please help...

[suggashane2626]

Ok so im new to this site and deff need some guidance. I have been heavily addicted to Norco 10/325.for about 2years but each year seems to get only worse I am so dependant to this drug it ***** deep down I realy want help.. at times just feels out of reach. I am on day 2 the mental and physical anxiety is terrible.  I have 4 bulging disks in myback no excuse am actually tired of making excuses up in my head to keep takin them. my job.my back. My mood.my depression. Iv ben takin no bs between 30/40 pills a day  all 10/325. Norco. I want my life back its all I think about its what I dream about it ***** yet right now feels good to admit . I feel it is time to break this visious cycle. I dont have anything pill wise other the 800mg ib profin to help my legs ache my body hurts im trying to stay strong iv tryd programs **** dont help me I felt hearing about everyone talk about in group circle about there struggles made me wana go use. Im serious and realy embarrised its not everyday u wana admit ur a junkie pleasplease anyone if u read this dont pass judgment wen u realy dont kno me.its hard.but can b done. If anyone has any home remedies or somthing thats over the counter. Please message me thank you have a great day...

[suggashane2626]

So am happy I can say Im 5 Days Clean from Norcos. Yess it has been suppr hard my body is stilll hurting but 1 day at a time.. thx everyone I need to lay dwn dizzy spellss still

[devisatedandscared]

You are doing amazing...im so glad you found us...i am on day 16...from taking 15 a day to stay in my perfectly numb world. It was so hard for me, as I am completely alone in this journey too. Literally the only people that I could talk to are my family here. You have found the right place to get support on your journey...its so comforting to know your not alone in this...we are all experiencing the same hell...and if they aren't, they definitely have. Please keep posting....i look forward to your everyday progress :)

[suggashane2626]

Addd me: GlasdGuy&ToothFairier And who ever wants to become.frind I Sincerely ThankGod I found you. Ill keep posting my daily real struggle thx to the ones who take the time to hear me out and to the ones whose stories inspire me thank you

[glassguy]

You are the man!!!!! Thats how we handle our business. With help from gr8 people giving us gr8 advice that's the MH family.I am so happy for you and I'm glad you got the support of your mom their the greatest too. Dude you are making the best decision of your life.NO MORE NORCOS!!!! Try not to stay on the subutex for it is really hard to get off and wds last longer.did you look up the thomas recipe. Like I said it really helps with the wds. So dude again you are gunna get though this just stay strong and we will be here for you!!! Keep posting and reading other people's post it will pass time and give you encouragement :-) :-) :-) :-) I will be looking out for you and your posts.....

[PurrfectlyKrazy]

Oh my, I just noticed your post about the Sub.  Talk to some of the people here who tried to go clean that route.  From what I understand Sub is even harder to get off of than Hydrocodone or Oxy.  I think if that's what you need to do it more power to you but get as much information about it as you can....and if you get on it try to make sure they don't leave you on it for years like some folks have.

[PurrfectlyKrazy]

Welcome!  I was thrilled to see that you have some family support.  That is so awesome!  You've come to the right place...each of us have been in your shoes and we know exactly what you are going through.  The thing that I loved is that no one judged me....I was accepted immediately and got tons of advice and support.

Keep coming back...especially if you are feeling lousy....read what others are saying....you won't feel so alone....and above all.....hydrate, hydrate, hydrate.

Good luck to you.  You CAN do this if you really want it!!

[suggashane2626]

Ok friends heres an UPDATE!!! I went and saw a special addiction detox doctor today. I was very upfront and exsplained my Story it was super scary and made me very nervous lol I had no idea that he was going to be so understanding. He put me on sebutex is same thing as suboxin and somthing called Phenobarbital.for the anxiety I feel 100 % Normal. Thank you everyone on here for all ur love and support u gave me the courage to talk to my mother and it turned out in such a good way im almost finished now with day 2. Cant wait tell its 2 yrs. Lol

[toothfairie]

So glad you talked to your mom and she's gonna help you!!  And I agree with above, please be careful with the subs....it's a whole other beast to come off of if you take for a long time.  I don't have any experience with them but i've seen on here they are h*ll to come off of, even worse than Norco.  Keep posting for support and tell us how you are feeling.  Hang in there!!  

