temptations

[daretodream]

Its 91 days today. But during spring break I was in italy got alcohol poisoning and was one drink away from needing a liver transplant and they didn't even think I was going to make it through the night. Now that I am home I have never been so depressed and stressed in my whole life and I don't know what to do I feel like I need the pills to even function anymore to even go on and I don't know what to do. What if I just take one and I relapse all over again? I just don't know what to do. I need help. Please

[daretodream]

Thank you both so much. My liver now is okay no taking any medications or drinking any alcohol..which I obviously wasn't planning on doing anyway. I am seeing a psychologist and plan on going to counseling very soon.I play acouple of sports so I am very active.

I realize I just can't take one which is so hard for me because I feel like one will do something, but when I actually think about it I know it wont do anything. Not being able to relay on the pills is probably the hardest thing. I always knew they were there no matter what happened and now there not and it gets me upset to not know they're there anymore.

[IBKleen]

Hi,

I am also glad to see you here.

The pills are giving you a false sense of security.They do more harm than good. Do you really think you can take just one? My guess would be that one is too many and a thousand is never enough. That is addiction and that is my experience when I had the same thoughts as you did.

You said you need help and I agree with that. There are non-narcotic medications available that could help you with your depression and before you go back on the pills, please go to the doctor and get a check up. Get honest with him/her and see what is available. Work with him because pain meds are not the answer, They will do damage to your mind and your body, especially your liver.

There are alternatives and I hope you make the effort to find out about them.

Take good care of yourself.

[atthebeach]

well thank GOD you are here to post. not such a great spring break. how is your liver now? you already know the answer to that, that is why you are posting. no you dont want to take just one. because it never goes like that now does it. 1 is too many, 1000 not enough. you have been down that road before. have you been going to aftercare? if not you need to. you need support, therapists,drug counselors, aa/na,church,pastors, support group, go to the doctor go on some antidepressants for a time. do you exercise, that will help alot. find a new hobby to get yourself out and about. do you have new friends now? keep talking to us.
blessings to you
debbie