to close for comfort

nearly relapsed last night, was really trying to get hold of cocaine but couldnt, had a craving which just did not want to stop, would have got it if i could fortunatly i couldnt but i did try.

How can i stop this in the future, i was down the pub, i dont want to stop drinking too :(

[SophieShine]

Next time, jump on your pc and go online.
gooood you couldn't find anything.
hang in there. get strong.

[lb87]

yea i weould have done i was out at a pub though

[imanaddict]

You ARE stronger than the addiction, you are the one in control. Think about what it would have been like if you had gotten ahold of the cocaine. You would have felt like **** inside and out once you came down. Keep telling yourself that you CAN and WILL beat this demon because you CAN! Have you tried NA meetings? Do you have a support system around you? Maybe next time you get cravings, call a friend or family member (or sponsor) that can talk you through it. And of course, come to the forum if you can't find someone to chat with, or even both if need be. Recovery is one day at a time and relapse doesn't have to be a part of it if you don't let it. I wish you luck and please keep us posted! There are so many people on here that are going through the same thing and together we can all beat addiction. Happy Holidays!

[10356]

Drinking is a trigger for many of us Addicts.. I have been sober 15mo. not so bad..  I wish you well.. lesa

[newmanagment]

If ya really wanna quit doin coke, ya may HAVE to quit goin to the pub for a minute. I know when I first start to clean up, alcohol, or usually the club atmosphere, made me wanna score. I quit goin for a few months, till I got my mental willpower up again. I can now have a few drinks and hang awhile, but I still dont get drunk and may be awhile before I can actually get buzzed on alcohol without wanting dope.
People , places , and things. many of us have to change all those before we actually get some clean time accumulated. best of luck to ya!

[morganave]

You can do it, stay away from the coke.  Remember it is more mental than physical.  Find a hobby that helps you stay busy, and one that you can see progress while you are working on it,

[lb87]

hey all thanks for the comments,

imanaddict, no i do not go to na meetings i am doing this on my own the most help i have is coming on here, safe to say im still clean today but i have been doing mdma.

ive realised now i am doing it when i have urges for coke as it stops me doing the coke, i think im leading my self down a bad road i have some on me now but have decided to sell it and get rid of it i was going to do it for new years but i want to see in the new year without any drugs and then continue that way.

[newmanagment]

ya are jus tradin one addiction for another. X is addicting too. ya should flush it, sellin it is jus puttin the problem on someone else. sold alot of dope in my time, and saw alot of my friends end up with the same problems i had. ya need to get a new mindset, dope is **** dude. ya need to remember wut ya want outta life. read my latest journal entry called struggles. and message me if ya need to scream at someone, or jus vent. much love......

[lb87]

thnaks i know im just guna get rid of it and sort my self out, ive given myself a good shake its time to wake up!!!