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[sickmommy07]

I have a broken back and other stuff but i just don't have a doctor to c to find out what is wrong.  Iam on a taper i could not do it cold turkey i was so so sick.  I puked for 29 hrs i had to go to the ER by ambulance because i passed out.
But i went from 6 or 7 vikes perks morephine oxey now i can live on 2 7.5 vikes a day and iam trying to cut those 2 out. I just don't know how or what to do. But i half to so i don't loose my son or husband. And i won't off i just iam so scared to b that sick.  

[dominosarah]

Are you going into the treatment center?

[tgtiffany]

How have you been doing?  

[mpace6983]

If you  think you backs broken, go to the er they cant turn you away. If your back is reall broken you could slip and fall a cut your spinal cord and be paralized for life. at least get an x-ray to find out what the problem is like I said the er cant turn you away.good luck

[Eebb26]

U r obviously I dear pain. U need to consider what u r going to do to manage your pain. You need to make sure you want and are ready and prepared to stop taking them for you and not because your husband gets mad. If you have chronic severe pain, u need to try to see a dr. The dose u r down to is great. If u can continue to deduct slowly from there then maybe you won't be as sick. Try to think of how u will manage your pain. Not everyone who is addicted is just taking for the ' high' there are true pain patients. I also have back issues but not as sever as yours I believe. I have 3 herniated discs. I really wish u lots of luck. Keep writing. ;-)

[tgtiffany]

If all of what you say is true your husband doesn't seem to be understanding at all.  If your back is broken you are OBVIOUSLY in a lot of pain!!!  I'm glad that you want to cut those 2 pills out of your life though.  Is that all you take though?  2 Vicodin a day?!  Are you still taking percs, morphine and oxys too?  I'm a little confused on that part.  Sudie is right, you are NOT alone.  We can help support you when you need it.  This forum is amazing!  How long until you get to the treatment center?  You CAN and WILL do this!!!  Do it for yourself and do it for your son!!!  I'm sorry to hear that he was in ICU, but glad that he is out now.  I hope they find out everything with him soon and hope he is well.  Keep posting and keep your head up :)

[sudie58]

your husband doesnt seem to be very understanding, so you must help yourself, try and be strong and taper off these meds, drink plenty of fluids and keep posting, your not alone .god bless.

[sickmommy07]

Iam waiting on a bed in a treetment centre but iam so scared to b away from my son and husband.  He is helping me with the taper but if i slip he get so pissed and says sum really mean stuff to me.  
I do won't my life back but it is so hard to c people take pills and not won't them. I hope i can stay clean and not mess up again in so scared.  

[IBKleen]

Oh My, That is awful. Since your husband doesn't take the pills, will he help you with a taper? It is hard with the assistance and it does take time. Please be patient with it and don't give up. You need help and you will find it. so keep trying.

Have you contacted any treatment centers to see if you are eligible?

[dominosarah]

It seems the people that really need the help dont get it.  This must happen all over.

Detoxing will make the pain feel worse for awhile also.  Does soaking in a hot bath help?  Are you taking any vitamins?

[sickmommy07]

Yes they did i was in the hospital paralized from my chest down. I can walk now but i have so so much pain and now iam trying to detox it is so hard.
Iam trying to get assistances but it is so short in my town.

[dominosarah]

  There must be some type of assistance you could receive.  Did a doctor tell you your back is broken?  Pardon my confusion.  I am glad to hear your son is out of ICU.  

[sickmommy07]

I don't have a doctor to see i have no medical.  No my husband hates pills and wonts me off bad. I have been seeing a Thairpist but so far no luck helping me.
My son just got out of Icu he has a hole in his trachea and the doctor does not know why .

[dominosarah]

Have you given any thought to talking to someone about all the emotional pain you are going thru also?

How is your son doing?

[IBKleen]

Hi,

My goodness, a broken back? That has got to be very painful. Are you in a cast? What does the doctor say? Talk to him/her about the taper ( I assume it is a different doctor than your first one) and maybe get someone to help you with this, i.e. hold the pills and dose them to you so you are not tempted to abuse them.

Is your husband addicted too? Would he help you with the taper?

[sickmommy07]

Also because of my sons health problems we live with my Mom and she is where i was getting all my pills from , she always has them she also takes xanx and 7.5 vikes .
I find myself wonting more like today i too 2 7.5 out of her bottle without her knowing. I know iam only hurting my self, my son my husband and my family.
But i won't off i just don't know how.