what next

[singha]

After 2 and a half weeks of successful tapering and then taking the last Ultram 7 days ago...I called for a refill. Why????? I am sooooooo upset with myself, but not so upset not to pick them up and take one right away. UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sorry to all of you that held my hand through this I screwed up.

[chrosty]

hey
I dont know why we do this kinda stuff but we do dont beat yourself up over it I went five days with nothing and got right back on my hydros. I feel like an idiot but like lil rab says we are not stupid we are only human. I say humans with a horrible addiction right!!!!!!!  Im here for you babe. luv chros

[Peete1974]

We all fumble, hang in there at least you are trying right?  Start over when you can and go from there.  Good luck!

[dyblue]

so what next are you going to take just one a day or what you have pain right.  don't feel bad you did good at least you know you can do it.

[LIZZIE LOU]

RELAPSE IS PART OF ADDICTION...but picking yourself up and starting anew is part of recovery...

stop the insanity...flush those pills girl...do it now!  don't get tangled back up with them...do it for you...for your life...for your future...FLUSH THEM...

i have been here awhile and i can't tell you how many ppl have done the same thing that you did.  when they flushed them...they never felt better...reclaim the control girl.

huggs,
kim

[avisg]

singha,
Girl I agree with lizzie if ya picked the skript  up flu sh them I know how hard it will be but you can do it. We have the same D/O/C so I know how you are feeling but you can stay off them.Iam here if ya need me
Avis

[minnie11]

Please don't beat yourself up over it, as Lizzie Lou wrote it happens for so many people on this forum that they relapse. Try to remember why you decided it was time to stop at this point and keep reminding yourself about it - and tomorrow is a new day where you can start over. You have been doing so well - you have been so strong. You can do it.
Minnie

[lil_rab2005]

I couldn't have said it better than all the people before me that posted back to ya before me.  Don't be sorry to us, there is nothing to be sorry for.  That's just a little set back and you didn't let anyone down.  I'm here for you no matter what you do sweetie.  You've always been so encouraging to me, no matter if I lapsed or not.  You hang in there sweetie!!!  We're all here for you.  I can't get over how many people here that truly care and are so understanding on this forum.  It really helps alot to everyone here.  Just always remember what you went through to get off them sweetie.  Taking one will not put you back in the physical withdrawals.  Taking them for a few days will put you right back where u started.  In that miserable of a pit of diarrhea, depression, flu feeling, anxious mess.  Think about that before you take more sweetie.  I really don't want you to go through that again.  Taking one or two or three won't do anything but please think about it before you do more than that.  

Relapsing is like falling off a bike.  Just get up, dust your knees off and get back on.  ALL of us has done it, me myself have done it so many times over the past few months, I've never went 13 days without them or even half of that before I stumbled upon this site on accident.  So I know this site has some very special people on here or I wouldn't be able to say that today.  We will all get over this with the help of each others support.  I know we can get through this, it just takes some time and will power.  Each and every one of us WILL get through this!!  I just know it.  I can feel it.  Try and relax tonight and pat yourself on the back for coming this far.  Have a good nite and tomorrow is fresh day!!!  Luvs, Lil.  :)

[Hunter123]

Singha - I did the exact same thing 5 days ago and I went, got the refill, took too many pills and came on this board with such guilt, but I told everyone.  Here is the only place I can be honest.  After everyone gave me such support and knocked some sense into my head, I flushed the rest of the pills.  It was so hard, but I am back on track again and I wouldn't have if it weren't for everyone here.

I am always here for you and I have a lot of faith in you - you can flush those pills :)  My prayers and love are coming over right now, so get ready!!!  

Please let us know how you are doing, you have a big group of supporters!