. YOU have to have SUPPORT!! Your Hub should go with you to a few meetings. He should look up this disease in a more Scientific way and then maybe he will understand and help you out..I know that my Hub & Family watch many videos that are out here today and this helped them understand big time. I sure hope you do come back here for some Support as well..Wishing and sending a Prayer out to You & Hub.
Bless

[Yellows]

I completely feel where you are coming from.   20 years ago, I would take half of a 5gm Vicodin and feel great, now it takes at least 15-20 10gm norcos. Plus I take anxiety pills, migraine medicine, and cymbalta.

I think detox is your best option and a solid treatment center afterwards.  Your kids will love for it!  And you will love yourself!  I wouldn't worry about your husband--- he seems very unconcerned ?
I wish you the best!!!!

Yellows

[vicki595]

Hi there and Welcome to MH-

First of all, you're taking a toxic amount of Tylenol or APAP everyday. It's so dangerous for you so, you're right, you need help and we'll do everything we can to help and support you.

You need to tell someone in addition to your husband. That would be your doctor. I know it's hard but you have to. He/she can help you taper down a bit with a schedule and then stop. There are comfort meds that can be prescribed and the whole process can go more comfortably than you think. But you just can't do it on your own; you need to surround yourself with some people who understand addiction and recovery. You need to cut your sources completely and you need a program of support similar to AA. We can suggest some different organizations and support you in our forum. It's doable!

I think you need to sit your husband down and tell him he needs to rise up. You can't go through this process of getting clean AND run the house and care for the children. It's not fair to you. You should explain to him your strong desire to stop, your fears, and your needs. He may surprise you if you approach him with a plan of action and prove how serious you are....

I can't stress enough how serious the Tylenol issue is for you so post back and share your thoughts and ideas of what you're thinking you want to do. Do you have family, close friends, a church you attend?  

Coming here demonstrates your desire and is your first step so be excited about how your life is going to change!    Keep posting-