this for ne1 trying to get off drugs/ going thru wds

[ang_811]

this is for ne1 who is having a hard time getting of/stopping ur drug or even if ur going thru withdrawls and are doubting urself about being able to actually go thru this. im here to tell u my story and let u know where i am today........it started about 5 years ago when i started hanging around the wrong group of people, yes its that simple. this group of people were abusing painkillers. i knew that but it didnt stop  me. i started doing them for fun and b4 i knew i was hooked..this went on for the 3 years. i spent every dollar  i had on pills. i never was prescribed them. got my car reposessed. stopped paying bills and i was only working to support my habit. but i didnt care all i thought about about was the pills and when i was going to get more and how to make the last 2 pills i had last long. i even stole money from my fiance!! ur body and mind get hijacked by the drugs. u r almost uncontrollable. u wil do whatever u can, even though u know its wrong, to get more of ur drug.  while i was deep nto my addiction i beging to realize that i had a high tolerance to the pills and they were no longer working as great as they did b4. so i started using oxycontin. then that started to not work that great. i was doing oxy80mgs and after i would do one i realized that my body was still going thru wds. thats wheni knew i had a problem. i couldnt stop on my own so i went to the nearest clinic and started the methadone. i was on that for almost 2 years and got down from 90mg to 10 mgs and went thru some pretty bad wds. i switched to suboxone to get off the methadone. i found i tappered from the sub alot easier. i was so scared to quit taking bc of the wds. that was the only thing holding me back so 12 days ago i woke up and said to myslef "im going to try and go 1 day without the sub" enough was enough, i took it 1 day at a time and 1 day turned into 12 days. i experienced no wds at all. i get exchausted easy and still a lil weak, but thats ok.. im here today living my life and enjoying myself again. ive done more n the past 12 days then i have in the past 5 years sad but true. i want everyone to know that it does get better i promise. when  ur going thru the wds and r thinking u cant do this just try and make the wds positive. the wds r helping u to get that much closer to having ur life back again. i want u to think about how u were living ur life b4 the drugs think about how much fun u were having and how u loved life b4 the drugs and know that u r that much closer to having that life back. thats what i did and thats y im here on day 12 and only looking to the future and thats  a high itself. its all about positive thinking. u can do this. i hope ive helped someone... sorry for the long story. i just wanted it to get out there. thanks ur freind angie.

[ang_811]

I def understand where ur coming from.. People here drug addicts and start judging.. I'm not going to lie I used to do the same thing b4 I became one..

[pillfree21]

Actually signing up for this site is part of the aftercare plan...it really helps knowing that you are not alone. I am an extremely well known community activist in a relatively small, rural community in Georgia, so attending meetings in person is really not an option for me...not that I care about image, I just know how shallow people can be.

Thanks for taking the time to respond..it really helps.

[ang_811]

Thanks everyone... I'm doing really good but it's always good to hear encouraging words..
Pillfree...... Good luck next week and the following week... U r going to feel great once u r free of this..make sure u get some aftercare sit up.

[laurel453]

you sound great, angie ....keep walking :)

[pillfree21]

THanks for the encouraging words...needed to hear that right now...I am on 10 mg of methadone and tapering down to 5 mg on Monday and going cold turkey after a week of that....will be walking in your exact footsteps.

[ang_811]

Thanks so much. I will. Don't think I'd gotton ne aftercare if it wasn't fo this site. I didn't even k ow what that was until I saw it here.. I love this site it's so helpful

[vicki595]

Angie~   Great story and a wonderful,happy ending!  You've come so far,huh?

Good for you!!   Stick around here,now!!!

Vicki  xo