pleas help ozgirl

Arrrr my legs I've had banananas **** this I'm strong I won't off buti hate this feeling help

[ImDONENoMore]

Yes those first days do make you feel kinda frantic I know.  But remember fp it lessens with every day so try to think of that when you're having a particularly tough moment.  And there is no reason at all to feel bad about the relapse - it's selfdefeating and serves NO purpose here.  You just focus on each day forward okay?  Sure, I think we each learn something new about ourselves when we relapse and that's actually a good thing.  It will help you keep your guard up for the future.

You are going to be okay.  I believe in you.  :)

[Bkitty]

Im so sorry ozzie,,have you tried a hot bath,,what about some magnesium pills? This will pass,,I promise. I know it ***** a$$. Hang in there sweetie.~Bkitty

[fpvfem]

Kitty I just ate a banana it 330 am I just wanna sllep

[dominosarah]

Soak in the tub, that should help.  Try and get up and move as much as you can.  They do make supplements for RLS.  Can you go and talk with the chemist?  Isnt that what you call them?!!!!  

Take some deep breaths, you will get thru this.....

[lulu747]

Yep...have a bath and put on some soft music if you can to give your brain something to focus on that's gentle...It was the only way I got through those rough nights....and praying...I prayed a lot and I'll pray for you right now....Hang in there you can do this....Lu

[Texas50881234]

Hylands for leg cramps helped me tremendously. You can fervor at Walgreens, Walmart etc

[fpvfem]

Its the headgames which r the worst imgoin crazy cryinh god help me

[Desperatetoeclean]

The mind games got to me really bad too. To make it worse my whole family is addicted to this garbage so I really had to set it in my head that I wanted my life back and I wasn't gonna let ANYTHING stand in my way. The withdrawls only lasted me about four days and I was taking A LOT. Once I got passed the first couple days I had to literally tell my brain to shut the f up. After a few days I realized what I just went through and taking a pill though it will make it go away you start right back at the beginning. Anything you can do to keep your mind busy will help. Something you love to do that isn't pills. Sleep as much as possible and the runs suck there is no doubt but it's also your bodies way of cleansing itself that along with sleep helps a lot.

[MD75]

I was that way yesterday...jumpy, anxious, emotional, my whole body hurt....I wanted to cave so bad but I took a vitamin and a warm bath and told myself that the vitamin will do the same thing....about an hour later I was better, not 100% but better.  I think it was just taking something/anything that made my brain chill.  I have vitamins/lollipops/and vitamin c tabs in the cabinet now and I run for one of those.  Be strong.....don't give in now.

[fpvfem]

Thanks guys so much I'm not gonna cave this time but **** it hurts n ***** so bad

[IBKleen]

Move. Get up and walk around. If you can go outside and walk then do that. It will help tire your legs and help ease the muscle discomfort. If you can do that for 20 minutes then try a nice hot soak in the tub and cuddle up in something warm and lay down. If you can't sleep---don't lay there tossing and turning. It only makes it worse both mentally and physically. Whatever you do hang in there and don't use. This is only temporary.

[dominosarah]

Turn on some music, listen to it loud or however you like it.  Dance like noone is watching~~Sing like noone is listening~

[Desperatetoeclean]

I know it does don't give in you can do this. You're going to feel on top of the world when this is done. When I FINALLY won I was and still am so proud of myself that I didn't even care if anyone else was proud of me. I come from a not so great family as far as support and love goes. I used this site as my family cause honestly all the strangers on this site showed me more caring then I've ever felt. Come on here and ramble senselesley believe it or not someone is listening and it helps A LOT. it was by far the biggest thing to help me get clean. Just take by the hour then soon enough the withdrawls go away and you can take it day by day ect..... You're a strong women you got this crap.

[fpvfem]

Thanks evryone I'm tryin so hard. Feel so sick. Much love

[ricart70]

Hang in there fp it won't last too much longer.hug for you

[lulu747]

You can do this!  Seriously the music really helps...and singing like Sara said.  She suggested it to me when I was on day 2 or 3 and feeling like I wanted to die and it really really worked for me....Big hug....Lu

[fpvfem]

Y am I so weak

[fpvfem]

So woek a **** I am I'm not caving but fark me

[quitinoxys]

OK first of all take a big DEEP breath, the reason why you are feeling so weak and cramping is because your addictive brain is screaming at you to feed it more opiates. Do not listen to it, try to do some sort of stretching exercise as this will help with the muscle cramps and lack of energy. Get your self some vitamins B6, B12, C, D. Also get some minerals magnesium to help with cramps and absorption of the vitamins. Have you tried the Thomas Recipe it helped me tremendously when I did C/T. Also keep your self hydrated and nurished it will help quite a bit. I will pray for God to take your pain away so hang in there you are doing great. God Bless---Rick

[ImDONENoMore]

Distractions fpv - you know what's going on so the more you distract yourself the less you'll focus on it.  May only be temporary relief but some relief is better than none. Start those hot showers, get moving if you feel up to it or put on some mindless TV or movies and try to watch them.  Get up and take a walk around the house, the yard, whatever, the moving will help even if that feels impossible right now, I know you KNOW it will help.

