xanax for norco/methadone withdrawl

[lnz1986]

for the last 2 years ive been taking norcos (now up to 8-12 a day) no rx. just self medicating =( wrong i know. neways i want to stop. ive tried "cold turkey"n it a couple times, never succeeded. i wish i knew how long this lasted (it myt help if i could see the end near) neways, besides the obvious hell of w/ds the cold sweats, the pounding heart, the crazy stomach, no appetite, vomiting, wrestless limbs!! and over all aching, i wish i could at least get some rest. its hell that you wish you could just sleep some of the time away only to find that U  CANT SLEEP!!! neways im going crazy, i have a bb to take care of, so i cant feel like **** =( allthough if i knew it was like 3 days or something i could stick it out. but it feels like theres not end. can some1 honestly tell me how long ill feel like this???? also i was given about 20 1 mg xanaxs. i read that benzo's and advil were given to ppl in treatment centers to help w w'ds. so i took 1 last nyt (half of one) and was able to sleep. i also took another half around 12 noon when the cold sweats, and a heart going to pound out of my chest. it helped w that. i felt like it was ok bc it wasnt an opiate. so im still detoxing from them, just getting a little relief from something else. i only plan to take them untill the wd's stop seriously. i dnt even like the way they make me feel. but anything that takes my hell from a freaking 12 down to a 5 i give in to. but reading some blogs here on the addictiveness of xanax and that the wds wer WORSE than opiate wds. i didnt think that was possible! and the risk of seizures?!?! is that true? if i take a half mg mb twice a day for 3-7 days or however long this **** lasts is that putting me at wd, and seizure risk?? PLEASE HELP ME!

[lostspirit]

New here.Been on multiple morphine.Kicked that easy.It's Norco that's tough.Been on it for 2 years and have been through every HELL!
All the craziness and pain is caused by the drug!It exacerbates the very thing you are trying to make go away(physical,emotional pain).
I have been trying to kick it for over a year now.Making some progress.As much as we hate to face it,it does take great effort and much too long but finding anyway we can to get through it is really all we got and that can be different for each of us and some things can be same.
Trying to kick it too fast can be a recipe for failure,although some may be able to go that way.Tapering off a little at a time along with accepting slipping back may be a way to go.I keep telling myself what came to me years ago."It's not how many times you fall but how many times you get up."Whatever you have felt,are feeling or will feel I and many of us have also gone through and are going through.Share your experiences here.

[lnz1986]

its noon ryt now, and i took that damn kadian last nyt @8. other than the severe guilt i feel (and anxiety that ne progress (3 days) that i made is long over and im going to have to start all over!) i dont feel wd symptoms. ive been praying non stop to make them not come back, and even w as much faith i have, i have a hard time believing there over. that god damn pill must still be in my system ryt????  and most of you are ryt. my husband is a controlling insinsitive *******. but i feel its my fault. theres been so many times ive said i wanted to quit and hes bought things so i could "taper" but i never had the desire. i dnt blame him for not trusting me. i dnt know how to make him see that i MEAN it this time. last nyt was proof! my DOC didnt even take me where i thought it (and where it used to) take me. i was/am litterally suffocating w guilt. the dr. situtation is some thing w hmo's and then the other one. neways hmos would cover something pre-existing but it would raise his work insurance (by adding me w a "pre-existing) to almost $900 a month. he has a good job, but is the main provider. im lucky enough to b a stay at home mom (even though these last couple days, my walls r closing in. i lost all my friends w this bb. bc all my friends are kinda wild, and i settled down to be a mom. so i have no1 to even talk to bc no1 knws. except my husband) neways, if i wait until march 6th when my insurance kicks in, i can get insurance and med. covered for only $200 than hes paying for his now. but if i go now, it will be considered "pre-existing" and they wont cover me. sorry to babble, WELCOME TO MIDDLE CLASS it should come with vaseline! neways once again ive written a novel. i just dnt have ne1 to talk to. can ne1 tell me if im feeling the effects of that pill still (30 mg kadian) or could my prayers have been answered and was that 3 days of hell not effected by my sheer human weekness and the wds r over?? as soon as i have insurance i plan to get cymbalta or something asap. (depression) i know ive always had it (i was a cheerleader in highschool secretly trying to commit suicide ne inconspicuos way....)ive always been depressed. but never wanted ne1 to know. i know now that was a good thing. look at what happened when i told my husband! =::::::::( now its, go take some ******* happy pills, and im "crazy" thats what he took it as as i was sobbing in the kitchen last nyt begging him for help and understanding........ne single guys out there who dnt mind a package deal ( baby)  i feel like hes making this worse. i just want to be able to stay home w my bb, =(

[steveo30]

sorry to hear the nightmare you seem to be going through,did you ever think about opening up to your husband about this or wouldn't that be a good idea.can you get your hands on some more to help you ween off,you said you've tried cold turkey before and it didn't work.this is not going to be easy,you are going to need help from somewhere besides this forum which is great but will not help you through the worst part of withdrawalshow long has it been since your last pill.pm me back,ok

[phuck_it]

your husband is an ignorant controlling azzhole! When things get better for you dump him BIG TIME! In order for you stay clean he must do the same or the temptation to use will never subside.

