so lost

Yesterday was my frist time here and thank you for all the support. Like I said yesterday I had a spinal cord stemlor put in on the 5 of July cause I have two torn disk I just got staples out on Wednesday of this week the implants are still very painful I have been taking  3-4 Norco 10/325 per day I had an issue with them about 5 years ago and spend 14 days in rehab I gave all my meds to my hubby and he gives them to me as needed and not more then doc says but I feel that my old habit is showing it face and u am scared I went and got the stuff I could for Thomas recipe with out family knowing I may have issue again and I just don't want to lose them or fall in to old ways so does anyone know how long pain will be here from implant or is something I have to deal with for rest of life

[ImDONENoMore]

Just re-posting to you here on this forum - you move around too much for me!  lol

I'm not sure I understand - your family doesn't know yet your husband is doling the meds out to you?  Walurs - if you're in the middle of a situation right now regarding the implants, this might not be the best time to quit.  I NEVER say that, actually, but given that you're currently healing from this past procedure, you may need to waiti until you've been seen again by the Dr. before quitting.
.

[walurs1201]

My family knows that I had an issue in past and that is why my hubby gives me my meds but as far as me thinking I have an issue again no. And I am scared to tell him that is why I wad going to try and do this at home. Bit the implant is so new and still hurts so bad that I can not take them right now so that is why I am at a lose I go back to doc for implant in 3 months and if not healed then they have to move it deeper in to skin

[ImDONENoMore]

Is the pain from the implant normal?  Bear with me here on my ignorance re: your situation.  Which is why I recommended talking to your Dr.  And if this pain is NOT normal then before the three months - can you make an appt. sooner?  Or did they tell you to expect so much pain?

[walurs1201]

they said that it would be very sore for 3 months and that because I have a small frame that he may have move it if pain does not let up doc is hope that scar tissue will form around them cause tight now they are right on up of skin and you can feel them

[ImDONENoMore]

OUCH!  OK well then if this is considered normal, I think you need to treat the pain as best you can.  Which means taking only as prescribed and allowing your hubby to monitor what you're getting.  I know how badly you want to quit, but we also can't place unreasonable expectations on ourselves ya know?  Getting sober doesn't have to be a race.  If you're careful now about what you're taking and don't let it get out of hand, which sounds like it won't since you're not holding your meds, than that's probably the way you need to go.

I know you're frustrated but you're going to feel even MORE frustrated if you're placing this kind of unrealistic expectation on yourself.  But please, and I cannot stress this enough, CALL YOUR DR. if the pain becomes too great.  Do not wait the three months because they told you to.  YOU have to be the main advocate for your healthcare.  You'll get there as long as you have a plan in place.

[walurs1201]

I will and thank you so much I am just scared to fall in mu old habit and it is so easy to to and I have came so far and love my family that I do not want to lose them

[weaver71]

In addition to the above, I'm sorry for your situation. I hope the anxiety doesn't get the best of you. Have you told your doctor you have a history with pain meds.? Do you have a good doctor who cares? Is there some other med. that would work? Is it possible that telling your husband would relieve some anxiety? Do you have support from NA or counseling? Just a few things to think about to relieve the mental despair and possible relapse. I fully understand opiates scare me, so I reach out for support wherever I can get it. Hiding the problem is a symptom of addiction and feeds it. I was shocked when my wife was so supportive when I admitted my weakness. Your in my prayers.

[Ballgame]

Yeah I can't follow you. It's easier to stay in 1 thread so we can follow the replies too