what would happen if i did take the whole bottle of tylenol?

I seriously thought a suicide the other day and I opened the bottle. I wanted to know what would have happened if I did take a ton of Tylenal and what if I didn't tell anyone I had taken it? I actually really scared me because I didn't think I had enough courage to actually do it.

[GA Guy]

It would be a pretty painful death to be honest. I've seen people do that to themselves by mistake through taking pain pills loaded with Tylenol. It's horrible for them and for their families. I do know that there has to be some sort of pain in your life for you to ask this. I know that kind of thought, though. Suicide is much like my addiction..it's just the wanting of the pain to stop..whether physical or mental. Where's your pain coming from, hun?

[avisg]

your scaring me hun first off if you did plz have someone take you to the ER right away How old are you?  That amount of acetaminophen to you liver would be toxic and could cause the need for a new liver or kill you in a very unpleasant way .suicide  is a temporary if to a permanent problem .You dont want to die whatever it is that is hurting u there will be better happier times you do want to miss out on you are worth more then that ...

[lynniev]

This is really important!  Did you take the tylenol, if so how many and how long ago, this is imperative you answer us.

Lynniev

[lboogie7729]

I can tell you first hand what could happen, because I did it twice, once when I was 13 and again at 14. the first time I ate over 180 aspirin and I started basically having a panic attack on the way home in the car with my mom. Heart racing, sweating, shaking, screwing with my vision, crying uncontrollably, and then I started throwing up. She called a poison hotline and she was told to rush me to the E.R. because they had to get charcoal in my system to stop it from absorbing the aspirin and killing me with a stroke or heart attack. I had tubes shoved up my nose while I was throwing up, and they pumped liquid charcoal into my system. When they went to take blood, it was so thin, it went spraying everywhere like a movie. My mom was horrified to say the least. It was all disgusting and painful and embarrassing and basically like torture, that I inflicted on myself. I ended up in a dual diagnosis (addiction/mental disorder) clinic for 2 weeks. The second time I ate over 300 aspirin about 8 months later and same thing, I started feeling like a panic attack or heart attack was coming on. I was on the phone with my boyfriend and he knew something was wrong so he made me call a family member. I almost shot myself that night, but I'm a little chic and when I tested the shot gun (I lived in the woods) it threw me backwards. My grandma cried her freaking eyes out screaming bloody murder at the thought of her grand baby blowing her had off. Instead I went back to the ER and ICU for 2 days. I was between heart patients, adult men with families that depended on them and I was only 14. I've known people who have OD'ed and ones that have actually committed suicide. To think of what I've put my family through is a sad, sad thing and I have to forgive myself for hurting them by hurting myself. I OD'ed again about a year and a half ago on some heavy duty prescription meds that would have killed most people. My memory is not the same, and I'm only 32. Talk to us, people on here, friends, a school counselor (which I used to do in junior high and still see a counselor at the university I graduated from). There are people who can listen and maybe offer some advice or support, because a lot of us have been there and done that and fortunately for me personally, I'm still alive and breathing. You can send me a friend request and add my mom remar, she is a great person to talk to about this kind of stuff and she co-chairs one of the community boards on here. I understand the fantasizing about suicide, and I also understand the incredible complexity and seriousness of the act of taking yourself out. I just wanted to reach out when I read this because I can assure you, you do not want to OD on anything, nothing good can come of it. If nothing else, just realize right now that there are complete strangers on here who care about you! So you matter to us. :-)

[dominosarah]

Are you still here?  Please talk to us........sara

[my_mayberry]

nearly always, given enough time, one becomes glad they did not decide to kill themselves. so many of us seriously consider it...even decide how.....but for one reason or another we don't and we end up being glad we didn't. i had a good friend die when i was 15 at a time where i was somewhat suicidal. in retrospect, how unfair would it have been for me to voluntarily have taken my own life when he died at such a young age quite unwillingly?

i know i'm only truly going to be free from my addictions and mental problems when i'm dead...but however good or bad living is for me at any given time, it's always been better than the alternative...because as long as i'm living i can be with those i care about and laugh sometimes and sometimes be happy...if i'm dead, i don't get any of those things. we have all of the cold dark eternity to be dead..but we only get a very very small amount of time to actually live, so there's no need at all to rush death.