Focus on your child try and to find a free health clinic so you can visit with a dr without having to wait for your insurance to kick in.

BOL To you and your child!

PI

[Jester2005]

WHOA!!! What do you mean he won't let you go to the DR's? AND he gave you your DOC when you're trying to quit? I'm sorry to say this, but he doesn't sound supportive at all. More than that, it looks to me as though he doesn't want you to get help, to get clean. AND if he was (maybe still is??) taking more than yourself, it makes me wonder if he has a problem, too, and wants you to stay addicted to hide his own problems? Sorry, I'm a bit of a conspiracy theorist, LOL... but still, I'm p*ssed at him for doing that to you! The first few days are the worse and it only gets better after (I've read on here many MANY times). He shouldn't give you your DOC, especially with a comment like that, AND you should certainly!!! be "allowed" to go to your doctor. Is there any chance you can change DRs? Or go see her/him without "hubby" knowing about it? It's hard enough going through this feeling alone. Try to get help any way you can... Help Lines, counsellors, hospital DR/nurse, etc... Do you work? Do you have an assistance program for employees? I have one, only 6 sessions though, but at least it's free and they help with finding longer-term care and/or counselling. I'm just throwing out some suggestions b/c I know what it feels like to look for help, only to find out there's nothing around your area. Please remember that you're still young and have your whole life ahead of you. You WILL get clean!!! You WILL watch your daughter grow up. And you WILL make a better life for the both of you. God bless!!!

[kim715]

If you ask for a show of hands here of how many of us got it right the first few times,you're not going to have to count very high.I didn't read your entire thread.Tomorrow will not feel like day one.it is almost impossible for addicts,especially during w/d to turn down their DOC,especially when it's under the same roof.I know some can do it,but most can't.It's also very hard for those that love us to watch us suffer.My suggestion to you would be unless there is someone else there that can hold the pills for you and NO MATTER WHAT,UNDER NO CIRCUMSTANCES will they give them to you then get rid of them.Flush them,hand them off to someone outside the home to hold on to,but get them out of the house.You slipped,we all have slipped,the important thing is that you learn from it and keep moving forward.Don't let that guilt get the best of you,you have to let it go.You don't lose unless you stop fighting,so don't stop fighting.....All the best..Kim

[lnz1986]

thank you so much for all your support. its just so sad that you guys are more compassionate tham my family =:::::::( it also makes me feel that much more worse bc ive allready relapsed. i took a 30 mg kadian (moraphine) my husband of all ppl gave it to me. said here. feel better. it  was the devil himself. ive prayed and prayed to get thru this. and i gave in. whats even worse is that im more depressed now, tham EVER. today was day 3. i was hoping to just make it thru 4 more days of agony, then start the real recovery (learning how to deal drug free!!!!) well god came thru. i truly know now that i NEVER want this again. it wasnt the escape i was expecting (the chicken that i am) yes, my physical ailments are gone, but the depression that i feel is 1000 x worse!! im afraid im not gna be able to get out of this black whole (depression that is) i KNOW im not going back. at least feeling like **** meant i was getting closer to my goal. ive completely lost all progress. i feel like a lost cause. i cant even describe how down im feeling. not worthy of anything or ne1. today is one of  the worst days ever. so does ne1 know if im completly going to have to start from scratch tomorrow??? is all my progress gone???? is 2morrow going to feel like day one and so on from there??? what have i done.  

(mr.lucky66) its been norcos everyday for 2 years. methadones were when i couldnt find ne norcos.

[mr.lucky66]

you said norco and methadone withdrawal? Hydro WD is small potatoes compared to methadone. Are you taking methadone?

[hrsebz]

Go to the health store and get some 5htp and l-theanine thay are both for anxioty and depression just dont take ssris with them they helped me so much when I was going through w/d..What you are feeling is normal we all have been through it and it will pass your doing the right thing for your baby..just hang on your doing great you will pull thru,try to not be so hard onyour self your.

[sassymouth]

Inz, I could have written your post myself.  I have finally stopped crying long enough to type again.  I just wanted you to know that you are not alone. I also would like to know EXACTLY what I am in for.  I am scared to death.  I have not told my husband yet, but I certainly hope he is a little more helpful than yours.  Sorry.  Stay here and we can get through this together.  

