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[RastaP]

I am so ungodly tired.... but i can't sleep.  I can close my eyes and it feels like i'm going to fall asleep but i cant... my mind is racing with thoughts about every little thing. It's very frustarting.  Before i could use sleep to escape ya know fall asleep and wake up and feel better.  But noooo i can't fall asleep all i can do is lay there and think of gross i feel and how much i've messed thing up and what i have to face... and telling my parents i need need need to do that... i know that but it's going to be really hard.. but i don't think i will last much longer on my own... friends are wonderin where i am they.  I did get the saddest text from one of them... i know they are going through what i am but i cant be around them because i know they are still using and they will continue till the worst happens.  I dont understand why drugs are like this... i mean at a certain point everyone begins to realize what they are doing and how bad they are... but for some reason we still use.  I dont get why i wanna get high so bad... because that horrlible experience was the most pain i've ever felt.. so why would i still feel the urge.. it makes absolutly no sense.. and i miss everyone sooooo much.  I dont have a single single friend I feel alone and miserable.  Yesterday was the first day i really really felt the cravings and my cough is much better so i smoked alot alot...i wish i couldnt have done that.  I feel like i cheated.  I dont know how i could live with out weed... ya know it always makes me feel alot better. it cures everything.. not a cough though now i can't breath again. shoulda just thrown that studid bong away.  I should throw all the stuff away..  I am so tired so tired every ounce of energy is gone! but i cant sleep uhhhhhggggggggggg.  and i cant take anything because it'll just make me want more. any suggesttions i've taken a million baths.. it helped a little otherwise i just lay here thinking and thinking and thinking i think i might drive myself nuts.  I dont know what to dooooooooooooo uh. i'm gunna scream my headoff. Also i keep getting charlie horses and dizzy spells and i feel hot then cold then hot then cold ah

[Totsie59]

oh hon, the 1st wk it felt like the worse flu ever! Hang in there..Don't run away..tell you parents..you need someone there on your side. I cried for a wk. Felt and looked like s***! It will get better. Eat healthy, drink lots of water (I drank green tea  UGH!) Take multi vit and B12..make yourself walk or just do sit ups or run in place..I know it will be hard, but it really does help..I am on day23 and I am alive again.

[RastaP]

my brain hurts i think it's all the holes i put in it. I might leave everything tom. start a new life i got my stuff packed and my kitten ready for the ride... i dunno if it's a good idea but if i can get away from it i'll be okay ya know... i might miss my family too much though... i'm getting sick againnnnnnnnnnnn does your immune system get weak or something feels like strep i can never not be sick FML

[RastaP]

I think i'll make it... thank you guys this is really helping me

[corey411]

Hi honey, I just want to offer my support. You got alot of good advice from everyone but sometimes hearing things twice helps, so ditto. You have to believe and keep reminding yourself that the way that you feel is temporary. You will feel better and love life again if you stop using and do the time it takes to get clean. Try not to worry so much. Ninety % of the things that we worry about never happen. As much as you can....when you realize that your thinking negative thoughts...tell yourself it is going to be OK. It's really hard when those thoughts start racing....esp. at night. I use to try not to fight myself to sleep. I figured that if I wasn't going to fall asleep, then I wasn't going to fall asleep. At least if I didn't fight it and get myself all frustrated then I would come out with a more restful night. Imagine your worries just floating away and surrender to sleep. You are so young and getting off of these now will make a totally different life ahead of you. Reach out when you need help. Someone will be here for you. Corey

[gizzy32]

Hang in there hippie girl, hehe. You got some good advice and right now just give it time and fight with all you have. Those vitamins and supplements can really make a difference. I am glad your still with us, that means your trying.

I know telling your parents will be difficult, but I really think it will help you. Force yourself to think positive and I promise you will start to feel better with some more clean time and a few lifestyle changes. Doing this now, will save you a lifetime of grief and sadness, this bad feeling is only temporary:) KEEP POSTING!!!

[bigalspal]

Oh sweetie I know what you are going through.
I made to day 14 & i'm still not sleeping. I took 1/2 seroquel & 1/2 Valium last night & still only got 3 hrs. I had to be up at 6am this morning for a test at my local community college (lost my job & trying to get retrained) & I just felt horrible. Went to sleep at 3am. BUT, once I got a shower & took my supplement & started heading out of this house (which I had been isolating in) I felt fine. Just a little groggy. Did great on the placement tests, except for math. I've been out of school for over 30 years & didn't do great at math to begin with. I'm WD off the Fentanyl patch. LOTS stronger than Morphine!
So, please don't give up. As I type this I feel pretty normal. But I'm pretty sure the sleep disturbances aren't over for me yet.
So, you won't be totally alone if you are up all night!
Bigalspal

[ForgotRomans828]

Hang in there hon.  Really, it does get better.  Right now, you are being paid a visit my "Jones," and he brings with him, body aches, chills then hot sweats, thirst, nausea, racing mind and heart, insomnia; nothing good.  Like the eagle said, your body is so hammered from the drugs that it really needs some vitamins and minerals and lots of water.  Calcium, magnesium and potassium will all help.  Magnesium and calcium help to calm and potassium with the charlie horses.  For me, 5-HTP has help decrease my anxiety, depression and sleeplessness a lot!  That is not to say I am sleeping a full night, but last night I took 100 mg. 5-HTP, (that is an amino acid) and 25 mg of benedryl and slept for like 4 hours.  Better than nothing.  I am no expert as I am only 8 days into this journey.  Cravings are one of those things I think we might have to deal with for a long time, but we can deal with them.  WE get to choose!!!!
I am praying for you, and I don't say that lightly; I really am.

[RastaP]

no i didnt know that vitamins and things would help!! That sounds like i need alot of those. i'm very thristy i drank a billion bottles of water.. i just feel like i shouldnt be alone right now i'm very scared.. and tempted to call a friend... but i dont know if i shoulv dp that.. and benadryl sounds like a good idea... is it normal to not sleep? its werid i think.  I cannot cry anyyyyyyyyyyymore my eyes hurt and I look very ugly.  I feel like so bad its so awful and i can't even barley stand it anymore.  I'm so indredibly sad i havent been this sad in ages

[122 Tactical Fighter Group]

Rasta - - Are you taking any vitamin, minerals, or supplements?  Frequently you need calcium/magnesium supplements.......and potassium in particular for the muscles and aches. (think bananna's)

Dont sweat the pot right now. Just dont let it take you any other things. You will be tired for ashort while.....remember - - you got a decent history to get over - it wont happen overnight. But it will happen. Like Gizzy said - stay away from the liquor,,,,last thing you need is something that will lower inhibition and judgement. And give yourself time with the pnuemonia ....it doesnt make you feel too frisky!!   But most of all - - please stick with us and let us know how you are doing.   I used benadryl for sleep and it owrked pretty well .........lots of stuff you can do - - and best of luck to you - - you can do it......
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