peer pressure

I was sober for 3 years and doing so well. I unfortunately gave into peer pressure and started drinking again. I DO NOT find AA to be of ANY help, as I only got involved with messed up people who were no good for me, and now I'm back in court for doing something stupid while under the influence of morphine. (i got it legally I have a 2 torn ligaments and torn cartilidge in my knee) but the person I got into trouble with is a user I met in AA. I cannot seem to find good people to be around. I make stupid decisions because I'm lonely and always working just to make the rent and gas money. I cannot afford hobbies as EVERYTHING costs a  ton of money these days. I need help. I need decent people in my life . I need SOBER decent people in my life. Any suggestions?

[cubfan70]

AA seems to be "clique-ish"  I was in a great inpatient rehab 3 1/2 years ago and I had great friends from it, but they all went back to using. In AA it was the same thing, The few people I could get close to, were hiding their drinking or just relapsed and forgot about me as their friend. I have a friend now and when I told him I haven't had a drink in 5 weeks, he said "you'll drink again" It wasn't very supportive. I DON'T want to mess up. I WANT to be sober. I just don't know how to break through the loneliness. I get so sad. Then I drink.

[kim715]

I tend to agree with sunnyone.I go to AA meetings as part of my recovery process.I did not have a drinking problem,I am an addict in recovery.Although I have met some nice people there,I do not socialize with anyone outside of the meetings.I am there to work on me,and right now 'me' is my first priority.I have cut off all contact with the people I used to consider friends.The truth is that because of my addiction I cut off ties with my true friends a long time ago and the people I have had in my life when I was using were not friends they were 'drug buddies'.If you have been going to meetings then you know that you must change people,places,and things that trigger you or make it easy for you to continue on in a destructive manner.as sunnyone said if you don't change then nothing changes,including not looking to others for acceptance,but accepting yourself.There is alot of support here and noone will lead you in the wrong direction,but you have to work on you because we are all going to be faced with temptation for as long as we walk this earth.It's within ourselves that we have to find the strength to walk away from the things that we know will eventually strip us of everything that we hold dear in our lives.Hang in there.I wish you luck and please keep posting.Peace.

[cubfan70]

I thought the people in AA would be the best people to hang around. I did cut off all ties to my drug buddies. I guess I just don't know where else to find sober friends if I can't find them in AA. It seems the people I always get in my life are users. I don't understand how I continually choose the wrong people. I strive for better and end up the same. I'm tough enough that I was sober for 3 years, so I know I have it in me, I just need support and I don't have it in my life. I don't have family and the only person I love, my 9 yr old, was taken away when I was using. I only see her every other week and it KILLS me. I miss her and feel so bad for choosing alcohol over being a mother. THAT guilt consumes me.

[worried878]

It may be best to stay close to home for a bit til u get back on track...i did and did not socialize heavily again until recently...I go to AA but do not "hang" out with anyone from there...when the meeting is over i leave ...i work fluu time and do stay busy but i know that your child is missed....as she grows older and has a choice of where she spends her time, she may choose u if u stay on track...just a thought