triple addicted

i've been on this forum .also have had good responses.i finally found a primary doctor that i seen yesterday i tried to be honest with him. we talked about my acid reflux,chest pains,overall pain from an accident i had in 2001 i really am concerned with these issues,and i'll be having alot of tests soon.what i really wanted was a script of lortab,he smelled alcohol on me ,i had 2 beers at lunch,my appt was at 1.i wanted to address my addictions with him.when he came back into the room,he said i don't write scripts for narcotics but would help with everything else.i want to get off the opiates and xanax and alcohol.i always drank after work for years,but once i fell off the roof 25 feet i was put on all these opiates and benzos.every pain specialist i've seen kicked me out because eventually found weed in my system from a urine test.i am now totally addicted,especially the opiates.i don't know who to turn to.any advice would be helpful.

[122 Tactical Fighter Group]

So the Doc will do anything but write a script for Lortabs? And you wish to quit the narcotics anyway. So whats the problem? You dont begin to detox with a fresh script and a drink before the Docs visit. The Doctor wont write a script for someone presenting with AOB (alcohol on breath)  - - - And they arent gonna give you scripts for stuff that they may be held responsible for. And you shouldnt want to see a Doctor that would write that up in that manner. You need to be fully honest with yourself here.  Just cause you always drank after work for so many years doesnt mean thats either any good or that you should continue to do it.  I am really sorry - I do know what you are saying. But what I am hearing is someone that wants another narcotic script. Let me know if I am wrong......

[Mikeinthesouth]

i agree with eagle here and hope you can just suck it up as it is easy to find a doc to write those things or getting them illegally so I hope for your sake you can just as I said just suck it up and deal with the pains of withdrawal because it will be worth it sooner or later. U no? Hang in there, Mike

[njshar]

I would appreciate any feedback on this question.  Here goes.

I work for my dad, I have for over eight years.  I have had a see-saw recovery.  I had a conversation with my Dad last week that has hurt me so so much!!

I am currently 21 days clean, at that time of the conversation I was using.  Mostly opiates and sometimes benzos which he knew about because my sister told him.  I had asked him if I could do a drug test to confirm to him that I was not using.  He wanted me to go to a doctor for the test I guess he didnt trust the over the counter test that I had bought and bought into the office to show him I was clean.  I agreed to see a doctor and take their test.  We never went.  He said this to me,  Your an adult and there is nothing I can do to stop your drug use.  I just know "that my daugthter is a druggie".  This is not only my dad but my boss too.  BOY DID THAT HURT.  He has never apologized as a matter of fact he now just ignores me.  Dosent say the usual greetings hello and goodbye.  Dosent ask me about anything.  I had a root canal last week and got to work later in the day.  He never asked me how I was feeling, or how I tooth was.  That was something that I took for granted in the past.  He always cared about me.  He is just so indifferent to me now.  

Any one have any comments??  Please!!
Njshar

[cattalina]

First of all - BIG congratulations on 21 days clean!!! And I'm sorry no one responded to your post sooner - it's normally slower on weekends around here. Since I don't know your history or your relationship with your father, I can really only guess as to why he's acting that way. I would guess he's disappointed and perhaps, fed up. As addicts, we steam roll over the people in our lives without regard for their feelings. As much pain as we cause ourselves we cause our loved ones just as much if not more. I know for my parents, they got to a point where they just wouldn't play games with me anymore. Not because they didn't love me, but because they knew that their involvement or concern didn't really matter. Oddly enough when my loved ones stopped pushing so hard, I got clean... go figure! It takes time to heal the wounds we caused during active addiction. And as much as his attitude change hurts you, I'd be willing to bet it hurts him as well. At this point the most you can do is continue to stay clean and prove to him that you do have the desire to stop. The longer he sees you doing the right thing the more you'll be able to repair the damage done to the relationship. Your father still loves you, no doubt, so try and see things from his perspective as well. Just prove to him that you want to be clean by continuing to stay clean! I hope you come back and post... good luck & hang in there!