[Ashleigh1994]

So many things....my mom died about 3 years ago and a little over a week later my dad went to jail for seven years. My mom left me with 3 other kids cause im the oldest so i felt it was my responsibility to help take care of them. I'm a freshman in high school so its hard to and with me being obese doesn't help.i kept my grades up cause of my mom. im living with my grandparents and we had got into a really big fight. we seem to always get into a fight. she brings up my parents in my face and i get really mad about it. im the type of person who wants to help and please everyone even when i can't. my brother who is nine is having problems along with my sister so im trying to get them to stay with me so i can help them. my other brother is four and is staying with his dad so he okay for now. im a a and b student and i got an offer to go to ASMSA in hot springs but it just isn't going to work out now. i feel like no one even cares what im going through. yesterday i felt alone and i guess helpless so i thought maybe by me being gone that would show them what i was going through and open their eyes. i don't like to tell my friends cause all they say is calm down and not to worry when if i don't worry no one else will

[Ashleigh1994]

im 15 and no i put the bottle away bc it really scared me that i actually was going to do it. i mean ive thought about it before but i was so close. im sorry im starting to really sound like i want attention

[Ashleigh1994]

no i didn't i put it away but it scared me really bad and thanks for being so concerned

[Ashleigh1994]

thanks i'll add your mom. i really appreciate it :)

[Ashleigh1994]

yeah im sorry i have a english term paper due wednesday so i started to work on it. i didn't mean to scare you if i did.

[Ashleigh1994]

i really liked your words. i just felt and still feel that my family could do without me. maybe then my sibling and grandparents would actually know what im feeling and that it really hurts. i wish i could help financially but im only 15 and no one will hire me here. im sorry i really feel like i want attention

[avisg]

Your family can NOT do without U they need U and U need them .You have gone threw so much for someone your age and I am truly sorry I can hear the pain in your voice.I know you want to help out but you still deserve to be a kid and enjoy being a kid.I have two kids  my daughter is 18 and my son is 12 My daughter had some rough times but she came out of it wonderfully she is in college now with the big age difference between them she really liked to help out which was great but I had to push her to enjoy being a kid not taking care of her little brother ..Your grandparents are there for all of you too which is great .Are you all getting some counseling ?
I you ever want to chat send me a PM I am here all of the time ..I know I am NOT your mom but I am a mom so if you need an ear send me a message .
avis

[my_mayberry]

you shouldn't assume to know how well your family would do without you simply because every day that each member of your family wakes up, they wake up  assuming you're alive and well. you can't possibly know what they would feel if one day they woke up and you didn't. they probably have never even thought about it. this is why it's never a good idea to assume we know what another person will feel if we die. certainly our presence gets taken for granted....i take for granted that when i wake up each morning, i will wake up to all the family i know and love...thats how i live my life. i don't live it as though they will soon die, and they wouldn't want me to....but see? it's for this reason that my mom, for example, can't possibly know what it would do to me if she died....or my wife or sister....because i don't spend my life telling them what it would do to me.

i don't know your story but i do know that at 15, our idea of life isn't quite developed yet. in 10 years, things will be unimaginably different for you....that much i can promise.

[Ashleigh1994]

thanks a lot

[Jebs317]

I sent you a message.  There are so many awesome people in this group and I think you have made a bunch of friends on here.  They have helped me get through two very hard weeks in my life and I know they will do the same for you.

You sound like a caring and beautiful person!!  Your younger siblings are so lucky to have you.  When you feel sad or lonely........sign on and start talking to your new friends!!

[worried878]

Liver toxicity is no fun..glad u did not do that
If u feel that way again..post...and wait it out...these feelings usually go away if u sleep on it

glad all is well

[wantoutofhell]

I can't tell you how glad I am that you didn't take that tylenol.  I overdosed on tylenol (about 70 +) when I was in college and WAS seeking attention.  I know you aren't!  I was in such emotional pain, and thought, it's only over the counter... it won't ACTUALLY kill me.  Needless to say, it almost did.  I was in the hospital for 2 weeks and on a liver transplant list.  I was so horrified to think  I was there because of something I'd done to myself on a "whim!"   A priest would come every night  ...  now that I know more, I think I needed valium though I wasn't given it... because I was in a state of panic that NEVER subsided the entire time.  Acetimenophen (sp?)  absolutely destroys the liver as avisg says!  Thank God (and yourself) that you wrote about it rather than doing it.  It's heartbreaking to think of one who is clearly at truly beautiful soul, like yourself... or anyone for that matter...  should feel so hopeless.  Prayers do help... wether you believe or not.  I know a lot of people here will be keeping you in their prayers.  God bless you Ashleigh!  I hope and pray that you have the life you deserve.  You are so very young....  your whole life is in front of you.  You can still have it be whatever you want.  Your family needs you.   And so do many others that you haven't even yet met.   I wish you all the best, and pray that you find happiness.  I'm so glad you found this forum.

