when I am gonna just let go

[Tammers10]

I am not really too sure what else is left for my husband to do to betray me..........between lies, secrets. and now I just learned a few hours ago that he took all my methadone that a doc prescribed to me for my fibromyalgia..........i have suffered with pain for a year with no narcotics because i didnt want them in the house......and he knows that. I havent started taking the methadone because i dont want to get addicted(because I dont want to turn into him) I finally decided to go to a new doc and he gave me methadone right in front of my husband. He also said he would test my blood the next time I came in to make sure it was in my system and I was the only one taking them. I was relieved that my husband heard him say that............so he knew hands off.  I told my husband since the month ago at the docs office that I just decided to take the whole pill bottle back to the doc to show him i was not gonna take these and that I didnt sell them because I wanted this doc to trust me. I found today that every PILL is gone and I have an empty bottle. I keep crying asking myself how he can do the things he does to me and his family and he just says I dont know. Tonite he said he is just a degenerate........................he has no regard for anyone anymore. He could careless about me or his family or the marraige. He is not the man I married and I hope everyone on this site knows how badly they hurt the ones who love them most!!!!! I need to be away from him now!!!!! Thats it!!!!! I am done with this ****!!!!! God help him!!!!!! He has lost the best things in is life....................and he doesnt even give a ****!!!!!

[zzzaaaccckkk]

get him inpatient therapy.  Take him there as a threat on u possibly staying or going. There r great 3 week programs. Followed by out patient. In patient will give him time to find himself. If u can get him to go, c him everyday to show him support. N while he is finding himself u may find u.  

[oxygirl487]

oh sweetie i feel so bad for u and wish there was something i could say or do to make u feel better but really i cant.....just reminds me of how much i hurt everyone in my family ..all the lies i told....im so sorry this has happened to u and all i can offer is the fact that  im here if u need to talk or vent or whatever......god bless u sweetie.......has he tried any rehab or anything? just curious