Sassy

[lnz1986]

(faithnhope41) i have no 1 to watch my bb. i cant just sleep it off (as much as id like to try to see if thats even poss. my husbnd tells me to buck up :::::::(  that im being "selfish" which kills me more! does he really think i WANT to be like this??? also like i said, ive been self med. (street)  i dont have access to trazadone. i dnt have access to anything. im afraid this hopelessness is taking over. im afraid id take ne opiate i could find just to feel like MYSELF! i guess im glad i cant find nething. i WANT to be my normal sober happy self again!!! (steveo30) ive been taking norcos for 2 years. im on day 3. ive been taking exedrin back and body every 4 hours and hot baths and it seems to bring the 12 down to 6. the xanax sort of helps mellow me out, bc the anxiety is so bad. i just wish there was something i can do for the guilt! ive been sobbing nonstop for the past 24 hours. my husbands been taking some norcos too. recreationally (like i thought mine was) like 1-3 a day when we had them. when we ran out he didnt take ne (he has a 215 and smokes enough weed to put me in a coma (allthough it doesnt, im pretty sure i have restless leg syndrom) so mmost sleep aids (tylenonl pm, weed, sleeping pills) make my limbs more restless than wds! i have bb whose almost 2. i love her more than anything. here i go. im sobbing so hard i can barely type. i cant believe im finding comfort in this forum. comfort i should be getting from my husband (even though were borderline divorce) its worse bc no1 knows. im a soccer mom (wo the soccer lol) i dnt know how i got  here. im haveing sever depression (like i did ryt after the hormonal drop of preg.) thats why i know i have a chemical embalance. i must. ive been self medicating since i was about 12. i never felt "ryt" sober. always shy and unworthy of anything. ppl say i look like barbie. so why on the inside do i feel like tells from the crypt. im sorry to ramble. and im prob. way off topic. i just felt comfort talking to ppl tht know where im comming from. the thing is im here with an almost 2 year all day everyday. my husband says i took norcos (like 1 a day for 10 days where i was 8-10 everyday for 2 years!) id lie to him and everything. about $ im having such serious depression ryt now, im not even feeling so many wds. just overall lathargy. im so sad. i cant stop crying. im starting to feel liike my husbands ryt. look at me. im not cleaning my spotless house, i cant take my bb to the park ryt now (we used to go everyday) i want to kill myself but the thing stopping me is NO1 CAN LOVE MY DAUGHTER LOKE ME! its jot like im some crack head either. thats what i feel like. i just turned 22. my 27 yr old husband is a manager at a big computer com. i live in a gorgeous house. whats wrong w me! i dont have insurance until march 6th. my husband wnt allow me to go to the dr,  even when i for the 1st time broke down and told him the things in my head. how much im beating myself up, a good mom wouldnt have let this happen. if i were stronger i wouldnt have gotten addicted. if i were stronger id snap out of this. but my heart is broken im so depressed. i cant have my daughter see me like this. i want to stick it out untill insurance. but im to embarassed to tell them whats really going on in my head. does ne1 know if its just the wds making this hopless unworthy feeling worse?? please. ne help is appreciated. i dnt know how long i can feel like this.

[steveo30]

i forgot to ask,what did you mean by methadone withdrawal.it was part of the topic of your post but you never mentioned it .steveo

[faithnhope41]

The first three days are the worst, it gets gradually better. you wont feel like yourself again for a good month, but you'll be able to function better after about a week. I know it's hell, I've been through it a few times. But being clean is a million times better.  The Xanax does help, but only take it for a few weeks at most and taper off if you can. This is one of the hardest things you'll have to do in your life. But you can do it. It gets better, I promise. I did xanax the first three days of my tapering off, then I stopped. I'm still having a hell of a time sleeping, but tylenol PM is helping with the sleep and aches and pains of withdrawal. I still don't sleep well, but it will come. Trazadone is a great sleep aid for addicts.  Ask your doctor for some.  Good luck, be strong, Fight. It's worth it!

[steveo30]

you will feel like hell for another couple days ,at least the worst of it will be over.then you wont be able to sleep for about a month unless you have something to help you out.trazadone works well and is not addicting.as far as the benzos(xanax)yes you must be careful on how long and how many you take every day but you have nothing to worry about,especially only doing a total of 1mg a day for 7 days.the hard part is going to be the opiates,how long have you been on norcos.

[slapperman]

Yes BENZO W/D are bad. If you must use the BENZO make sure its not for an extended time because you will just be fighting 2 addictions. I believe the BENZO's should be used to make it through the 1st 4 days of CT WD then after that only if realy needed but not daily for longer then 2 weeks i think that's when we start to get addicted and that they are VERY ADDICTAVE.

[slapperman]

I hear ya, check out the health pages top / right. look under THOMAS RECIPE to help with withdrawals. I think that is as good as it gets. GOOD LUCK, YOU CAN DO THIS

-W/D last up to 5/6 days, then it gets gradually better