pregnant and addicted to opiates.. someone please reply soon i dont have much time and am pleading for help

[starr1212]

I have been addicted to opiates for about 9 months now ... like really addicted, mostly to oxycontin, oxycodones, sometimes heroin although not too much, but whatever i can find. I take at least 120 mg of oxy a day and i found out i was pregant a couple of months ago and have tried everything to stop and absolutely cannot. I am almost 6 months pregnant now and am so worried about what is going to happen to my baby. is it going to be healthy? Do they drug test you and the baby in the hospital and if so will they take the baby away? I love my baby  so much but honestly cannot stop for the life of me I cant move when I am sick from opiates.. i mean cant even get out of bed to puke, much less get up to shower and start my day.I need help I really do this is not fair to my baby at all please someone help me/ My baby is very active in my stomache and moves alllllll the time and everything seems fine, even though I myself am underweight but I cant risk getting my baby taken away when it is born or risk it having birth defects cuz im acting selfish and revolving my life around stupid pills/ please answer me soon I dont have much time and I really need answers I dont know what to do! :(

[CherryFly]

I read today that any addiction is to medicate feelings, I agree with that. Its hard for some people to fully understand the "need" to medicate, I certainly do, after an emotionally and physically abusive childhood I thought, "well thats behind me on to do what I want to do with my life" It didnt take long for me to find ways to "feel" better, to run from thoughts, fears, memories, and just to feel alive and real required some mnd numbing substance and I felt so great after I was high on pills or coke, I certainly wasnt your trashy girl who's addiction leaked out because she was seen pan handling, no I think the more typical drug addicted female of our time is just trying to feel better. The issue is even if you quit or I quit now those feeling, that past whatever it may be for you will indeed still have power over you and I. I agree so much with the idea of going to treatment now, heck, you cant do to much when your pregnant anyways and I know that we will, weather we deny it or not pass on traits we DO NOT want our babies to mimick into their adult lives, even if she is born healthy what we are IS going to be seen in little moments everyday, the pain we carry will be felt and misunderstood many times in a childhood, our anger will be misplaced and the babies we love now will carry the weight of being the "cause of our anger" and one day she will come to us addicted to something or someone, or severely depressed or maybe she will make it to great things but see that we are not healthy in her life and have the wisdom to go where there is love and peace and a mom who makes breakfast and asks questions about her day and is always there when she needs her. I should have ran from my mother but did not therefore today I am 28 and I still hurt over things that happened when I was 10,11 and so I pretend to be quite normal but inside I hate myself and I have no clue beside the instant effect of taking a pill how to feel better. For many of us we think "if I was pregnant I would never" good on ya, very happy that you dont carry a burden of guilt and self loathing around Im sure that makes for a much more beautiful experence and I so want "that" for Star as Im sure she does, there is only one way out, its true, one way, and its thru the mess that got us here, its thru letting out the pain, anger, saddness and whatever else makes you want take something just to feel better cause your not feeling better, your getting worse and worse and you know it just like I do. This isnt just a time to think of your baby its a time to think about your life, what you wanted when you started this trek as an "adult" and how your life really resembles that today, you still deserve the life you dreamed of then, so you have gone off course, great, that builds charecter and understanding for others and the issues they have. I think you deserve to go somewhere that they are concerned with YOU and your feelings and your future. Thats the gift a mother gives, thats the choice that tells your heart, "Im not a bad mother, Im a beautiful work in progress"  I believe that for whatever reason perhaps God things happen to us that force us to face the punishment we are doing to ourselves, we are hurting ourselves when we do the things we are doing to try and feel better but we dont know what else to do. So thats why there is treatment centers, they know what we can do and you wont be giving anything worth a darn up, this **** does not make your life better, maybe it did at first but now your just addicted so think about you, think about what you want your life to be, IT IS NOT BEYOND REACH! If your young enough to reproduce, chances are you still got your health, your looks, and your mind so go,  go right away and start the life you wanted in the first place and ditch this **** heep it has became. You can!!!!

[allaboutmary]

You are not alone in this. We have at least 1 or 2 pregnant addicts post here everyday. No one here will judge you, but please take the advice above. Talk to your doctor. I know you probably think your the only pregnant addict your doctor has, but they deal with this all the time. It is so very important you tell your doctor and do not try cold turkey. Keep reading and posting on here. You will get tons of support.

[toejam_muncher]

you need to do whatever it takes for your child. doctors can help. treatment centers can help. you need to get clean...and most importantly you need to stay clean because even when the baby has been born, that isn't an excuse to go back. you'll still need to take care of it. perhaps this is the time in your life where you give all the drugs up for good...and as everyone else said you really should be discussing this with your doc asap.

[avisg]

YES no CTing off these drugs your are looking at pre mature labor or missagrrige .YOU NEED TO BE UP FRONT WITH YOUR DOCTOR NOW.They will get you into a program If you dont get into a program and the the baby is born addictied and you fail your drug test that when they call in dss.You not telling is what is risking having your baby taken away.PLZ do what is best for your baby and you know what that is.You and your baby can get threw this OK just ask for help.

[purrrrrfect]

Hey I like star in your name.You must be special. Its time now to give it all up. and I know the perfect prayer to help you. ready, Go . God I offer myself to thee , to build with me and do with me as you will , relieve me of the bondage of self. Take away all my difficulties so that victory over them may bare witness to those I will help , of your power your love and your way of LIFE> Love Joanna , Listen say this prayer every morning and every night. Start talkin positive. you need to see a dr. its not good to stop these all at once without observation. and maybe detox. check in to it. I am not trying to scare you but I was released from the hospital 5 days ago , I had a heart attack caused by these pills. please get help if you needmy number let me know. purrrrrfect it is

[dominosarah]

Have you been to a doctor??  You have to come clean with him/her.  They will help you get off the pills. Dont just stop cold turkey...that is dangerous with you being pregnant.  Please tell the doctor for this baby.  If you dont the baby can be taken away and if the baby has withdrawals after it is born they will know what to do.  Please i am begging you to do what is right here........all the best           sara