success probability regarding methadone withdrawal

I had a hard time with pain killers a few years back...was taking unprescribed dilaudid for recreational purposes...long story short i ended up with an insulin syringe...idle hands, and a 50mg/5ml ish vial of dilaudid HP(high potency) sure enough my bio class helped out in terms of identifying de-oxygenated veins from those that return to the heart saturated in O2...so my left a c fossa (where the forearm and bicep intercept) had a big honkin vein branched to my heart with no bypass or detour...direct flight or so to speak...i found the perfect vein.

performed the medical procedure (as i did not like thinking of it as a junky ritual) had the metal tray and cotton..swabs..etc..alchohol whatver..

perform the i.v administering of 2.5ml aka 25mg dilaudid

holy ****...my lips coulda turned blue....i knew that on a mg basis, hydromorphone stands 8-10 X stronger than morphone....so technically the equivalent dose woulda been around  250mg morphine sulfate/phosphate/

to say the least, it was the most intense feeling my body has ever felt...didnt even compare to the rush i got the one year at the cottage....went to the dump to drop off garbage....threw the bags as far as i could....and sure enough.....15ft or so away...no jokes....an effing black bear stands up didnt even see him...my adrenaline glands squirted a shot into my veins and wow...adrenaline is pretty ****** cool now that i get into it..

point is the dilaudid i.v rush is better than heroin. ive done mid-to-high quality heroin via intravenous and geez...dilaudid is soooo much cleaner and the rush actually is felt in my ****** calves...down my thighs and the shoulder hug feeling...uhggg.

anyways i know this is a question box so...i wrote all that to give a sense of apprehension as to where im coming from

the question: WHAT IS THE PROBABILITY RATE OF SUCCESS IN TERMS OF KICKING METHADONE AT 44MG p.o kg????????????HOW CAN I BEAT THE STATISTICS? HOW CAN I GET OFF METHADONE???

(ive kicked the injectable form of dilaudid once, and it hurt realllly bad...ive kicked the tablets that u can dissolve and still inject carefully...and it hurt reallly bad...)

now ive withdrawn from missing a methadone dose a few times now...1 1/2 years on the program and jesus.....even only 42 hrs into precipitation...and im hurting so bad i could literally jump the bridge....its beyond pain....what am i going to do ? how the hell does one get off methadone??? tapers are sketchy cuz i tried and felt a 1 mg drop. A 1 MG DROP!!!!! I FELT IT AND IT WASNT FUN.....help please....i feel retarted typing like a fool...but please someone say something and help me save my life....i have a diploma in aviation mechanic and i have potential please someone help

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You will find a refreshing number of people here that quit methadone. I cold turkey'd a 120mg dose. It hurt really bad, if you know what I mean. But the worst part was the duration of the withdrawals - and the accompanying depression and fatigue, malaise. Today I am sure that it took me a solid six months to be where I am today. But would I do it again?  In a heartbeat!!  Look through the health pages.....put methadone in the site search engine and you will find a bunch of hits.....