In about 12 hours i will have a whole week under my belt. A few days ago it didnt even seem possible. I still feel rather exhausted in the morning and during work..but again..its nothing compared to what i felt a few days ago. Thanks again everyone..i will post tmr after my 1 week is official
Way to go, miserable! Soon you will find that you are not so "miserable"! The mind thing is very difficult! I know I kept making deals, and coming up with ideas and plots and plans on how to justify getting pills! If you are able to work, that is a great distraction! Pour yourself into it! Do the best job you've ever done! Stay focussed! After work, find yourself another project to keep your mind busy! Reading posts, and replying to offer support to others is a great idea! For me, it was much more difficult when I just sat and stared! That is when my mind started going crazy!
Take care, you are doing amazing!
God bless you for working!! How you do that is amazing.
You are way, way stronger than me. I tried cold turkey years ago, but couldn't do it (kids). Finally relapsed, then got my butt in a methadone clinic. It saved me.
I have so much admiration for y'all that quit cold turkey. I know just how painful it is, so painful.
I've read to keep busy, excercise your hiney off, and mucho mega vitamins.
I wish you the best. Hope you feel better soon.
Thanks pat..i jus got off work. There were a few hours today that i felt so exhausted i could barely stand up. But i pushed through. At this point of my recovery i feel that its a mind game. Its like whatever mentality you have going into it and during it will be the deciding factor. I feel like im telling my body that i can beat it at all costs. The mind is a powerful thing. I never imagined i would be in a situation like this. But life is full of obstacles. And this is mine at this point. Thanks everyone thats still reading. Means alot
Good for you and great you got some sleep. Sleep is so precious right now. Hope you have a great day at work. Stay Strong.
Just got up for work. I was able to get 8 of hours of sleep. I still feel weak and exhausted, but nothing compared to a few days ago. Im almost 5 days clean, and while i feel better then i did i know im not out of the clear just yet. But everyday it gets a little easier.thanks to everyone that is keeping up with this tab..the support is awesome.will update later tonight.
Julia, keep posting but start your own thread so we can hunt you down. I finally weakened enough to establish a direct line here today after lurking for two years.
Pat, I'm with you, I quit my 3 day/week truck drivin job in july cause it took 80mg/day to do it. Now that i'm going through withdraws i'm just sitting here in my shop watching work pile up, probly a couple thousand dollars worth if i'd just get busy on it.
Looks like "miserable" is tougher than me, 'Jimmy' nailed it with "one time the withdrawals are just so terrible that it finally sticks in our brains", well this time is so terrible, I don't know how i'm gonna make it through 24 hours. Then that demon that goes around with the sledgehammer knocking people in the head at 2:30 AM has showed up at my place the last four nights so i can't sleep.
Hi Julia,
Perhaps you could start your own post so all the regulars can welcome you and offer suggestions and support. :)
~D
Hello I've been reading all the posts on this forum....I've been using them for almost two years or lost the count for real. I've been on relapses many times and its so hard. I decided I want to stop from cold turkey again.....it must be four to five times....I'm on Day 3 off from perk 30s. Please help! I look horrible and so weak. Keeping myself warm and try to force to eat but little by little....
Keep updating and I need your supports.
Julia
Wow, It has always amazed me how people can work during withdrawals. I am on day 5 and I just forced myself to walk around the block and that did me in. Good for you and good luck today at work. Hope to hear good news later today that you made it through the day.
At 2.30 it will be 4 days since the last time i used. Last night was rough but i did end up getting 6 hours of sleep somehow. I work today from 4 to 11.will update after.
That's what fixed me also. The wds were so bad there is noway I'm touching another pain Med. Good intel Jimmy. 4 weeks clean hang in there man it gets so much better and its hard work with great rewards!!
You know my friend we all seem to do this until one time the withdrawals are just so terrible that it finally sticks in our brains . Took me three times before I said you know what I really don't want to go threw this anymore and so far I haven't ! I pray this is it for you too . Stay strong and keep posting .. Jimmy
thank you all so much, just hearing storys and advice and support from you all means everything to me. i looked foward to coming back to this site a few hours later to see if i had any posts. going to a movie tonight with the girl to get out of the house, it cant come soon enough.
thank you
everyone
Be sure you're taking a good MultiVit with minerals. Force fluids. For that restlessness, get some Hylands Restfull Legs. It's at Walmart/Walgreens. Also,take some potassium and magnesium tablets. It will really help you.
Hot baths feel wonderful. Get some Epsom salts, which also contains magnesium, pour a cupful into the bath and soak...
Alteril is a good OTC sleep med for many.
Just some suggestions for you...let us know of you have questions.
you're in the eye of the storm,,,,little bit more and you're home free...
I took hot baths
lots of music
walks... (even rain)
I reminded myself I am healing...the drugs are leaving my body...
I no time you will be living then life you were meant, making decisions for yourself .....not the drugs deciding..... you will start to feel real energy again... , not the false stuff....everyone around you will start to heal,,,,..
and you will come to know soon .......that there is a better way of life besides druggin all the time,,,,
hang on,,,,its not forever.....
much support
Free~
Hey u are doing great keep going and DONT EVER loom back!!! I agree the best thing is havi g support. I was scred to death to tell my husband in fear tht he would leave me with our children and scared to tell my mother bc i didnt want her to think less of me. They knew there was something going on but didnt kno what. I came clean to them and its been amazing im almost at 3 months clean and i could cry when i look back on what my life used to b. Keep up the good work u will find amazing support here as well!!!! Btw congratulations on taking ur life back!!!!
you are doing great and you have done it before but it sounds to me that you really didn't have the support the 2 times you went ct. this time you have taken the step to come clean to your mom and gf and thats wounderful I think it important to have the support of people you love and love you back. Pluse it really take courage or at least It took me alot cause I was scared to death to tell my mom and husband they all ready knew of course but to have it confirmed it was just a hard thing for everyone you keep up the good work you'll get there keep posting I find it help just to get it out of your chest so to say praying for ya.
I know the relapse story, 2 years, over and over. Telling people and reaching out for support made all the difference this time. It's only been 4 months, but that's a miracle for me. I used to read through old posts, when I couldn't sleep at night and went to a 12 step meeting every evening. You know about the detox, you've been there. Time to find out why you relapsed and make sober friends, so you can STAY clean. Glad your still fighting, practice make perfect, yet it gets harder each time. Keep fighting and try to think of all you have to look forward to rather than how you feel. I know it's hard, but it's so worth it I can't even explain it. March on and stay with us, we need you. Recovery is a WE thing, and the more the merrier.
Hey,you are doing a great thing so just hang in there.It is good that you have support and people around you so you don't have to be alone.It always takes me at least 25 days to feel better so you were probably close to a turning point when you made it 18 days the last time.Just stick it out and try to get some exercise even if it is just walking around your house.Keep up the great work and let us know how you are doing.