[relayane]

please be aware that the way you feel now will not be the way you feel later!! there are so many areas of your brain still developing (esp the prefrontal cortex) that deal specifically with consequential prediction and cognative decision processes. I overdosed when i was 18 and thankfully was saved by hospitalisation. i know it feels like the pressures of life are insummountable, but i can assure you it changes..please give yourself a chance- i promise if you tough it out it does get bearable...hang in there!

[nobody366]

Hi, I've been searching for the most painless way to die and came to read your comment.  I appreciate it.  Can you help me?  I am 39 years old.  I have 3 wonderful beautiful children that matter the most.  I've been married 15 years.  My family looks perfect and everyone thinks I'm a very happy funny person but I feel like I'm either going to go crazy or my anger is going to consume me and something horrible is going to happen.  I feel this way the most when I have a problem with my husband.  The thing that drives me crazy is that he said one thing and a few hours later, either he doesn't remember a thing about what I told him or he tries to lie to me because he did something totally different from what he had said he would do.  It seems like I'm not important to him at all even though he says I am.  He only remembers things he likes or cares about but things matters to me  don't even exist if that's got nothing to do with his interest.  We fight so often because he doesn't remember things that he said with his own mouth few hours ago.  I feel like either he has mental problem or I'm going crazy.  Our argument is pretty intense and I especially hate when our children watch us arguing.  I feel like I'm a bad mom showing bad examples to my kids and they would be better off without my bad examples and without yelling and screaming and crying.
Few days ago, it was my mother's birthday.  My mom cannot speak English and seems like she doesn't even like my husband or my kids.  She says she does but many experiences just confirm me that she doesn't care about my family.  She never even tries to learn English to speak to her grandchldren, doesn't want me to visit her with my family, and doesn't want to visit us either.  My older sister lives with my mom and she cares dearly about my sisters children.  I told my sister that I would call her through Skype on mom's birthday so my kids can wish her happy birthday .  I had my family practice saying happy birthday in her language and I called.  Her phone was turned off.  I kept trying for several hours and couln't get hold of them.  The next day I finally got home of them and they were mad at me and tried to argue that it was my fault.  I had to try very hard to be calm.  I told them that it was good that mom had a good birthday.  That matters the most and told them to call if they need anything and I hung up.  I felt so bad for my kids.  They have grandma and they love her because of things I tell them about her but they don't even know and remember her face very much and it's clear to me that my mom doesn't care about them.  I called few days later to check on my mother and she told me that I have the worst personality.  I don't know what I did so wrong to hear that but it surely hurts.  It hurts so bad to hear from someone I've loved and respectd in my whole life.  I'm starting to think that she is right.  I think I am the worst human being.  I had a hope that God will know me but I'm not so sure anymore.  I think after I die, I will also hear from him that I have the worst personality and that I'm a full of dissapointment.  My husband doesn't care about me.  I set bad examples as a mother to my wonderful children and I will ruin their lives.  What's the point of me being still alive.

[Ashelen]

PLEASE please please talk to somebody....you are NOT unloved. your children need you in their life SO much....I understand what's going on in your life now, but what has lead you to this point? Does your husband realize just how stressed you are? My mother and I have an awful relationship too and she says some horrible things to me (she's an abusive alcoholic) but I refuse to let her nastiness define who I am and how I feel about myself.

Please tell me about yourself.... I know that you ARE important....and that I've been where you are, feeling like there's no point...but there is always a point.

[Jimmy1975]

Hi there , I am so sorry you're going threw this difficult time . From what I have read you DO have three wonderful children that I am sure it would devastate if their mom was taken from them and in that manor for sure ! Please try and find another way to express your discontent then even thinking of taking your own life please ! You sound like a warm , loving human being to me and I'm sure your children adore you ! Talk to a priest , talk to a good friend but for God sakes don't even think of that please !!! We are all survivors of sorts here our selfs and we all care about each other and help each other . There is always a dark period in most of our lifes and this is one for you . It will pass your children will grow and love that their mother is there to help them become the fine adults i"m sure you want them to become . Think of them and get some help fast please from anyone ..A person who cares !!!  Jimmy

[vicki595]

Yes!!  You need someone to talk to in person but until then keep posting ...Listen to what people here have written..

[Claire_MHModerator]

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