[kksmama]

Yay good for you!  I used to take as much as u were taking and withdrawal definitely *****! Unfortunately after getting clean I relapsed several times but finally managed to get off hydrocodone for good.....BUT then I got hooked on Tramadol. Im tapering my dose now from about 25 a day and for the last few days ive only taken 8 per day. I feel like ****! But im determined to finish this. Unfortunately Tramadol cant just be stopped cold turkey like I did previously from hydrocodone and I really wish I could. I just wanna be done. Im so glad u were able to reach out to ur mom. I wish I could do that. Im completely alone in this fight. No drs, no friends,  no families. Just me and my own will. Most people on here told me I cant do it without help but im determined to try. Nobody understands the positionthat im in and exactly WHY I cant reach out for help but I cant. U keep on fighting and please be careful with the subs! I kno SO MANY people that started sub to get off other things then ended uo more addicted to that than what they were addicted to before. Good luck in your journey!

[VICourageous]

I too am happy for the Support from your Mom..This Journey into Recovery is not meant to be walked alone. Try hitting some of those meetings too..There are all kinds out here these days..The detox is the easy part (hard) but it is working on staying clean that takes all you got..Always keep your Guard Up and be Safe..Life will always have its ups & downs and this is why we need others.
I wish you the best!
Bless

[suggashane2626]

My choice to get clean iv been wanting it for awial now and told my self once my script of 120 10/325 was done I was going to stay clean mssge to GLASSGUY.

[suggashane2626]

Lol im not a creeper just dont have many friends other than few gfs and my drug dealers

[suggashane2626]

If any of u would like to ccall for some support my number is 951 7076634

[dominosarah]

That is great news!!!!!!  Having your mom supporting you is a huge plus!!  

[suggashane2626]

Ya I took ur guys advice reachd out to my mother who in her words said she already new but noes how stubbern I am but once came and fully opend up she askd how much money u have as of right now I reply with the 1250 for my rent she said use that to get urself the help u need and ill pay all ur bill ur live is more important the the materialistic things things that can b replaced ur life cant b I honestly didnt think shed b as supportive wen my father passd away last yr from serosiss of the liver  alcohol addiction but thank u god for sending me the right ppl in my life IM TALKING ABOUT ALL OF U

[dominosarah]

I am glad you are reaching out for help.  Will you be on the sub for a short time?  Let us know how you are doing~

[suggashane2626]

I pay the billz he helps hes leaving fer texas thank god in 5 days yipppee

[suggashane2626]

Ok so thank to everyone who has been more than supportive I pay the billz hes moving out on thrle 1st I need change as of RRIGHHT NOW IM AT A DOC OFFICE who is for addiction withdrawals suxks it was 400$ plus the 10.50 each pills its suboxin im also trying to go in patent im goibng to my first meeting tonight

[dominosarah]

Either you or your brother is gonna have to leave.  You cant be surrounded by that sort of insanity.

[dominosarah]

Hi and welcome to the forum!

You dont have to be embarrassed around any of us.  We all understand what you are going thru.  We dont pass judgement here as we all have enough skeletons in our closets that we are working on also.  You are going to have some rough days ahead as you were on a high dose.  Make sure you are drinking lots of fluids.  Get some popsicles or pudding snacks and try to eat something bland.  Bananas are good also.  Try and move around as much as you can as that will help.  Your pain will increase for awhile so take warm baths or showers.  Keep posting here and talking to us.  You can do this!  You are worth fighting for~

[glassguy]

Hey are you just trying to quit because you are out or what???

[glassguy]

Really sounds like your in a bad spot!!! Tell your brother he,s :@:hole and that you really need to get off the **it and you need help. Do you work if so go get a motel for about 2 weeks. Who pays the bills where are

[suggashane2626]

What makes it harder is my brother lives with me and he sells norcos by the 100+ so its even harder right now I asked him to get the ssshitt out the house too look out for my best interest but lik I said they dont care I got no were to go im not only trapd with my addiction im imprisoned surrounded by my worst fear he has kpens xanex norcos somas but good thing is I dont want norco as much as im craveing it I kno wwhat its done to my life not an option he wont give me any benzos even to help.. so looks like im on my own pllllz god effin HELPP MEE FML..

[suggashane2626]

Omg I feel like im gunna rip my hair out