what to do

first off, I LOVE THIS FORUM, i look foward to my morning coffee and reading for about 2 hours , just the feeling of not being alone in this addiction of lortabs. if anyone wants read my profile so i dont have to post my history and make this a 2 page post..lol..as it states, im so ready to lose the pills forever.. but since i created my profile, i have gone on a binge during the month of december i have gone through about 300 pills , for some reason i found them everywhere more than ever. i have gone through my regular 120 from my g.p., on nov.21 my nerosurgen gave me 60 5mg perc's, on dec.21 i called for a refill of the perc's but i guess i had to pick up that prescription personally, well he called in 60 lortabs instead, publix filled the script with some other kind of lortab instead of watson's. well those didnt help at all.but of course i took them along with my watsons. all the rest of the pills i took where bought, traded for valuim(i dont think valuim does a thing for me, but i have a monthly script of them).. so here i am jan 2, looking at 45 pills left and not sure what to do,,
i have my surgery on the 15th. pre op on the 10th.. i cant be going through w/d's at this time. i know this is going to be the worse w/d's i have ever gone through. and i have gone through some bad ones and not so bad in the last 2 years. twice i ended up in the hospital they were so bad. ...
what do i do, i have never taken so many pills before and scarred to death.. i might be able to get my last refill of 120's around the 9th but not sure because i filled that script on the 21st. should i quit right now and get sick before my pre-op, i dont know if i can mentally do that knowing i have some pills on hand. family knows i take them, they have no idea how much. they are very nieve to a pill addict.. and have no idea i have been on them for 2 years.. my mom is comming out from ca on the 13th to help after the surgery.. if i get sick they will cancle my surgery and my mom will be out the cost of the ticket, and i dont want to do that to her she has cancalled some of her plans to come out for 10 days..does anyone have any idea's.. i am ready for the surgery to get rid of the pain, pills etc.. any advice would be heplfull.. am i over reacting?? thanks and happy new year all, diane

[BlotOutTheSun]

sounds like you got pils coming at you from all directions, at the amount your taking id start tapering down some b4 you try c/t again, tapering i think is more difficult than c/t beacuse i had trouble sticking to my taper schedule id always tkae more than whatd id planned, maybe try going one day just taking 2 or 3 pills less than you normally take and see how you feel, then if no w/ds come down a little more each day, youll just have to make you a 45 pill schedule and stick to it, good luck!

[dogneedshelp]

WOW!!!!!! You are in a tough spot. I don't really think you can detox by your surgery and not have the pain meds from surgery put you right back in this same hole. On the other hand you have built this tolerance to pain meds and I wonder how helpful the meds from surgery will be. It looks like you need some pro help. I would come clean with my surgeon so he can get a pain management specialist on board to help with the pain after surgery and then to help with the wd's after you heal. At least you are not in denial and you are ready to face this head on. I'm proud of you for taking this 1st step. Most of us got started down this terrible path because of some incredible pain and just slipped into addiction without ever seeing the line between pain management and addiction. Don't beat yourself up. Now go get clean and best of luck with the surgery

[traveladdict]

I would give your pills to someone and have them dole them out on a taper plan. I would   spend two weeks tapering and you wont get that sick.Then meds from surgery will still work.  After that make a plan to get off the pills and stay off. Good luck.  It is hell being stuck in this cycle but you can get off the ride.

[luvmyfrogs]

its great having you all around, its like instead of having one freind to talk too and having one opinion. i get a whole world of opinions and advice all within minutes.. i think thats great.. i wonder what we as addicts did before the computer/internet. i bet we lost alot of good people because not having anyone to talk to at the time who felt their life was falling apart... im going to try a taper.. i have to do this.. all you guys on this forum are A+ in my book...

[GoingToMakeIt]

At these doses you should definitely taper. I would be worried about your liver. Lortabs contain 625-750mg of Tylenol. The maximum Tylenol per dose is 1000mg with 4000 maximum in a day. The Watsons are less in the Tylenol. Since they are both 10mg hydrocodone, it is interesting that you had different relief results.
(Lortabs 10/625 and Watson 10/325)
Keep us posted on your progress.

[dogneedshelp]

I can't imagine doing this alone. I guess before the internet, this is how AA and NA got started. You gotta talk it out. Sit tight and keep posting. Let us know how you are doing.

[wannawean]

I enjoyed your post and profile and agree you are in a tough spot. If you can level w/the surgeon that way he's not unaware. You will definately require stronger post-op meds then most patients so don't leave him out of the loop. You still have a couple weeks before the surgery, I would suggest trying to cut back(I know easier said than done)but that way your tolerence won't be through the roof.I wish you the best of luck w/the surgery!