oxycontin withdrawl(withdrawal)

I was a chronic user of both oxycontin and oxycodone. It was prescribed to me for a shoulder injury. I have never used illegally. My dr. never tried to stop or taper me down only the opposite. Within two years I was up to 360 30mg ocodone and 60 60 mg oxycontin a month not to mention soma and 3 xanax bars a day. I never filled the xanax or the soma due to the fact that I had already realized what a monster the pain meds had become (thank god). I had spoken to the dr. about quitting and he had suggested suboxone "maintenance". After  reading about that and the hell people were going through that wasn't an option. So my only option was to do it on my own. (by the way my dr. had changed his area of expertise from "pain management" to "addiction specialist" all the while increasing my dosage) I am on day 22 and still feel like dog ****. Granted it isn't the violent wd that i had for the first 10 days but i get little crappy sleep still crazy diarhea (diarrhea) massive anxiety nervousness skin crawlies etc... Very little seems to make me happy. I am still wondering who i am or used to be. I am very hopeful still and will drudge on. I would rather drink rat poison than eat another pill. ps all of you who say you have gone three days and it is over and you feel better (your boyfriend, girlfriend did etc... after using the amount i was might want to test them). I know what I am in for just curious why drs get away with this in this day and age... :( thank you for listening

[bugsy89735]

Hey bud, I was there with you, these doc's hand out the house, we dont know any better. We start to count the pills and for some addition reason, NEVER have enough for the month, no matter how many he gives me!!! Anyway I am only on day 7 and also feel like **** but I am willing to listen or talk. take care and stay the course! peace bugz

[throwindatowl]

I used to obsess about the pain docs and pills. I realized before I was addicted to them I never thought about the pain docs and pills. The day I focused on me was the day I got better. I stop worring about who was still using and all that. You rock for getting to 22 days!! Thats whats important. After 36 days clean I still feel that garbage affecting my everyday. I can say just getting that 30 day mark did something to my mind. Alot of it is in the mind. I told myself I should be better after 30 days so I kinda tricked myself I think. Your doses were up there  I was ran into a ex  dealer that got clean. His doses were up there too. He told me it took him about a month to even sleep for more than a few hours back to back. Your almost there! Do you exercise? Thats helped me out alot. Congrats on getting of the posion. If I had a choice between rat posion and pills I would take the rat posion! Im with you. Keep up the hard work and things just get better everyday from now on. My sleep is still not like it used to be. It is better than it has been in 36 days thats for sure. You will too. Shame on your doc. Greed comes in all forms. Its a shame. Keep up the hard work it will start paying off in leaps and bounds.

[BIGTDEFF]

Thank you for your empathy. Yes I have been exercising like a madman... In fact I think I am in the best physical condition of my life at almost 37 haha and also the sun feels really good so I have been laying by the pool every other day or so. When people see me they are like boy you look great! Little do they know. I went to the vitamin store and bought another couple hundred worth of homeo and herbal. I watched a YouTube of this kid who said that passion flower really helped bad anxiety. I munched a couple of those an hr ago. Seems to work some.

[BIGTDEFF]

Hey man.... That was really funny. My addition was messed up also. Congrats for seven days. Detox is over now it's time for groundhog day! If we didn't laugh we would cry right? Although I know it feels good to do both. I lost the last three grandparents and a brother who died of heroin od during that two year run. I felt like day 3 someone had just broke the bad news to me and cried for hours. Amazing how little we really live when we are on that poison. Keep kikn u got this

[petroglyph54]

lucky they only had you on a "medium" dose! How's your shoulder? Good on ya man, I am glad you are  getting better. That is just sinister to put us on those kinds of dosage. I'm thinking about just using acupuncture for my next surgery. Was that not a "typo", they were giving you about 12-30's a day for breakthrough? The 60's, thank God, he didn't beef them up as well. What a lesson, eh? Another of the good things about the forum here,others can see how far this can go. Does that work out to around 480mg, per day? If so, you are close to a record. A serious congratulations on your clean time, I hope for ya that it keeps gettin easier and better. I'm northwest of you about 3 hours.

[BIGTDEFF]

Shoulder is good man... Thank u for asking. Either that or I can't feel it due to the pain of my knees buckling underneath me. Yes that was no typo... I will upload pics of the bottles if you need to see it! I am glad to see I am not the only one who doesn't think that is normal. I am only 175 lbs too. I am certain I was going to kill myself if Continued. If I would have taken the xan and the soma there is no doubt I would be toast. I quit cold turkey too. No taper. I used some of the Xanax for sleep every few days and got my hands on two 8
mg suboxone crushed them suspended them in water and put them in a syringe for low dosage relief only when unbearable for initial detox (when tempted to go to the emergency room). The suboxone is truly a miracle drug but you can't expect to match your dose and have no wd. Should only be used for relief and no longer than ten days then tough it out. I used a total of ten mg of box over the ten days maybe five times and the first time was day one and I took a half that day so used very little. I used a doser not a syringe my bad... No iv for me. Dropped it under my tongue sublingually. It was horrible but doable and I am grateful to god for my life. Where are u at petro? I have a place in crown king just south of Prescott. God bless you.

[BIGTDEFF]

I must clarify that I waited 36 hrs to take the suboxone... It can be very bad very painful and very dangerous to take before then. Please read on your own if you plan on using this method I can only say that it worked for me.

[petroglyph54]

I'm gonna go over and send you a message, check there ok?

[petroglyph54]

I just typed out my whole life story and didn't put in the stupid code at the bottom and it vaporized, grrrrrrrr. I'll do it again here in a bit

[BIGTDEFF]

Oh snap! Ok no prob keep me posted

[petroglyph54]

I do believe we have lift off!

[Paulieboy]

Man, I'm going through this right now. On my 13th day of cold turkey from 2 20mg's a day for 4 months for a knee replacement. Mood swings galore, and some hints now and again of chills and crawly skin. Broken sleep. But I'm feeling stronger daily, and waiting to scream at the doctor who prescribed this poison without warning me what I was taking: HEROIN! WTF!

Oxy's are evil little suckers, pulling you in with unawareness, until you forget to take one, or get a "blank" like I did. It was only then did I realize, about 7 weeks ago, that something hideous was afoot in my life. I started looking forward to the hour of the day that I took the pill. I started enjoying the warm, washing-over-me affect the buzz gave me an hour after taking it.

After stumbling on to this sight, and reading the threads upon threads of horror stories people are going through, and realizing, MYSELF, that I was indeed now a junkie on this crap, I decided to quit the damn things cold turkey. I set the remaining 21 OxyContins and 60 OxyCodone "breakout pain" pills next to my bed, and defide myself not to take them. And haven't...for 13 days now.

I flushed them all 4 days or so after day 1. Someone told me I flushed $4000 down the drain. GOOD! Thats where they belong!

Hang in there, all of ya's. Good luck. Hate the pills. Love straight and normal.