still on the tapper

[Indpendent]

Hello peeps,
Im pretty new here but so far its helped me alot. The thing that has helped me the most is just reading  what others are going through what I am. The part that scared the hell out of me was that I knew I had a  bad problem But I was thinking that most people that abused Hydros did about the same amount as I was. I have been on and off these little white devils for about ten years. I never really got hooked  till this last run on them. I have been  doing them for almost 3 years now. In the beginning it was not a real bad problem but this last 9 months or so have been really bad. For the past 9 months I have been doing between 25-35 hydros aday. There has been alot of 40+ days in there too. What really knocked some sense into me was when I was hearing people people talking about tring to kick a 10 or less aday pill habbit. Thats when I really looked at my habbit and it made me sick. After that was the first time that I sat here and shed a tear. Sorry bout the spelling and the run on sentence but Im feeloing pretty shitty ATM. This is my second day  since I lowered my tapper and its still beating me up. I know its not real good but im down to 3-7.5mg vics 5 times aday. The least I would do before at once was 7 10mg hydros as many times as I wanted from the time I woke up till the time I passed out. There was also many times that I would do the same amount of pills that im doing all day in one  dose.
Thanks to all the support I have got so far and just want to wish everyone the best of luck.

[road2recovery]

Welcome ..you are in the right place..Don't beat yourself up because at least you know you have a problem, and you have started to go down on your dosage..BE proud of that..LOT'S of support here for you.
good luck
god bless

[cowboyabc]

Slow and Steady Bro...Slow and steady if you are feeling Really bad give your mind and body time to adjust. I know you want to be clean as fast as possible but the way to go is slow and steady.