trying to kick oxy habit

Hi im new here. And new to addiction too. I recently tried to completely stop taking opiate pain killers. Oxycodone, percocet, loritab, whatever I can get. I originally started taking them about three years ago for my teeth. They were quite bad and I am uninsured. Now I recently got all of em pulled and I know they dont hurt anymore but now I cant  stop taking the pills because it actually phisically hurts me. My legs get weak and the muscles tense up and hurt bad. I am getting nausea, chills, cramps, violent outbursts, uncontrollable anxiety because im out and cant get anymore, and I fear that I may soon become dangerous for my family to be around. How do I get out of this before I hurt myself or someone else?

[bama88]

Hi and.welcome. I too was addicted to oxycontin . I was on a 120mgs a day. I cold.turkey . I know exactly what you feel. Its awful. Its maddening. Are you using the Thomas.recipe?  my hardest part.of the detox lasted 10 to 14 days. Not trying to.scare you. Giving a time line.

You need to.go.see a doc.asap. Tomorrow. Tell them the truth. The whole truth. Tell.them your Detoxing and.they will.write some meds to help. Also ask.for an anti depressant.

If that fails look in to.rehab. I had to.go. I.wish you the best of luck. Stay close to this forum. Ask me anything. I won't judge ill.answer you honestly and the best i.can....your friend bama

[strugglingbad]

Im just so frustrated. I have no more pills nor the money to obtain any on the street. Im in a bad place right now and I dont have a doctor or any insurance. Im stuck at home with an unhappy two year old, and all I can do is freak out cuz I dont have those pills. I am really trippin right now. I need help!!!! Im scared at what I may do to myself to justify getting more pills. Do I need help from a professional? Will an emergency room help me? Or just look at me like I'm a junkie and send me away?

[bama88]

Take deep breathes. Wow out of oxy and with a two yr old i feel ya. Yes the er will help. They can't put you away unless your a threat to yourself. Sounds.like your having a panic attack. Tale.deep.breaths.

[bama88]

How mmuch were you taking? How long? Keep talking.to me. Vent sream whatever you need condo. And go minute to minute. It will.pass

[misty97]

im not to experienced about all of this as well... but i am 7 days clean now and i already feel alot better..but i can relate cause my husband does ministries ( i know how weird cause i was addicted to pills)so i was stuck with a 6 and 7 year old..and having to get up and cook, clean, get them ready and take them to school..ect. was one of the hardest tasks i ever had to do, but it can b done. dont b so hard on yourself..the emergency room were i am at wouldnt do that and if they do then request a diff. that is ur right.. but praying helped and is helpin me more than anything..and reading the bible(even though i did not want to at sometimes) and stayin on here and readin..these people are awesome. U CAN DO IT..

[kyle505]

We can't give medical advice on this site, but it sounds like you need someone to talk to, and maybe getting some professional medical help would be a good idea. Just my opinion. The first few days of detox are the worst, and it does get better, but those few days can be hell. There are many, many of us who went through what you are going through right now. Some took more meds over a much longer duration than you and made it, some took less and made it. Read the posts on this site; there are things that you can do that will help. Bottom line - it gets better and the hell goes away. But, if you feel that you may cause harm to yourself or a family member, then this isn't the place to be. Get some help. There are a lot of good docs out there. Mine is one.

[strugglingbad]

Thank you all. I am so alone right now. Im a thousand miles from my nearest family and im really needing someone to listen. I cant do this. My body is in all kinds of pains ive never felt before and I am crying like a newborn. I just wanna make it through. I fear that I dont have the dedication or power to do it though. It hurts sooo bad.

[theaddict]

do you want to get off the pills?

[strugglingbad]

I was takin oxycodone. Upwards of around 60mgs or more daily. Three years total. Also can take 90 plus mgs of hydrocodone to substitute if no oxy. I cant do this. It hurts soo bad. I cant sleep, eat, nothing. I feel like a ticking time bomb. The timer is almost out too. This is just the beginning. How do I make it through this?

[strugglingbad]

Absolutely! Im so tired of being a slave to something so stupid. I know im better than this but I just cant control my body or emotions. And I dont have much hope for help because I am uninsured and cant afford it.

[theaddict]

have you talked to your doctor or a medical physician all together about what a good route would be for you to get off the pills? good for you, for coming here and taking the first step!

[strugglingbad]

Doctors dont like to even speak to anyone who is poor and uninsured. I dont see a doctor on a regular basis so I really dont know where to go. All the treatment facilities want way more money than ill even make this year. Is it really just hopeless for a poor person to get help?

[theaddict]

i have insurance now, but when i made the choice to get off of the pills, i had no insurance and a part time serving job. it was horrible, but i made ends meet. on the doctor side of things, i couldn't afford to go and see one, so i did what i had to do and just went CT off of the pills and tried to never look back.

do you mind if i ask what sort of situation you're currently in? just know what posting here helps....a lot. and all of the members are so nice and welcoming to everyone that comes on here. just know that we are all here for you with anything we can help you with.

[bama88]

Right now your in the worst of.it. Break it down minute to.minute. I went thru this too. I promise it passes. Do you have any valiums xanix anything to.take.the edge off.the anxiety? Oxy is a hard detox. I know. I felt.like i.was.loosing.my.mind the first.two.weeks. This is part of.the process

[bama88]

If you feel.like you need.medical.attention the er has tone you. Its the law.they are used to treating withdrawls. They have seen it all. Most.doctors.want.to.help. They know.this is a problem in today society.

[strugglingbad]

My situation is that im 27, married, two children, one at home and one from a previous relationship. My wife, god bless her, is trying the best she can to deal with this. She is an amazing woman. Which is why I can no longer live this way. She deserves so much better than this. I am determined to get over this, im just feeling like Ive been hit by a truck, im hurting so bad all over my body. We both work full time at pretty dead end jobs and I love her so much, but I cant control my emotions and im laying a lot of this on her. I scream out in pain and I know it scares her. She is gonna need a support group before this is ovee

[all_alone1]

I agree with baba by law community hospitals have to see and treat you..

[theaddict]

she can always join this forum as well! <333 for supprt. but definitely get into something outside of the internet for support as well. everyone here is amazing - but always good to have something outside of this as well. i hope that makes sense.

her standing by you right now says a lot. you are so lucky to have that in someone. i went through mine CT and by myself almost in dead silence in an apartment i couldn't afford because i took off from work for ample time to get myself back to me. now, i only regret not signing up back then!

but like bama88 stated, a hospital is required by law to see you, regardless of whether you have insurance or not.

[strugglingbad]

I have nothing. I cant go to sleep. I am really battling here. You are all I got right now and I dont even know you but, from the bottom of my heart, thanks for being on here tonight

[misstheoldher]

Run a hot bath and go relax in it. My sister is an addict and say everything your explaining tonight. I'll pray for you... Just keep Trying to get passed it and you will get back om track..