the 1st step

      Today, I have had a very positive day, maybe a life changing day. In the last 6-8 months (I cannot remember) I have been able to have any effort or desire to commit to buddhism as valium has clouded my mind making meditation impossible. I finally went to the doctor.

      They gave me some antidepressants for 2 weeks which are also social anxiety meds. They cannot be abused which is good. Then, in 2 weeks I have an appointment with a psychiatrist. I have needed this for 8 years, maybe he or she will be able to root out the problem and then I can get back on the path. I really feel change on the way, I am ready now. It has taken multiple rock bottom and near death experiences to get there, luckily some how I did not die, some people consider I should be.

    

[sudie58]

i am glad your getting the help you need,i think we go the long way round to get where we need to be, but at least we get there. its good your so positive, best wishes and god bless.