tincture of opuim taper - terrified

After a hospital stay, Ive been taking one or two norcos every 2 days, and tincture of opium (.2ml every six hours) off an on for about 5 months - the latter for dangerous diarrhea. I reacted to the addiction months ago with a syndrome that has almost killed me - extreme fear in the body with compulsive fear thoughts, now partially controlled with lamictal. I've been barely function with trerrible physical and mental consequences. I now face some kind of detox, and hope it is possible to do this with some kind of (slow?) gentle taper. I have enough tincture of opium to try this myself; I belong to Kaiser, but they do not seem terribly compassionate. Might the expensive 1 day detox be advisable? Like others, I have major complex, medical conditions that cause pain, but probably now must somehow refrain from pain meds, forever (?). On the plus side, my past and current abuse has never been at high doses. On the negative side, Im prone to fear, even terror. What people and programs might be most gentle and compassionate? What drugs or methods might be gentle? Frankly, I do not know if I can face this catastrophe, but the alternate is suicide or getting sick and somehow dying. Thanks for any advice.

[vicki595]

Hi~  Your medical issues are complicated. I think too much so for this forum.Just my opinion. Detox will be rough for you given your delicate condition. Try seeking out a doctor who specializes in addiction. This may not be covered by Kaiser but it's worth the money. I think the one day detox will be way too stressful on your body.  I'm sure you can find some one who will advise you on a nice,slow taper off the Norco. Also,I've known of many folks who have to use tincture of opium long term unless they can have surgery. Although maybe lomotil would work?
Vicki

[LeaAnn807]

Hi!  I would definitely do this with medical supervision if I were you!  Don't take a chance with this on your own.

Best wishes and good luck!

TH