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pmg330
Member since Jun 2008  



, 1 hour ago
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Hi, iam a 34 yr old mother of a 16yr old daughter. I was prescr vicodinVicodin
Vicodin tuss and somaPolycystic kidney disease
Somatization disorder
Somatoform pain disorder which is a muscleDeep anterior muscles
Eye muscles
Lower leg muscles
Muscle aches
Muscle atrophy
Muscle biopsy
Muscle cramps
Muscle function loss
Muscle twitching
Rotator cuff muscles
Superficial anterior muscles relaxer at the age of 18. which my daughter is almost that age now. iam cryingColic and crying
Crying in infancy as i write this i know how easy it was for me to get addict to both of these pills and wld hate for her to follow my footsteps one day . She see's me pop a pill every now and then and just turns away. I know that i need help i have taken them ever since then . I did not used to be this bad at all now i find myself taking more and more a day somtimes up to 6 vics and 4 somaPolycystic kidney disease
Somatization disorder
Somatoform pain disorder's maybe more than that. I feel if i dont take them i cannot function my body tells me more more my mind keeps telling me to stop i look at my daughter and do not want to hurt myself over this addictionDrug abuse and dependence i have. I spend alot of money paying $3 and $2 a piece for each and find myself buying 120 to 300 a month ! Now thats alot i will take out a loan at a finance company to pay for my habit i found myself in debt over $7,000.00 and have lowered that debt by paying them down to $3,700.00 i can honestly say that i want to go get the money and refinance all 7 of my loans to go buy more ! someone please give me some advice on what to do iam embar and ashamed of what i have done to myself and my body.

pmg

[EmilyPost]

Have you tried The Thomas Detox?

What about a taper? NA?

How bad do you  want to quit and have you ever tried?

My prayers are with you. I an ibti day 10 of cold turkey detox after a taper. It hurts. But being ON the pills hurt more.  I hate them with every fiber of my being. I do not care what i have to enfure; the pain will only eventually make me stronger. I am never taking it again.

This is war, and I am angry. I am no longer afraid of the pain of withdrawal. I will beat this down. And I will survive and then thrive.

How much do you wan your life back?

Prayers,
Emily

[got2bfree]

My heart goes out to you.....of course it hurts without the pills, but that hurt is a lie....it is just the withdrawal hurt...once past that you will find you will be in less pain.....when I had my knee injury (horrible almost lost the whole thing knee down) I got addicted to the dilaudid pain med.....when I detoxed it felt like my knee was freshly injured the pain was so bad,,,,,,this lasted about 10 days and then my knee was fine.....these drugs trick you...they are evil and will destroy your life.....you can take charge....and be an example to your daughter....I almost lost my daughters over my prescription drug use, and I'm not there yet but I'm going to try the suboxone.....have y ou thougth of that....if you can't live with the drugs....suboxone is a lesser so to speak opiate and withdrawing off that eventurally should not be so bad....

as Emilypost said this is war....you have to gather around you as much battle gear as possible and I think htis is a good place to start....read what others have done, listen to their advice  is you think it applies to you....it will hurt some but it the other side is so much better...go visit a hospital where folks are dying and can't live and would do anything to live.....we ahve a choice here....pray....if you have never learned about Christ and the power you can recieve then give that a try....try anything that will give you strength to balance out against the drugs....it is war!

Good Luck sweetie, fight.
Deb

[Kande]

I'm here just to show support for you as other kind people are to. Deb is so right about Jesus Christ...trust him and pray. He is the answer to your problems. Know that I will be praying for you.

Deb, from one Christian to another, "God Bless You" Your sister in Christ...Deb  :o)