will 5mg perk start me over?

[kgn1212]

Im almost 3 days in but cant stop this crawling feeling. Its at its worst righr now. How far will I be set back if I just do a tiny little bit of perk. Maybe even half of a 5mg

[kgn1212]

For some reason my posts keep deleting ugh anyone else having an issue

[kgn1212]

Thank you all so much. I have had some things in life that were so very hard to get through and this I did to myself. Time to get myself out of it and have my life back. And I cant wait. I wasnt prescribed any of what I was taking so I was payin street price which is not cheap to keep up with. I just cant wait to get everything back. I was so down I caved and still am up and down cuz of my emotions but I cant let it beat me. I did what I did but instead of wanting more I was disgusted and want nothing to do with it.

[Frogger76]

Honey don't feel bad, we've all been there!! Remember, you can do this. It's gonna be a long bumpy road, but the destination is amazing!!! Stay strong and don't give up;)

[refills]

OK now you're talking. Don't go beating yourself up, these things happen. Like my detox nurse told me. If you fall down, get right back up. It's where we wind up that counts. You have so much to live free for. Keep posting. Your story inspires others. Good Luck and Best Wishes.

[kgn1212]

Thank you. I appreciate the support. I am disappointed but I am better than this and will not keep using. I know easy to say right now. Anyways thank you and I will keep posting.

[Krissy_123]

You didn't let anyone down but yourself. Don't apologize,just cut all your sources if you're really serious about quitting. And you have to get some sort of support help in the real world. I thought I could do it alone too. I couldn't,I now have a sponser. I couldn't get through what I'm going through right now without her. And once I'm recovered from surgery I am going to finally try a na meeting. And just FYI...there is no such thing as a functioning addict,we just think we are

[kgn1212]

Hey everyone. I feel so horribly guilty because I caved and did the last little perk I had. I feel so ashamed and so disappointed. I cant believe im ever coming back to this site to tell all of my failure. Im sorry to let everyone down. I cant believe I caved. It is the last of it though and have no access to anymore. I know this will be prolonged but I really hope it doesnt set me back to day 1. I really wish I had a support team at home and could go public with this but I cant. I know I know sohnds silly to say I cant but really I cant. I will not lose my kids when I am a very high functioning addict. I know I will get theough this and I did **** up big time but I have to do this. I truly have no access now and I did tell my brother. He is a huge supporter. He went through this and is 6 months clean. Im soo sorry I let u all down

[Cricketk92]

Congrats on Day 3!!!  Why dont you just flush the pills!!!  We LOVE good flushing parties on here!!!  When I flushed mine it felt so good knowing that I was serious about stopping.  It is way too tempting to have them around!  I can tell you that 99% for sure if I didnt flush mine I never would have made it!  The pills will keep calling you and if they are there you most likely will give in!!  SO just flush them and get through the next few days and you will feel better!!! Yes!  Detox S***S!  But it really DOES get better!!!  Keep letting us know how you are doing!!!

[refills]

What would you do if you already had thrown the pills out? That's right, you wouldn't be temped right now. You may still have the cravings but you couldn't act on them. You can do this! Having pills around? You're setting yourself up for a fall. Go for it. Keep in mind why you're doing this. Go for it!

[Sonrissa]

Yes, it will start you over.  If you are truly serious about quitting, you must get rid of any and all pills you have.  You need to cut off all acces you have to pills so that you can not get anymore.

You are about 1/2 way through the worst of the physical withdrawals. Withdrawals typically peak at about day 3.  If you can hang in there, and not take any pills, you should start feeling better in a few days.

As was stated above, there are lots of things you can do to help lessen the withdrawal symptoms.  A,lot of this is truly about your determination and attitude.  The most important thing is, don't set yourself up for failure. Again, if you are serious about quitting, then get rid of the pills. Your mind will be screaming for them, and you will conjor up any reason or excuse to take them.  Trust me, I understand this.

I hope you will hang in there, and fight through this, and stay on the road to recovery.  You are worth it.

[dominosarah]

Congrats on 3 days!!!   Please get rid of any pills you have laying around.  You will feel better in a couple days.  There are things you can do like take warm baths or showers.  Get up and move around as much as you can.  Bananas are good for RLS also.  You are so close now so just hang tight.  You can do this!

[onthefence]

so what happens when u feel awful again after teasing yourself with a crumb?

[kellygirll]

dont do it you will feel better in another day or 2 please please dont!! and congrats on the 3 days thats awesome