We're here for you honey you're not alone - you'll get through this I promise you you will.  (mwah) :)

[fpvfem]

I'm cryin cos I know what to do but itys hard I know its not easy just hate that I went back on them fark I'm a mess here

[fpvfem]

I'm tryin so hard theanks for ya hbelp I need kind words mwah

[ImDONENoMore]

Yes those first days do make you feel kinda frantic I know.  But remember fp it lessens with every day so try to think of that when you're having a particularly tough moment.  And there is no reason at all to feel bad about the relapse - it's selfdefeating and serves NO purpose here.  You just focus on each day forward okay?  Sure, I think we each learn something new about ourselves when we relapse and that's actually a good thing.  It will help you keep your guard up for the future.

You are going to be okay.  I believe in you.  :)

[Bamnuts]

I know I am not the worst addict on this page and I finally hit rock bottom the other day when my wife says I have. Changed over the last year (SWIM have been doing  Vic's, percs, morphine, and my favorite o contin for 2 years now).
I am a loving father of two 9 yr and 5 yr old daughters.  I can't lose them and my awesome HOT wife!  I make pretty good money and we Are struggling finincially. I rationalize it is not because of the habit then I reluctantly did the math and saw how much money I have WASTED in the last 2 years. Then guilt sets in. I am at the lowest of lows. I was a former world class athlete and even competed at the 1996 us olympics. My brother and I had a gym and it closed 4 months ago.  I wAs at least able to workout and keep my body in shape.  From the gym closing 4 months ago.....I have gained 40 lbs and cannot even see in the night airn see my privates (without a mirror). My fears are dying early for my kids, my wife leaving me, and losing all my nice things In life (house cars, etc....the morale of the story is I quit. COld turkey (my last pill was Saturday at 7pm).  It is now 9:13 as I type And I took enough immodium to stop the diarea (diarrhea). Now the problems are depression an guilt along with insomnia from shakey (shaky) legs. I have read a lot of sites and everyone says to use benzos for sleep.......why doesn't anyone reccomend ambien?
Is it bad for u?  I M on hour 50 of wd and started a diet today. ( I weighed in at 295.4 ). That was rock bottom along with wasted money. The other problem I think I am going through is alchol wd. I don't use alcohol without a opiate with it........I say what is the point?  AlcOhol is not my drug of choice ......I just use it to maximize my opiate buzz. I don't know but maybe I am going throough a double withdrawal. I M just seeking for help with suggestions and support. I need to "right this ship" and support will help me. I have not told anyone my demons I just want to exorcise t
hem.  I look forward to comments And support!
Take care!

[ImDONENoMore]

Hey fpv - how you holding up honey?

[bama88]

Hey fpv how are you today. Please check in. Calling fpv calling fpv.

[Bkitty]

Oh ozzie,,I just wanna jump on a plane and fly down there and hug you. Im so sorry you feel this way and are struggling. I believe in you and I know you can do this,,you already have. (((((((HUGS))))))~Bkitty

[quitinoxys]

Ozgirl are you there please come back and tell us how ya doing

[fpvfem]

hey guys sorry been resting had no energy to type still holdin up baarely was gonna pick my meds up today as I'm on daily pick ups but didn't its not as bad as a month ago but bad enough had a good rest now just watching movies much love from oz mwah

[fpvfem]

Still slack but moving round in small timeframes how is everyone else today much love guys

[ImDONENoMore]

Hi honey!!  Glad to hear you didn't go in for the meds today.  And you know, I think if you called and had your Dr. ccancel those meds you'd feel better.  Scary at first, true, but it can relieve a lot of the anxiety - I know that sounds strange but I felt relief after I told my Dr. no more (haha I'mDoneNoMore...) - but I'll admit it was a scary kind of relief.  But after a few days, knowing I didn't have anything to fall back on made me feel safer (does that make sense?).  At least early on anyway... so it might be something to think about?  :) (and as always MWAH right back at you!)

[Amanda270]

Help cannot take it this is so awful I can't do it

[fpvfem]

Amanda270 it does get better if it was easy it wouldn't be worthit huni think positive I know its farking hard. Imdone I still ain't gone in its been a battle I'm still holding in there I fully understand what ya sayon I've been telling myswlf I'm cut off it seems to be working so far mwah love from oz

[novics]

What can't you take Amanda? I am going through this too right now, maybe I can help?