percoset withdraws

[imbmr13]

How long does it last? I have been taking 10\325 mg 3x a day for the past two years on and off. I am suffering now, from several deppresion, body pains and addition. I need help! I am a mom of a 2 year old, I want my life back.

[littlebit010101]

Hi Smiles.......I understand about your family and take your time when you feel its right then u can tell them....but you would be surprised at how much they know and how much they love you.....so just walk that one around the park for a while and let me know how you feel about it....but its so awesome to have their support as you struggle to get your and their lives back....bc the depression and the mind games get tough....and oh my goodness it takes 90 days almost to the hour to finally say wow I can breathe a deep, really deep breath again....lol....I can think again, I'm back at work, I can write and people can understand it again...lmao....that one was tough....I would be talking and in mid sentence forget an adjective that I had used my whole life and it just would not come out...then I would spend hours afterward trying to remember the word...talk about chasing your own tail.....lol....oh and the coolest thing happened yesterday may not seem like much to some but i'm still spazzing out on it this morning....I have my keys again...ok let me explain....for years and years I always lost my keys....always hunting them running late for drs appts and just bonkers....well my husband fixed me hook so as soon as i walked in I hung them there.....well those keys have hung there forever and a day...I had no desire to go anywhere even I was able...but now they are mine to keep up with again....I mean I actually have my keys back in my hands...I feel like such a big girl again....lol....well I must get started on this report.....talk later....much luck to u and best wishes its so worth it.....tlc...

[gnarly_1]

tapers work i was on 150mmg of methadone so the taper was supose to take 2yr I cut it down to 8 1/2 mo a little  less then 1/2 the time methadone is a monster to kick as soon as you speed up your taper you go into withdrawals so its a game of cat and mouse i am greatfuf to be free freom the stuff 2yr2mo now with this pills you should be able to do it in a couple of months get a pill cutter at the pharmacy and break it down take a little less every 3 dars and you will be free in no time tapering is not comfortable you go threw mini withdrawals along the way the key is not to yo/yo your dose once its down keep it there even if your uncomfortable dont go down in dose only to go back up again this trains
your body that if it complains you will give it more once down stay that way and just deal with the withdrawals it requires discipline but you can do it keep posting for support good luck and God bless.......Gnarly

[smiless777]

Hi Ballgame,

Thanks so much for the luck I'm going to need it. May I ask if you were sucessfull in the taper, and if you have any suggestions on the taper method? Thank you so much!

Smiless

[smiless777]

OMG Littlebit as I began to read your message I couldn't stop the flow of tears that were erupting in me. In fact, I think this may be the first time in years I have felt emotion this deeply. Just one more reason to get off these horrible drugs. As I read your experience I felt so much empathy for you and wish I could have helped as you have done for me. Your words are so beautiful and eloquette and the comparison to a flower really hit a trigger spot in me. I cried for an hour after reading this because all this time I've been fearing the old version of me. As with any addict the drugs were what helped me do the housework, visit a friend, be a super hero-or so I thought. The reality is all they have done is made my brain a fog, robbed me of my ambitions, and left me a mere shell of what I used to be. The description you gave of umcomfortable and scary was dead on. I think that may be the worst symptom for me. I feel like I'm walking around in someone elses body trying to fit in. The worst part is not a single soul in my life knows what is going on. My friends have no idea, my husband has no idea, and now as I'm typing this I'm utterly shocked I would work so hard at disguising the one element destroying my life.

I'm going to take your advise on the taper. I was on 60 mg per day and suddenly dropped to 10 mg. I have been on a steady rise for 5 years starting at a low dose. I know this is nowhere near what you undertook but for me has been a living hell. I have booked an appt with my doctor to discuss an alternative method for managing my pain. I know this taper will be difficult but I am committed to awakening the beauty inside me again. I have also learned a valuable lesson in the process in which I should have shared my pain with those that love me. As of right now I cannot face adding this to the equation. I know this sounds crazy but the idea of disappointment from those I love compounded with my own is far to much to bear. I cannot thank you enough littlebit for your kindness and compassion. I'm going to continually remember the flower I am in this journey. You're an inspiration and deserve a million smiles...

