please help!

[bringmepeterpan]

Hello guys, I'm completely new to here, just signed up today. Ive only looked around a lilttle but from what i see this is a good place for help. I am an opiate addict, and have been for 2 years. Ive done everything from oxy, to fentanyl, but more recently Hydromorphone contin 18mgs, as I cannot afford enough oxy to get high. So basically what I need to know to get started getting clean for good, I want to know how serve into it I am, and what are the best ways of detoxing at home? My last use was yesterday from 12 in the morning to about 4, after 4 pm I have not ingested, or "railed" anymore opiates. I am at a point were a nasally take oxycontin 80mg will not have any effect on me. I have been using hydromorphone 18 mgs, one to two a day, not usually in the mornings as I wait till afternoon. How serve do you think my withdrawals will be? How long before I can get my head of these clouds? Please help, I am supposed to be starting college soon, I live with my girlfriend and were planning on getting married soon, and I CANNOT let this get the best of me, but yet I fall back into time and time again, Any help is greatly appreciated, any advice will be considered, any words of hope will be cherished and remembered. I'm ready to make a change, I'm ready to be free again.

[atthebeach]

hey how are you doing? have you given any more thought to how you are going to procede with this? you have admitted that you are helpless and sick and tired of feeling like ***** everyday. that is a major step in recovery.let us help you come up with a plan.
i am hoping and praying for the chains of addiction to set you free
debbie

[bringmepeterpan]

Well to be honest I have no idea what my plan is or how im going to do about doing it. Ive just started to get feelings of anxiety that I've gone to far and I feel helpless and I'm tired of feeling like **** everyday so its time to change, I jhave the will but I just dont have a plan yet :P

[bringmepeterpan]

I think your right, Its been impacted so I eat less then I already do cause its painful, but I should also make sure that I dont take any on or maybe around the date because im being put under

[atthebeach]

hi. tapers are very hard to follow and requires much discipline. if you have someone to hold your pills and dispense them to you as planned it might work. if you hold them yourself it is very easy to take extra and then the taper wont work. with a taper the withdrawal last longer but usually arent as severe. cold turkey detox produces more severe withdrawals but they will only last 3 to 7 days. do you plan on stopping now, are you prepared to not take anymore.
snorting is harder to quit than taking them by mouth. did you read the thomas recipe? did you get any of the supplies?

wisdom teeth? that might cause a snag in the plan. otc meds could work. but you also could use it as an excuse to use.
also start to think about aftercare. this is counseling, therapy, support groups, na/aa, church something to help you deal with why you started to use. it will prepare you to be a recovering addict and not an active one.
praying for you
debbie

[gnarly_1]

WELL you could try to taper but most addicts su ck at that C/T off what your on is doable and gets it over with im for just jumping but its up to you we will support you however you decide to do it just let us know when....I never encourage anybody to wait but with the wisdom teeth thing you may just want to get that out of the way...........Gnarly

[bringmepeterpan]

Thank you so much! I realize that I am a young fellow I was 14 when I started with 8mg dilaudids, I am a regular user. I'm not looking forward to this but then again who is lol, thank you for the help and I will keep posted on my progress, I am due to get my wisdom teeth out in the next week so I don't know how that's going to feel lol, for a user that's almost everyday from 15-30 mgs hydromorphone a day do you suggest a taper or cold turkey?

[gnarly_1]

HI Welcome to the forum......well there are no 2 withdrawals the same and what dose produces mild withdrawals for one person can be sever withdrawals for another if you been taking it regularly and can feel it where off and feel the withdrawal coming on chances are good its going to be unpleasant to come off of I usae to snort dilidid yrs ago and know the vice well its no fun detoxing from it but with a little help from this sight and the will to want off of it bad we can help you get off of it noone can predict how bad your withdrawals will be
you will find out when you stop taking the stuff.....read the posts coming off most narcotics is similar go to the lower right of this page and look up the thomase recipe pick up the stuff suggested we can talk more as you get farther into this first thing is pick a quit date and carve it in stone we can go from there im glad you found the sight its always great to see someone do this at a young age its no way to go threw life keep posting good luck and God bless......Gnarly