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[debjean]

I purchased my habit with the help of four different pharmacies. two I know of are being audited by the dea. I can't beleive what I have done from those pills. Along with the w/d I have to fear that the dea will be knocking at my door all my little girl has to see. Hopefully they just go after these places and shut them down. I;'m on day 6 just wish I never did those pills I'll have to tell my husband some time I just can't right now he works so hard and is remolding the kitchen if i tell him i know he'll say i've been working my ass off for your drugs he has been trying to pay down the bills that I've created by lies a nd working long hours. thanks for letting me talk about the probelm this board is great.

[pgnscared]

I can tell you from experience that the DEA will not come looking for you if you purchased from 4 different online pharmacies. I have been at the online game for a bit and my friends even longer some up to a year. They have seen them get shut down, come back, and then gone forever and not once did they come looking for her. In fact on their website they basically say they don't have time to go after the people purchasing there are too many online pharm's they need to worry about. How long has it been since your last dose?

[debjean]

Its been 6 days ct thanks for coming back you have calm my fears down i guess they would have alot of people to come after. Never going to go back to those things I'm going to stay clean and be myself again.

[hop_along]

hope you arent feeling too bad (W/D)
Hey , make sure house is cleaned out of anyhting illegal  (of course)
maybe  contact a support group. maybe even get something from your doc .
  If God forbid , Thr DEA came , it would go a long way showing you got your self some help.  
Dunno if this helps any but , i know from friends who got locked up . the ones who where actively getting help got off alot easier. escpecially if you went on your own.
I know someone that got in alot of trouble for having more then one script. course they where stolen but. she went to rehab . narco/anon and judge let her go with that and a fine.
                Mike
                           (looking like one day at a time)

[hop_along]

hey
didnt realize it was online pharm .. people i knew where going diff pharm in same town
think png is right , shoudl be ok they dont have time for liitel fishies thank god
hope you feel better
        mike
          (looking like one day at a time)

[pgnscared]

Great job on Day 6, I am currently on Day 8 but took 1/2 a 5mg yesterday afternoon at my docs advice. Didn't really help and I felt like **** from it, which is a good thing. So threw the other 1/2 away. Still feeling pretty good and have some energy today which is a plus, that is the one thing I can't stand about all of this. We are so used to going, and going, and going that just sitting is killing me!!! I feel so useless, and I have so much **** to do I am just too lazy to do it! And about the online pharm thing. Most of them are in different states and the one thing the DEA doesn't have is a state to state check for people. They are not able to track one persons scripts, They would have to contact each state individually and get warrents, blah, blah. Not worth the trouble.

[addictedtoloratab]

Ok, first thing I do think that you should go to a doctor to get help, even if nothing comes out of this at least you are showing your husband that you are helping yourself.  The second thing I would do is NOT to go to those pharmacies anymore.  If you come clean to your husband he might surprise you and be more understanding than you think.  If he is not just take him to this forum.  Its one story after the other on here that is just like yours.  This is a great place for support and the help you need.. Keep the postings coming.. Huggs, Georganne

[Marce4]

I purchased from online pharmacies too...so far so good...no DEA at my door.  We are little fishes and there are sooo many of us the DEA can't possibly keep on top of this...Sad isn't it!  I'm glad I don't do that anymore because I had the same fears at the time I was using!  All the more reason for us to get off the **** and stay clean!  We don't need to hurt our families any more than we have.  
You are Day 6 and well on your way...you will start to feel better soon and the energy does eventually come back...if you can tell your husband, do. It is so mentally exhausting keeping things from the one's we love. Maybe you should give him the benefit of the doubt?

Whatever you decide, we are here for you!
marcie