[littlebit010101]

Hello SMILES...so good to see u r hanging in there but slow the train down...first I commend u for being able to taper...astonishing my friend..but u need to taper more comfortablly don't rush it...can't give out plans but do it so u don't notice it so bad......I had to c/t not a pretty sight...I was on oxycontin, oxycodone and diluadid for eight years...started out low mg then kept going up up and up and I came down Dow and down....called my Dr said I won't be there for my refill popped my last two and held my breath...I hadn't found this site knew nothing of what was happening I got dehydrated spent the night in er getting fluids and man was I sick....but I was on a high dosage and for a long time...so mine was extreme or was to me....it was day ten before I saw any light....then slowly like a neglected flower (which I was) but by my choice...i was able to eat a bit of food and found this site and read everything...but by day 15 I was feeling better no light yet just thought well I may live...then like a light each day after was brighter....so some light was shining...it hurts ur eyes at first and its scary...but its light so how can it be scary?? Well glad u asked...its like being in familiar skin, its warm and friendly but at the same time u haven't been here in so long its uncomfortable...so here lies the problem....do I keep going or go back to the cave I just crawled out of...well I got the he!! Out....there were still rough patches but my brain is so much better...I cry happy tears now...I love them...and my beautiful family my husband and I worked so hard for needed me as much as I needed them...and the weird part all long I had conveinced myself I was useless bc at one point I was paralyzed and couldn't walk...but here I am......and I can't quit SMILING....best wishes my friend..

[Ballgame]

It's amazing how long it takes to get off. It's all good until you start and realize its not easy. I've been there with fast taper and felt the same way. Good luck!

[smiless777]

Littlebit,

Thanks so much for the inspiring words, I can't tell you how much it means right now. I attempted to go through a fast and furious taper but soon realized it was too much too fast. I have been so sick for a week and have lost almost 15 pounds. However that glimpse I did get in the process was enough to keep me focused. I am only taking 5mg now every four hours to a max of three per day. I'm going to continue lowering it back with a little more ease. I still feel like hell but I sooo want to be free of these demons. I just realized how much you came off of...astonishing! May I ask how you achieved this and how long it took? Thank you so much for everything you're an angel :-)
Smiless

[littlebit010101]

Smiles, the heart is who we r so listen to ur heart...and u have already seen glimpses of the old u and we r such beautiful people when we find us again..I had forgotten how much I liked me..lol..but I really do like me free of the drugs they take ur very soul from u....congrats on seeing glimpses..just a glimmer is enough of a taste to try...good luck my friend...

[Ballgame]

How you doing imbmr13? It's been 2.5 weeks. You make it?  

[smiless777]

Hi littlebit,

First let me start by saying congrats! Wow what a victory! Thanks so much for sharing your story. You nailed all the words you could have wrote by stating "not stop smiling". I know in my heart this is true, but my body and mind disagree. I wish you continued success and keep on smilin :-)

[littlebit010101]

Hi smiles....well one thing I can tell u is u won't be able to stop smiling....I'm 124 days free of oxycontin up to 280 mg per day....and my life is fabulous... I'm not good with words but if I was I still could never express how awesome my and my familys life is now...good luck to u and best wishes...

[smiless777]

Wow, I've been watching these forums for almost a year knowing at some point I would form enough courage to join. I refused to believe I had a problem, but since I am here clearly I do. My burden is percoset (doctor prescribed). I don't believe this medication is doing my body justice and to be honest my tolerance is growing. I've been doing a hefty taper for the past four days and although I feel like hell, it's weird I catch myself remembering this old me- free of influence. I know the withdrawal question has been beat to death so what I'm looking for is anyones motivational words of how their life improved after quitting. I want to know there really is a silver lining. Please share if you have a story of triumph so I may be encouraged by your strength and outcome. Thank you so much....

[imbmr13]

Congrats for everything that you are doing!! I am very proud of you!! Yes, I have the same desire as you!! I want to give my family my all and with those pills we are not, we might thing that we are, but that a bs of the drugs (the trick).  Best of luck, and so PROUD OF YOU!! WE CAN DO IT!!

[roughroad]

my day was good. I finally had to go into work for a meeting this morning but it went well. I wish I could have worked out but I have the kids round the clock mostly except school days. I am more involved and patient with my kids today and was able to take my 2yr old for a walk. She was moody today so that did test me a bit but I don't feel the mental struggle as much to take a pill when this happened. She had a melt down at dinner time throwing her food and stuff so we BOTH took a time out...me & her  LOL.  That worked well. Last night was a bit sleepless and strange but today I feel an overwhelming feeling of happiness. I am really relieved to know I will be able to go through Christmas a new mommy for my kids and more peace in my heart. I have had a realization that those pills really pay games with your head and made us think they were helping us deal with stuff better but that just wasn't the case. That was all in my head and a design of the drug to keep you taking it. You're not far behind me :-). I can't wait till we hit the 1 month mark!! Imagine how good we will feel then.

