the next step

[penny1974]

I really think this next drop is going to be hard.  I'm going to be dropping down to two a day.  So a month ago I talked to my Dr and let him know I wanted to start going off the norco. He didn't say anything other than OK. I should have talked more with him but was not comfortable. We didn't talk about how the tapering would work or his plan. All I knew was when I picked up my new script it was less (3 a day) I just got this months script and it's now down to 2 a day. I'm nervous.  I'm still going to see the new Dr tomorrow. Im just wanting to open up to a Dr Im comfortable with and make sure i stay on track. This new Dr has seen my kids and husband. I really like him. I still have a ways to go. The first step was telling the Dr I wanted off (cutting my source) I took another step tonight. I told my husband that I may need him to keep my pills and hand them out if I can't do it on my own. His first response was " you did it fine a few months ago " then said ok and he loves me". I told him that I was home and didn't have triggers or habits at home. But I do at work. My goal is to do it and succeeded but I feel good knowing I have a little support. Unfortunately I don't think he wants to know that his wife takes pain pills.  I really don't think he understands but at least he loves me and listens.

[Back2Me]

Try this. Go balls out and drop to ONE per day. You will feel bad for the first three days but not unbearable. Then you will level out on the one per day and you will have a TON to ween from there. I would honestly go this rout. This way your worse is over now. And you can just shave a fraction off of those bad boys every few days after you level off on one per day and by the time you get to a quarter per day you won't feel a thing AND you will have enough pills to do it.

[penny1974]

Thanks Jerry :) I do want to be free

[jerry4664]

Nothing wrong with telling your Doc he is the one taht should help you out of this trap anyway.. I once gave my pills to my wife to hold becuase I was abusing my script knowing you need the help means you really want to be FREE  just stick with it and the first few days will be bumpy but even hard core pill poppers can make it you really try .. Best of luck I will be looking around for you... JJ

[penny1974]

Thank you. Sometimes I don't feel very strong on the inside.  I know I can change the past but I'm till mad at my self for not staying away from the pills a few months ago when I stopped for 5 days. And I do know now that I can't just have a few here and there. After I was off for those five days I did think I could just have them off and on and it turned back into every day. That was another reality check for me. I do think when I'm done tapering and I don't get prescribe anymore I will accept it. But I also know I can't just have them hanging around the house. Maybe one day. But not for a while. I hate the fact that I like them. :( but right now I don't like them enough to want to continue on this path. I want change even though I'm scared. deep down really scared.  I'm afraid of all the emotions.  I naturally have a lot of them.  I'm a very empathetic person. I think that's the right term? Thank you everyone for the support.  It does help to vent

[Amandag78]

Yeah absolutely your doing great Penny !!!
Ive been following your threads and your a fighter !!!
Well done : )

[meegWpaw]

Penny, you've been doing great and stayed on track pretty much on your own.  You know you're strong!  It is wonderful that you told your husband you need help, and if he is willing to dispense the pills, I think that will be a giant benefit to you.  That's great that you were so determined to talk to him and went through with it!!!!  Nice job!  I hope it goes well with the new doctor.  Sometimes our loved ones don't totally get it if they have not had the problem themselves ... but glad you are enlisting and getting some support!  Keep going!