Dont be scared, You're giving those withdrawls more credit than they deserve. Yeah, its uncomfortable, But you know what you get when you get through them? You get your life back. Just like you said. No more thinking about them, wasting money on them(better things to spend money on than that garbage), or chasing them around. In fact Iater on down the road, you'll look back and won't believe some of the things you did for them.
Im not a doctor, but I am a recovered addict. If you have to go 2 days without anything, Maybe think twice about suboxone,seems to me, trading one addiction for another. You'll have a good jump on things, maybe hold out and go for three days, then four, if you can just get a week or two under your belt, it WILL start to get easier.
I thought suboxone was great,The only problem was that It was comming from one of my pain mangt. drs. it seemed like he would just give me more when i ran out. that caused me to abuse them and i took 2- 8mg a day for 8 mths and found myself addicted to them also.It does take away the w/ds,but when i was out i had a choice, pay 160 for 120 lorcet and soma or 350 for suboxone(40).If you do the math you probaly know which one i picked. If your drs put you on a strict taper than I believe it can work, but if they just give them to you like candy you will find yourself in the same boat.18 days ago I found a chemical Dep. Pshyc. who put me on an out patient program of 400mg Librium(benzo),50mg serquel,.1 clonidine,Immodiam and cymbalta. he tapered the librium for 7 days and i made it so far.I never thought i would get my live back, but i do and have 4 kids and am self employed. I feel free from that bondage and have so much more time to spend w/my wife and kids.you will see that time slows down so much when your clean,im now seeing what ive been missing for years.Dont look back,yall can do it.Hope and prayers Clay TX
Thanks guys so much for all of your encouragement and words of advise. I promise to take them all into consideration when making the c/t, taper, Suboxone, ... decision. I guess my main issue are my kids and their welfare. I have only had a few days w/d before, and I don't feel like a very good mother due to lack of patience, feeling puny... It just kills me to get on to them for things that if I were cleer an would not bother me. Like I said earlier, my husband is an addict. too. which really stirs this whole mess up. I have seriously considered Suboxone for two reasons. Due to my two failed back surgeries (fusion) I will probably always need something for pain control. and secondly as a stay at home mom, c/t at this time doesn't seem the right way for me. However, I will show all of these posts and awesome comments to m husband so that he is armed with all of the facts. He and I will also start counseling next week which will be GREAT. We never faught, not a mean word b/t us in 7 years, then Oxycontin, addiction, jelousy, anger, betrayl and now fighting is a normal part of our day. WE HAVE TO STop now and keep our anger/nerves in check. I'll let you guys know what we decide about next week and who knows.... we may find a strength we never knew even existed!! Thanks again.. Love, mistake BTW: I hope all is well with the two of you. I didn't mean to come off as selfish, b/c I truly would like to know how u r and where mentally during recovery. I have really found, & this is true in everything, self talk (positive/negative) can be our largest obstacle. Take care & thanx again
Hi. You mentioned you were a special ed teacher, as I am. Do you think we medicate ourselves because of our profession? What is your take on the subject?
I am so glad you wrote. I had written to you before b/c I saw that you also were a special ed teacher. What state are you in? I've taught in Tennessee and Alabama. You very well may have a point about the profession. It can be so sad, so frustrating, and so physically straining. I had a 5 year old boy with EC that I would wrestle with everyday and I now think I really should have etched his name into the hardware in my back. This week I have thought a lot about why I do what I do. I really think so much of it comes down to attitude. After my second daughter was born my attitude went out the window. She had some health issues that caused her to be very uncomfortable and sometimes in a great deal of pain. Her care has been 24/7 for 8 months. She is now getting better, THANK THE LORD, so hopefully things will chill out a little and I can remember what being happy feels like. I started over-medicating after she was born but have been on these meds for 7+ years due to a bunch of back probs. After her birth, I believe I had post-pardem (sp) dep. but instead of dealing with that issue, I started chewing oxycontin. Boy, did I feel better. When that stopped working, I began to snort it. Way to go!! Now, I continue to snort it only to feel "normal." I am still thinking that I will be starting Suboxone on Monday. I have wafered on the subject but have concluded that this is the best answer for me at this time. I plan to wean off of it quickly to avoid the same problems, new drug.
How are you doing in this stage? Tell me your story if you want. It's nice to have other things in common besides stupidity (j/k). I would love to know about your school, kids, inclusion?, general ed teachers...etc. I look forward to talking with you. Take care and God Bless!