pregnant and addicted to roxys want to quit!!

[nikki7885]

I just wanted to say I feel a little motivated and inspired by reading everyones stories on here and I think its wonderful that anyone can beat this because i know first hand how hard it is going through the withdrawals. I was takeing oxycodone 30's recreationally for about 2 years then I started going to the methadone clinic, as I was finnaly beginning to taper off of the methadone my back started killing me very bad so i decided to see a pain dr, i got an MRI and found out i have 2 herniated discs in my lower back which i think is from falling down hard on my butt running down stairs from my ex bf while having a fight. He prescribed me 4 1/2 roxy 30's a day which isnt enough for me and I too go through withdrawal by week 3 because i need 5 or 6 per day, I end up having to spend 300-500 a month just buying what extra i need off the street. Now I recently found out I am pregnant and I am scared to death of getting off the pills, I have a 2 year old as well and if I don't have the pills then i can't even take care of him let alone get up and do anything. I'm taking classes 2 days a week and not working and just that wears me out. I am sick and tired of being sick and tired and wish so badly I wasn't controlled by this little blue pill. My family thinks im a drug addict and my bf doesnt understand either, he holds on to my pills so I don't take too many but if i ask him for an extra one one day it causes an arguement and he tells me to get an abortion, then he brings my grandmother into the arguement by telling her im abusing them and he gets her started on me. I'm miserable and just don't know what to do. my old obgyn dr won't care for my pregnancy because of the medication so I have to see a high risk dr i think. which is 40 miles away the closest one. I didnt tell my pain dr im pregnant yet because im terriefied he'll cut me off, I feel like I'm just stuck here.. I'm to the point where I will start withdrawal symptoms hours after taking a pill, every morning when i wake up I already have chills, sneezing, watery eyes, sweats and all that. The worst of all is the leg pains, the feeling like i need to stretch my legs out constantly, that bothers me the most, I am also emotionally addicted to these pills, everything i do i have to take a pill first, do my homework take a pill first, go to the store take a pill first, give my son a bath take a pill first. a year ago when i had to buy them on the street i would go thru withdrawal every few days because i just couldnt afford to keep uo with my habit and when i didnt have anything i would dream about them, i started doing crazy things with my ex to get them as far as pawning all my jewelry and returning anything I could find and thats when i finally convinced my grandmother to help me pay for the methadone ( i was still trying to get high), it worked until i started to taper down and was in alot of pain. I thought getting prescribed the roxys would be cheaper and less of a hassel but now im even more controlled than before and its ruining my life! I would love to hear stories from people who have made it through this and how they did it.

[Jess31585]

Nikki, Wish you the best of luck! You came to the right place to get help! This board has helped me so much, you need to look into your medical reason with your unborn! Best of luck, and stay positive! <3 Jess

[BrotherFrankie]

cool...

[carson1975]

I get that I really do but some of the stuff she is saying he has said and done would only make matters worse. It has to be hard to be with a addict, I just know how it feels to be the addict anyway I wish her and u and everyone only the best god bless

[dominosarah]

Please PLEASE tell your OB what is going on ASAP.  This rollercoaster ride you are on is not good for you or that baby.  You need help with this.  Keep us posted on how you are doing.......sara

[BrotherFrankie]

her boyfriend is tired of suffering consequences for another persons addictions, Counseling, NA 90 and 90, see a doctor, and Family should go to al-anon..

[carson1975]

Hello doll I to took the roxy 30 so I know the hold they have on u ! Tell your bf to get off your back your doing the best u can!! You really don't need the extra stress right now! Talk to your new obgyn they will help you just be honest , I know it's hard to tell our addiction to some one but the dr will help you and right now u need him on your side how far along r u,if u said already I'm sorry I mist it, well were all here for u good luck to u and god bless u and yours

[IBKleen]

Hi & Welcome,

I feel like I am just repeating myself this morning---there are more and more female members coming into the community who are pregnant and addicted, so bear with me.

Vicki is right that this is a serious situation and you need to seek professional help. If the doctor is 40 miles away, then so be it. It is worth the drive to insure the safety of your unborn child. Find a doctor who is familiar with addiction and pregnancy and he/she will probably put you on a good taper plan. Going in and out of the withdrawal stage during pregnancy is unhealthy for both of you.

I know this a lot to throw at you but you also need to seek help to STAY off of the pills. The mental side of this addiction will take you down faster than the physical on any day. We can talk about that after you get to a doctor and begin the process.

I wish you the best. Let us know how you are doing and if you have any questions, ask away.

[vicki595]

You need to see your OB ASAP!   He/she will assist you with a taper plan. Do not go cold turkey. This is a serious situation for your unborn child. That needs to be your focus now!