well here I go...

[cant_keep_falling]

Well...came clean to my doc bout everything, came clean to hubby and start my addiction counseling monday morning. Doc was upset that I had pulled a cold turkey and said it was way too dangerous so I'll be on some meds to get thru the weekend then we'll figure out my next step monday. I can deal with that. I did what I knew I had to do for quite awhile now and I know I'll find the strength to move on. For now, I'll take it an hour at a time and just stay focused on my goal. It was fricken hard comin clean to my loved ones...but I did and now I can just focus on getting my life back...

[cant_keep_falling]

Lots n lots of percocets n dilaudid everyday. Seems hubby is gonna be able to forgive me...he's been pretty supportive today which shocked me since the wounds I caused him are still really fresh. I have my appt w the addiction counselor monday morn and since my dr gave me my meds today, I decided to hit a meeting tonite...all on my own and all by myself..but I DID IT! I really had to force myself, bur still, I did it and I'm allowing myself to take pride in that. It was hard tellin all those people how awful a person I've been...but I MADE myself do it, thought I was gonna puke my brains out lol but I proved to ME that I CAN do this

[justsaynotodrugs]

    What was you addicted to, Dr. is right should not quit cold turkey you may have side effects that are unbearable just keep up the good work and it will work out.   one day at a time one hour if thats what it takes. Let go let God.

[Innerstrength67]

Yea, coming clean to our loved ones is very difficult. If they love us than they will forgive us.I guess it depends on the lies if any and how long we have been living this secret life.
I lied a lot over and over. Forgiving ourselves is the most challenging however it can be done.
I'm glad you told your dr and family. It's the first step. Addiction thrives on secrets!