I personally would recommend to not take an AD while withdrawing especially since you have not used this AD in past. AD's are meds too and come with side effects that are not pleasant..when I was on ADs in the beginning they gave me serious headaches and tiredness and my depression became worse as I chose to take them when I hit crisis mode..which IMHO is where you are at. Unless this is an AD you have had good experience with in past I think it would make your withdrawals worse as your body and mind will be processing getting used to one heavy head med and getting rid of another...why complicate things? I also believe unless you get the right AD it can worsen your depression.
I would get some time clean then go on them atleast after the first couple weeks. That is my suggestion.
What I would suggest is go to NA or AA meetings. They are great and will help you more deal with life than any pill can. I strongly suggest a good support group. These meetings are autonomous and readily available. Look up intergroup meetings on the internet..I go to an AA meeting and more than 50% of the folk's in there are drug addicts too.
Learn to cope with life on life's terms.
thanks for your advice and support. my huge problem is that my husband doesn't know of my addiction so he can't dole out my meds. i know that this is ridiculous, my secrecy is something i was taught growing up, deep seeded mental conditioning. anyway, i am so prepared (today) to get off these! i think i just may be able to do it on my own. everytime i take a pill i look at my 17 month old twin daughters, they are one of the reasons i'm trying to kick the habit. i do not have time to lay around and go through the wd's, i am usually on my own with my daughters. they need my attention. i wish so badly i could just hole up for a week but that's not an option. i really just need support, people telling me i can do this!!! i will look at the thomas withdrawl ingredients and stock up. if i can't do this, i have promised myself i will tell my family so i can possibly check myself in.
you are so right about finding out why i do this. i use to be in counseling and i think i will start that back up again. i need to slay the demons that make me want to stay high!!!
thanks for you support
worried is right. It is doable and many here have successfully tapered. I was using extremely large amounts during my last relapse and trust me, it only gets worse. You have to have great willpower to taper. You will need someone who can distribute your pills to you, otherwise you'll end up using more than you planned. Tell them under NO circumstance to give you more pills. You will beg, cry, lie, cheat, steal, and sell the family dog to get rid of the w/d so find someone who won't give in to you.
Do it right this time, and continue working hard on recovery after you physically detox. Using drugs is only a small part of addiction. Find out WHY you use the way you do. Have an aftercare program in place (meetings AA/NA, counseling, this site is good too) otherwise, you will just be back in the same spot again sooner or later.
If you start your AD, just keep in mind that they usually take 2 weeks to reach full effect so start now. You will still have the anxiety, depression, remorse, guilt, shame....yes you will still have to deal with them as you w/d. Having someone to talk to about what is going on will help, so stay close to this site and ask questions and get support.
it is a good idea to start an AD prophylactically to heklp with detox..i did 2 weeks before....u need a plan...read thru the health pages and be sure u have an exercise regime..stock up on the thomas recipe as well....this is do-able it is just a positve attitude and "being sick and tired or being sick and tired" that will get u clean....the only place left to go for u is down...take this chance and get clean so u can live life to the fullest