[imbmr13]

Thanks! So how was your day so far? Today, I was able to walk for a mile or so, clean the house!! Yay!! Still feeling like crap but I do feel better!! every day is a better day!! Pls keep me posted. Cant wait till tomorrow, DAY 4!!

[roughroad]

glad you got some exercise! That will really help a speedy recovery. I can understand your situation whole heartedly as my xhusband was a pain pill addict too(and many other drugs). He was a huge financial drain on my family and didn't really seem to want to get better. But even though you have such easy access to these drugs you will still pull through. They are all around me too and it hasn't stopped me(at day 5 now!!). I watched my dealers granddaughter last night and didn't ask for any and was around someone today who is like a walking pharmacy and didn't want any either. The stress of your marriage and child can push you in the direction of doing something stupid like what you and I did--taking the pills-- but we can prove our strength right now! Day 5 is great. I do feel more energy and much much more clear headed. The physical ache is still there but it isn't as bad as it has been. I have been taking liquid b complex and drinking plenty of green tea and water. I am taking natural sleep aids too at night. I found this thing at the drug store called a iChill. It has melatonin, valerian root, rose hips, and b vitamins. I am focusing on all around health right now instead of simply being drug free. Is your 2 yr old on a schedule? That will help with the stress on both your child and yourself. A heathy mind, body and soul is what the focus should be and just run with it. Great progress imbmr13!! Keep up the good work.

[imbmr13]

Just came back from walking, cannot run :( But it sure felt great to b able to move around today!! Come on day 4!!  Do you guys know if there is anything that can easy wd's? I am taking b complex and advil. Please let me know and lets keep helping eachother. You guys are the best!!

[imbmr13]

So sorry about the mispells, not quite there yet.

[imbmr13]

I want to share my real story here!! My husband is an painkiller as well(addict), he was hurt two weeks after we learned that I was having a baby!! My son is 2 1\2 yrs old. This has been an awful experience. Went I gave birth via csect. and I was giving percoset at the hosp.(will never forget my husband asking\bagging to put the pill under my tongue and spill it out for him once the nurse left. Long story short. I am a working addict and I will never spend more than I can, in the other hand my hubby has ruin all our money.His addiction is complety out of control, he changed for the worst. So here I am trying to move forward and help him, I tried quitting before but due to my job\son it was almost impossible. But it is time for me to stop covering the whole thing and help my self so I can help him. My life is horrible, I spend no time with friends and I only perfome 50% of my abilities at home and work. I took Thurd and Friday off to do this, and here it is Sat. I pray God give me the streght to make and get better for my family. Oh, did I mention that there is pills at my home as I speak and my husband been high around me this past two days!! It is sooo hard and I need all the support out there becuase I want to win this battle..BYE PERCOS, MOODYNESS, LACK OF ENERGY!!! I just want me back!! Help!!!

[imbmr13]

I am getting my mp3 and getting ready to go for a short walk with my son. I hope and pray this devil leave my body\soul soon!! It is horrible, right?? Today is 6 days for you, right? How are you feeling? My thoughts and prayers goes out to all us, this is not an easy path, but I know we all will make it!!  Love and thanks to all you for this great support as I have no one to share this horrible expirence with!!

[DayToTry]

Let me know when you get back if you're all in one piece!  Me ... I walked out the door and its raining so I guess I won't be walking today.  Bummer.  Think I'll go lay in bed and read a book.  Glad to hear you're feeling better imbmr13.

[imbmr13]

Feeling better than yesterday and thats for sure! Thank you so much for your support. I am going to try to go for a run ( I hope I dont break in pieces) Thats how bad my body aches :) As you can tell I do feel better mentally, but not quite physically...Hope you are feeling great!!

[JustNotStrongEnough]

How are you feeling today imbmr13??

Any better?  I sure hope so.  Today is here, so let's worry about today now.  Yesterday is in the past!!  Another day sober under the belt!!

[roughroad]

You'll feel better on day 3. A run is a fantastic idea. And don't worry... the old you will get here sooner then you think. I already feel so much like my old self and technically I hit day 5 a few hours ago. I feel so strong in my decision that I was able to watch my dealers granddaughter this evening and didn't even feel tempted to ask her for anything when she came to pick her up. Going through something like this can actually strengthen you as a person..as a woman...a mother.
I am proud of your progress. This site is the best thing for us. We need to hear from others in this same boat. I wish you a more restful night.